Story Goodbye thread SN

[inevitable31]

In the next 72 hours maximum, I am planning to CTB.
The time is long overdue.
The story is that I have medical issues and a crappy family. Life is a kind of a torture to me. I have nothing good to expect. Just more of the same.
Have a lot to do today.
Later on I might post my protocol. I just hope that passing with SN will be peaceful.

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you find peace, sounds like you've suffered a lot, I'm sorry you've had to go through all that.

 

[rozeske]

I wish you a peaceful passing. I hope you find your peace.

 

[a.hamza.13]

Life's an unnecessary torture to us. I would say, "it's better to die one day than dying everyday." I'm also done with life and die ASAP. I've also ordered my SN. I hope things to go in the right direction. Good luck buddy!

 

[Kusogaki]

I wish you the best of luck, will you be documenting your journey?

 

[hearthewind]

Peaceful journey.

 

[heavyeyes]

I'm sorry life has been so torturous for you. I hope you're finally able to find peace

 

[Kurai]

Sorry you suffered so much, wishing you a peaceful passing

 

[sodalover]

i hope you go without pain
i wish you luck

 

[inevitable31]

ctb has been postponed till Sunday. Hopefully. Thank you all for your kind comments.

 

[inevitable31]

The reasons for postponing are mainly some complications with the bought sn. I have bought sn and asked for certificates for its purity. They told me to use a batch number and contact basf but basf has no info whatsoever about that batch number. Basf also told me that they did not sell sn to that store directly. I also did the test with the aquarium strip and it did not seem that pink. So I was alarmed. There wasnt much of NO3 present (probably is not oxidized). I have ordered a precision scale to redo the test and await the store response as I am searching for other potential stores to buy some quality sn!
God damn it. My biggest fear is a failed attempt and then a really painful passing.
With a really low purity sn I can kiss cbt goodbye.
Also I am planning to rent a hotel room and am worried that I will severely traumatise the person that will find my body. There will be a note warning them to call the cops but it will be a shock to them.

 

[Steff1337]

I hope you'll be in a place of no suffering

 

[pulleditnearlyoff]

The reasons for postponing are mainly some complications with the bought sn. I have bought sn and asked for certificates for its purity. They told me to use a batch number and contact basf but basf has no info whatsoever about that batch number. Basf also told me that they did not sell sn to that store directly. I also did the test with the aquarium strip and it did not seem that pink. So I was alarmed. There wasnt much of NO3 present (probably is not oxidized). I have ordered a precision scale to redo the test and await the store response as I am searching for other potential stores to buy some quality sn!
God damn it. My biggest fear is a failed attempt and then a really painful passing.
With a really low purity sn I can kiss cbt goodbye.
Also I am planning to rent a hotel room and am worried that I will severely traumatise the person that will find my body. There will be a note warning them to call the cops but it will be a shock to them.

Did you bought it from dmc?

 

[smaragdyne]

I think your worries are probably exaggerated but I totally understand why the uncertainty is crippling, and you're right that it is important to be reasonably accurate.

I plan on doing some purity experiments once I get my PN, but that's at least a month away. Sorry I don't have anything more for you now.

As far as the hotel room etc., that's a very considerate plan. Police and EMTs are trained to handle things like suicide. It'll affect them, but not traumatically. Just avoid having a loved one find you if possible.

 

[inevitable31]

Did you bought it from dmc?

Nope. From a local store that sells chemicals.

 

[inevitable31]

For informative reasons, I will partially post the certificate of analysis I was given for my bought SN. I live in Europe. I do think that aquarium strips are an inaccurate way to test its purity. I have redone the test with a precision scale, it does not match 100% the indicated color and I hope will not have any problems with my ctb.

 

[pulleditnearlyoff]

When will you take it? Are you going to update on your feelings/symptoms?

 

[Minsu]

Hope you find peace

 

[feelinggloomy]

Peace on your journey