Goodbye

[Rinzitsu]

Rest in peace avaruus, wherever you are its better than here

 

[katy]

SO upset. Wish with all my heart you could have found another way. RIP.

 

[just_a_guy]

may you be forever at peace

 

[Ε. Η. R.]

I'm late.
This was hard to read.

Rest in peace, avaruus. You weren't a loser.

 

[Shiva_Story]

what a beautiful thread!
i had the tingles on my chest while reading this
Bon voyage soul! may you find your true home and experience what Love is. i'm sure you're in a better place now.

 

[Blue Elephant]

Why? The Fuck? Am I Crying So Much?

I'm late. I'm sorry I didn't say Goodbye. But, I see that the whole forum was here with you 'till the end. And.. I don't know much, but I don't think a "loser" would have been so loved as you are right now.

I'm grateful that I met you and that I talked to you! Thank you!

All the best!

 

[Ruma]

Rest in peace Avaruus x

 

[Unknown21]

Rip, I'll always remember u until I'm gone.

 

[KiraX]

Goodbye :') thank you for talking to me

 

[Smelly_ballz]

I will also miss your cat avatar. It says I'm new here but I have been lurking without an account bc I'm paranoid and shy. I wish neither you nor your family any suffering

 

[ManByTheRiver]

Why? The Fuck? Am I Crying So Much?

I'm late. I'm sorry I didn't say Goodbye. But, I see that the whole forum was here with you 'till the end. And.. I don't know much, but I don't think a "loser" would have been so loved as you are right now.

I'm grateful that I met you and that I talked to you! Thank you!

All the best!

I got to say goodbye both in thread and in DMs but it still hits hard, a little choked up when I think about it, I don't know why but another Finnbro dying just feels bad man.

 

[backtoearth]

We never spoke but I've seen you around in my (relatively) short time here, I'm so glad you were happy and surrounded in support in these last moments. Rest in peace, and I hope you found the place you were hoping for <3 I'll light a candle for you tonight, and you will be remembered here

 

[umopep!sdn128]

This is such rubbish, everything that is imposed on us by this society, parents, teachers, everything that is simply hammered into our heads from birth, when we are not mentally strong.
If you don't study well, you're a loser; if you don't have friends, don't communicate with the opposite sex, you're a loser. Damn... Fuck me when I need integrals and logarithms in this life. And why do I need friends and love if I was born a person with a Schizotypal character, as the fucking psychiatrists fucking write.
And what nonsense and bullshit is this "feeling of guilt" in front of people, thinking about whether I have the right, someone out there is disabled, poor, it could be even worse for him. If he lives and fights, he's such a good guy, then there's no way in hell his life is any worse. He is simply stupid enough not to understand the injustice of this world if he believes that he needs to live and rejoice in his condition. On the other hand, many people without physical disabilities and dysfunctional parents suffer much more due to mental problems, due to character traits (autistic character, ADHD and other disorders). 'But this is nonsense compared to "real" diseases, so work and don't whine!' Yes, this is actually the worst thing a person can be endowed with at birth! He is told that he is normal, and he must twist himself inside out in order to somehow correspond to the "normal", while the rest, luckier ones, have almost nothing to do in comparison with him. If a "normal" person were in such skin, he would not be able to stand a day without thoughts of suicide.
Addictions and escape from reality... This is such rubbish, but this is what has saved me personally in recent years. For example, porn addiction is such an abomination, but the body itself could not withstand 25 years of abstinence. Hell, I wish I'd been born asexual so those fucking youngsters of the opposite sex wouldn't have any effect on me. And video games work in the same way - the brain needs dopamine, pleasant sensations, but when life is so disgusting, where does the brain get the feeling of victory? I repeat once again, addictions SAVE people from suicide or insanity, they delay it. But ultimately, this is a vicious circle from which a person wants to get out; this cannot be done in a normal way, and suicide here is completely justified. Eh, I'm already tired of writing... I hope I conveyed the main ideas, although I'm terrible at expressing my thoughts and am emotionally agitated now.
Bye my friend. I have never communicated with you or seen you, but you are my friend and like-minded person. It is noteworthy that you mentioned that you are from Finland, one of the most prosperous and democratic countries. For example, I was born and live in the neighboring 'big and great' country starting with the letter 'R', I was born and live under one and only president! Needless to say, there is no future or prospects here.
I'm glad that you found the strength to take an absolutely logical and courageous action. This life on Earth is just disgusting and garbage. If there is another life in this universe, then it is probably that society is more advanced, noble, fair to everyone, and people are the same monkeys with their toys, compared to these higher beings. How unlucky we all are to be here! :(
All the best and I hope my time will come soon too.

