I've set this as a schedule thread to approximately 72 hours from now, by the time you see this I should be resting in peace, my method is 25g SN and 600 mg of ibuprofen, I don't have the fancy stuff so the only back up I have is preparing two servings for myself.
Its too bad that i know when I die today my Irl community for religious and cultural reasons will dehumanize and look down upon me for me, really sucks that I would not get a single "neutral" person who will atleast be indifferent, suicide is really a taboo and an unheard thing in my community it just sucks to know basically a perfect 100% of them there first thoughts would be "they're in hell", with zero compassion or a thoughtful input, I might even become a scary boogeyman to little kids on what happens when you take "the easy way out" and be made an example off but hey atleast i'll be at peace (hopefully) and I've accepted that'll be my role so I've even become numb to it.
If I somehow god-forbid do survive and news spreads like wildfire in my community there is nothing i can compare that amount of shame and pain too aside from anything SA related, at that point my soul would be lifeless and the body will be moving on its own, I expect alot of shock at first then probably really stupid and unfair rumours that'll probably sound childish to you. I do find it funny how these are the same people who i dont even remember half of there names but anyways as long as i die today (72 hours before this gets posted) I can accept the consequences as long as I end up in the grave.
Thank you SS you've been a greater help to me than I think anyone had been for me and I'm sorry if my death will cause some unnecessary issues for you guys if they somehow found out about this post but I'm sure you can handle it.
I did not write any notes for anyone in real life so this post will be my final words.
Goodbye SS and I hope each one of you will find some peace.
Its too bad that i know when I die today my Irl community for religious and cultural reasons will dehumanize and look down upon me for me, really sucks that I would not get a single "neutral" person who will atleast be indifferent, suicide is really a taboo and an unheard thing in my community it just sucks to know basically a perfect 100% of them there first thoughts would be "they're in hell", with zero compassion or a thoughtful input, I might even become a scary boogeyman to little kids on what happens when you take "the easy way out" and be made an example off but hey atleast i'll be at peace (hopefully) and I've accepted that'll be my role so I've even become numb to it.
If I somehow god-forbid do survive and news spreads like wildfire in my community there is nothing i can compare that amount of shame and pain too aside from anything SA related, at that point my soul would be lifeless and the body will be moving on its own, I expect alot of shock at first then probably really stupid and unfair rumours that'll probably sound childish to you. I do find it funny how these are the same people who i dont even remember half of there names but anyways as long as i die today (72 hours before this gets posted) I can accept the consequences as long as I end up in the grave.
Thank you SS you've been a greater help to me than I think anyone had been for me and I'm sorry if my death will cause some unnecessary issues for you guys if they somehow found out about this post but I'm sure you can handle it.
I did not write any notes for anyone in real life so this post will be my final words.
Goodbye SS and I hope each one of you will find some peace.
