socrates
I know nothing except the fact of my ignorance.
- Dec 3, 2019
- 301
(and die) couldn't resit the rhyme XD
I guess for some context I struggle with agoraphobia ad extreme social anxiety. This was my first IRL date ever. I've had an online LDR that lasted 3 years, but we never met.
I've been struggling a lot lately, dealing with mostly small issues, but combined they become a huge problem. It's like grains of sand, sure I might be able to fix most of my problems, but is it worth it?
Honestly the date went great. I don't feel disgusting or like I was a social pariah like I normally feel when I go out. I felt like I fit in. I was hopeful, I could live the life I've always wanted, but now I feel like shit. There are a lot of reasons. some small some big. Some related to the date (though not many)
I guess this is to be expected, any time I feel happy there will always be a crash. It's part of the deal I guess. But if I go soon at least I can check off another thing off my bucket list. Feel bad for my date partner though. :(
I guess for some context I struggle with agoraphobia ad extreme social anxiety. This was my first IRL date ever. I've had an online LDR that lasted 3 years, but we never met.
I've been struggling a lot lately, dealing with mostly small issues, but combined they become a huge problem. It's like grains of sand, sure I might be able to fix most of my problems, but is it worth it?
Honestly the date went great. I don't feel disgusting or like I was a social pariah like I normally feel when I go out. I felt like I fit in. I was hopeful, I could live the life I've always wanted, but now I feel like shit. There are a lot of reasons. some small some big. Some related to the date (though not many)
I guess this is to be expected, any time I feel happy there will always be a crash. It's part of the deal I guess. But if I go soon at least I can check off another thing off my bucket list. Feel bad for my date partner though. :(
