Goodbye thread

[Gonnerr]

I will most likely take SN tonight, we never know with SI , i will test it in 1 hour. And take it in 1 hour 30 minutes.

Thanks for being there , it seems unreal , i will try to let you know but i dont know if i prefer to just shut off my phone to not call emergency service.

Im doing the vizzy test, hopefully my SN is good.

Thanks for the site, the members and the moderators.

I will try to keep you posted.

Im doing it in my bed with clean bed sheets.

If it fail , im set on carbon monoxide in a tent next month which is more complicated.

 

[gingermacie]

Thanks for sharing generously with us, however much you choose to. I hope this process goes well for you and that you find peace.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Sorry it's come to this for you. I hope you finally find your peace from this world.

 

[letsgetittogo]

We're all here if you want to talk to us while you set everything up :) Thank you for sharing some of your time with us tonight

 

[Gonnerr]

You have the courage to do something I can't. It's so hard to be alive, but it's so hard to die.

You are right , last year i went to hospital , i told the doc , i cannot live because its too hard now but i cannot die because im scared of killing myself ,lol.

The look he gave me lol , he make sure i was not gonna ctb that night ,gave me 1 ativan , and psychiatry appointment the next morning but never had the appointement, the had too much case.

So good for taking care of us , ask help they say.

 

[haibane]

Farewell, good luck with your method and i hope u will find the peace you desire and deserve

 

[Gonnerr]

So far so good lol , i will try to post picture of my oxygen going down. Does anybody know at which level we loose consciousness.

I think 85 or less according to one previous attempt from a user.

My bpm is good so far under 100, I took 3mg of clozanepam, that helps.

 

[letsgetittogo]

Can I ask what led you to wanting to ctb?

 

[Gonnerr]

Can I ask what led you to wanting to ctb?

Long story , but this is time, im 44 and ive seen enough. Bad health physically since im 32 but mentally was the last thing that made me think seriously about it.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

So sorry to see you go.
I hope you find every peace and love you deserve.

 

[Gonnerr]

So sorry to see you go.
I hope you find every peace and love you deserve.

I hope you find peace not-2-b-the-answer too. Im sad to go but life expectancy here is short for most of us lmao.

 

[LunarLight]

Wish you all the peace in the world. Goodbye.

 

[Gonnerr]

I will take 2 meto soon , i dont want to take 3 since im skinny, im on the 48 hours regimen , and meto works good so far. I usually wake up with nausea but not this morning.

Im on a 12 hours fast , im not that hungry , i had a big breakfast.

2 metos taken. Will test SN in 20 minutes.

 

[SVEN]

Every good wish on your journey. If SI kicks in or you change your mind we'll still be here whatever. Otherwise I hope you find the rest and peace you seek.

 

[Gonnerr]

I will test it now, im so scared even though its IC product, but 1 bag was kept in a safe for 1 year and the other one in my pharmacy cabinet. I will use the one in my safe , it was untouch for almost 1 year.

I dont know about the test stripe , the nitrite is max but there is a small amount of nitrate, is it bad ?
2 drinks ready
Drank

 

[Myforevercharlie]

I'm really sorry...I'll burn a little candle for you. May it's light guide you to love and peace.

 

[Ww42]

I will test it now, im so scared even though its IC product, but 1 bag was kept in a safe for 1 year and the other one in my pharmacy cabinet. I will use the one in my safe , it was untouch for almost 1 year.

I dont know about the test stripe , the nitrite is max but there is a small amount of nitrate, is it bad ?
2 drinks ready
Drank

I hope you find peace. How are you feeling?

 

[Gonnerr]

Dying

 

[ihateearth]

I recently joined but I've lurked. I wish you the best and I'm so sorry for whatever you experienced. You're not alone. I hope to do the same soon. Please be at peace

I also told a therapist last week I'm searching for a new way. She didn't say anything. Froze. That's good so they leave us alone. I'm skipping that appointment too. Please go well.

 

[Gonnerr]

Dying

 

[CocoToxBase]

I hope it's a peaceful journey

Dying

175 bpm that must hurt

 

[ihateearth]

Dying

I wish someone was there with you who understands, but we are here. Others are similar to you

You're almost to the other side and away from this world and pain

 

[Endlichkeit]

it's >>10 minutes since you drank sn, so if you didn't call for help, you are already unconscious and will probably never read this message, but still, hope it wasn't too uncomfortable and you found the eternal rest you sought, goodbye!

 

[Ww42]

Dying

I don't know if you're still here, could you post another picture of your SpO2, im interested to see where it might be at. If you're already gone, I wish you well

 

[Demian]

I confess I feel sad when I see someone ctb, but at the same time I understand the pain.

I hope you find peace.

Soon we'll all be on the other side too.

 

[LunarLight]

Hope you're at peace wherever you are.

 

[Mea Culpa]

Im sorry life led to this. I hope this was peaceful for you.

 

[Tobacco]

It's sad to see what this world can do to people.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I hope you find peace, best wishes

 

[justcallmeJ]

I hope you found the peace you were looking for <3