goodbye ?

[kittyswift]

according to my smartwatch my heart rate is 86, bp is 132/73 and oxygen is 96

 

[Bianka]

Wish you all the best whatever if anything comes after

 

[SVEN]

Sleep well, rest easy, Kitty.

 

[kittyswift]

living legend by lana del ray just started playing and i just burst into tears. i cant wait to be at peace. i feel so loved. thank you so much for the kind words everyone, it means more than you will ever know

 

[SVEN]

Though you are on your own physically, many of us are still with you, you are not alone.

 

[PetrichorBirth]

i feel really drunk and nauseous. but i am not in any pain. im trying really hard not to throw up. survival instinct is a bitch

Feeling drunk can be nice, being nauseous is not. Hope that the feeling of drunkenness is stronger though :o

 

[kittyswift]

im in bed, surrounded by my soft blankets and as childish as it is- some old plush toys from my childhood. i cant believe it will be over soon

 

[PetrichorBirth]

im in bed, surrounded by my soft blankets and as childish as it is- some old plush toys from my childhood. i cant believe it will be over soon

Not childish at all. It's as if life has come full circle. You started out with plush toys, and now you ended with plush toys.

 

[rozeske]

I love that we are all here with you and that it's giving you comfort and love. hope you find your peace soon

 

[kittyswift]

i feel dizzy. so emotional

 

[rozeske]

i feel dizzy. so emotional

Know how strong you are!

 

[jacobryan]

Goodnight Kitty. May you find peace

 

[kittyswift]

ill see you all on the other side im so glad to have found this community

 

[Praestat_Mori]

im in bed, surrounded by my soft blankets and as childish as it is- some old plush toys from my childhood. i cant believe it will be over soon

Your loved plushies will help you! Plushies are so cute! I hope you journey is pleasant as best as it can be and I hope your dreams become true and you find eternal peace.

 

[SVEN]

How far you have travelled in only 51 minutes. How strong you have been.

 

[PetrichorBirth]

Wishing you only warmth and comfort

 

[kittyswift]

81 bpm, 128/74 bp, 98 oxygen
my playlist

 

[Deleted member 65988]

81 bpm, 128/74 bp, 98 oxygen
my playlist

Hope you're still ok and I wish you nothing but peace through this.

 

[Miku _fanboy101]

possible goodbye post ? im using 1.4 BDO. i added 30ml to some diet coke. im finding the taste really off putting. im dry heaving after each sip. its a lot worse than my test dose (i used 10ml last time) if im not active after a few days please feel free to put a line through my name. this is what i want but its a lot harder than i thought it would be. all i have to do is finish this glass

Good night I hope eternal dreams sooth you

 

[PetrichorBirth]

81 bpm, 128/74 bp, 98 oxygen
my playlist

Do you feel like any of these have changed compared to before? Hows your nausea and everything going?

 

[rozeske]

You seem to be asleep kitty, hope you rest easy and at peace 🕊

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Rest well! Goodbye! I hope you've found peace!

 

[jacobryan]

Sleep well Kitty. RIP

 

[Tears in Rain]

I never came across anyone on this site who successfully ctb'd using butanediol on its own. I hope things went OK for you @kittyswift, and that you are at peace.

 

[kittyswift]

i just woke up in the icu. i was found and intubated

 

[Praestat_Mori]

i just woke up in the icu. i was found and intubated

Welcome back! I'm sorry it failed. How r u doing? How do you feel? I hope you recover quickly!!

 

[Macc_Lad_71]

i just woke up in the icu. i was found and intubated

maybe that's a sign! it's a long way from being your time.........best wishes

 

[SVEN]

Aww, sorry Kitty, please be kind to yourself.

 

[kittyswift]

hi all. im okay. i was intubated

 

[kittyswift]

You weren't alone for long enough then? I hope you're not feeling to confused or angry about the situation.

i feel a bit angry. im angry and confused it didnt work. im upset i wish it worked i was so close