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Discussionguys is it normal to be scared of dying?
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i feel like i don't need to ctb yet but the thought of living everyday just seems not worth it at all.. but I'm scared of not existing, I'm scared that i will be forgotten by my loved ones.
how can one exist without living?
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Surek, Mooncry, Le temps perdu and 5 others
Unsurprisingly yes, absolutely. I feel the same as you, I don't necessarily want to die, but the thought of carrying the burden of living every day and conforming to society is unbearable, extremely stressful, and are just not worth it.
The fear of non-existence is real. I usually like to combat it with the thought that everyone and everything dies sooner or later, so what difference really would it make if I died tomorrow? The universe exists already for so long. But the humanity for so little time - and maybe our kind is getting closer and closer to absolute extinction. I do not matter in the grand scheme of things. No one probably does, since we are just a fraction of the universe, incapable of shaping reality. One big meteor and we are all gone. No one to remember our planet. Just gone. Swiped like dust from the shelves.
People fight to be remembered. But when i think of cemeteries, there are so many neglected graves out there, soon to completely fall apart and just be forgotten. No one is caring for them. The time is gonna swallow them. Leave nothing behind.
It is just our egoistic body telling us how important we are, that we have to survive. Because it knows nothing else, except survival. We physically can not comprehend not existing. It is like trying to imagine a new colour.
It is just like the time before we were born - there was nothing. I believe that after death, there is also the same, empty nothingness. But there is nothing wrong with that - I do not remember feeling bad or good before being born.
It is actually kind of comforting, now that I thought of that. The nothingness feels warm to me. It feels really calming.
I am scared of dying, and also of hurting the few loved ones I have (my two daughters and my few close friends). But I also really can't go on living. It's way too much. And it's going to get much worse starting next week.
So I'm caught in between, in a place where I've attemped to CTB multiple times in the last few months (including twice today), but I often get second thoughts, fear of dying, or SI preventing me from going through with it. Really I wish someone would just kill me with no warning, so I wouldn't be so caught up in my thoughts.
Haha, humans are literally built to be scared of death. It's written in our code, we're just animals after all. All that emotion is rooted in thousands of years of evolution, just another way to keep us on this planet and reproducing.
I am scared of dying, and also of hurting the few loved ones I have (my two daughters and my few close friends). But I also really can't go on living. It's way too much. And it's going to get much worse starting next week.
So I'm caught in between, in a place where I've attemped to CTB multiple times in the last few months (including twice today), but I often get second thoughts, fear of dying, or SI preventing me from going through with it. Really I wish someone would just kill me with no warning, so I wouldn't be so caught up in my thoughts.
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