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socrates

socrates

I know nothing except the fact of my ignorance.
Dec 3, 2019
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(and die) couldn't resit the rhyme XD

I guess for some context I struggle with agoraphobia ad extreme social anxiety. This was my first IRL date ever. I've had an online LDR that lasted 3 years, but we never met.

I've been struggling a lot lately, dealing with mostly small issues, but combined they become a huge problem. It's like grains of sand, sure I might be able to fix most of my problems, but is it worth it?

Honestly the date went great. I don't feel disgusting or like I was a social pariah like I normally feel when I go out. I felt like I fit in. I was hopeful, I could live the life I've always wanted, but now I feel like shit. There are a lot of reasons. some small some big. Some related to the date (though not many)

I guess this is to be expected, any time I feel happy there will always be a crash. It's part of the deal I guess. But if I go soon at least I can check off another thing off my bucket list. Feel bad for my date partner though. :(
 
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pebpebpebpeb

pebpebpebpeb

i have no enemies
Apr 1, 2020
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congratulations on your first date! i'm glad it went well, and i'm proud of you for getting through that and even enjoying the experience. dating in real like after a LDR feels like a breath of fresh air, i bet.

it's also so relatable feeling shitty after being happy. i hope the person you went on a date on reaches out and hopefully you'll hit it off!
 

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