 

[Old Friend]

Darn it. I missed him. He made no delay. Was super serious about his decision. May he rest in peace.

 

[greebo6]

Good luck

 

[qsocdu]

That's the first time I see someone I saw talking here going with the plan. Hope you have found the peace you sought.

 

[StillBreathing]

Shit, I'm sorry OP. You were very young so I hope you made the right decision. RIP.

 

[Blue Elephant]

I got to say goodbye both in thread and in DMs but it still hits hard, a little choked up when I think about it, I don't know why but another Finnbro dying just feels bad man.

It's difficult. It feels bad to lose a genuinely good person, regardless of who, what or where they are.

 

[LonelyKitten]

Oh, oh, it hits hard to see you go.
I enjoyed seeing you around, your silly cat avatar was very recognizable.
I always got a friendly vibe from your presence... Shedding a tear.

To be honest, I relate to a lot of your sentiments towards feeling like one didn't even try.
I don't know what causes it.
It seems to some of us, even trying to go to school, work or try to "compete" in the real world is inherently brutally painful.
Never understood how the majority just does it.

What is relieving is that from your final posts, it sounds that you have found peace, and felt good about your decision in the end.
That is the most important thing.
Sweet dreams, fellow lost soul...

 

[Oneness]

If somebody comes back to my account after weeks of being away, it's probably my parents.

avaruus was online an hour ago, so it's probably his parents. To avaruus's parents, if you happen to come across this thread, we want to express our deepest condolences for the loss of your beloved son. The pain of losing a child is truly beyond words. As you can see from the heartfelt messages shared in this thread, your son was a cherished member of this community. I've had the privilege of reading many of his posts, and he has always displayed remarkable empathy and offered valuable assistance to anyone here. Though he has left this world, may you find solace in knowing that his suffering has come to an end, and he now resides in a more peaceful place.

 

[haibane]

Sasu will never be the same without u, but i completely understand why u do (did?) it. I wish u the best of luck for ure method and I hope u will find the peace ure looking for

 

[username8888]

You weren't a loser. You were a GIGA CHAD!

 

[movinout17]

Thanks for all our interactions and contributions to the community. I wish you peace and love, wherever you are

 

[voyager]

avaruus was online an hour ago, so it's probably his parents. To avaruus's parents, if you happen to come across this thread, we want to express our deepest condolences for the loss of your beloved son. The pain of losing a child is truly beyond words. As you can see from the heartfelt messages shared in this thread, your son was a cherished member of this community. I've had the privilege of reading many of his posts, and he has always displayed remarkable empathy and offered valuable assistance to anyone here. Though he has left this world, may you find solace in knowing that his suffering has come to an end, and he now resides in a more peaceful place.

Noticed that too earlier this afternoon, but think it's the authorities. They were looking at someone's profile when I checked. Maybe a PM contact? Clo... *cough*

Anyway, seems he made it or he'd probably inform us. RiP

 

[cursedcure]

this one really hurts:( thaks for your help and i hope you are resting soundly, much love

 

[Anon1337]

Rest in peace.

 

[blackpillpeter]

hello, sorry I am so late. I wanted to make an account and contact you sooner to see if there were any alternatives other than ctb as you are very young, but i understand that ultimately it is your decision and i know it is far too late. i know you will never read this but i stayed up for hours and hours rereading your story and it gave me chills. I hope you are in a better place now. rest in peace @avaruus, you were never a loser, I hope you are reunited with your cat in heaven. your story won't be forgotten.

 

[Somber]

I know this comes too late but:

Thank you for your answers.
You seem to have been right after all.
I hope you are in a better place.

 

[Life Is My Coffin]

If somebody comes back to my account after weeks of being away, it's probably my parents.

I know you can't see this but your mom actually did leave a comment on your youtube channel using your account



This is the saddest thing ever. Wish I could write this woman a letter. I can't imagine the type of pain both your loving parents are in. Wish I coulda talked to you.

Here's some Finnish misery music for your memory if there's an afterlife I hope you're at peace

 

[Neogoloid]

I envy you man, rest in peace.