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IndyAna

IndyAna

🤍
Feb 9, 2023
115
So, I might have found the perfect timing to finally ctb. The personal stuff I had to take care of is done.
My mom and brother will be out of home in a few hours. This may be my chance, so...

I wanted to thank everyone in this forum for being that helpful and supportive. I'm glad I've managed to find a community like this.

My method is SN. My plan is this:

0:30am: fasting
6:00am: dry fasting
8:00am: 1000mg paracetamol+80mg propanolol
8:30am: 8mg lorazepam + 30mg domperidone
9:15am: 25g SN in 50ml water (plus 2 other glasses prepared)
Then, lay down in my bed comfortably and wait for the bus to arrive.

Wish me luck guys! I can't fail to ctb once more. SN is my last resort.

I'll keep you all updated.
 
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Unwr!tten

Unwr!tten

Saltier than SN
Apr 10, 2023
531
Keep us updated and I wish you peace on your bus ride!
 
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theRetroHawk

theRetroHawk

Member
Jun 18, 2023
48
Good luck ♥️ I pray you can find the eternal rest you have been looking for.
 
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Unwr!tten

Unwr!tten

Saltier than SN
Apr 10, 2023
531
No matter what happens, you have a home, here
 
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Vizzy

Vizzy

DEAD
May 6, 2023
1,865
So, I might have found the perfect timing to finally ctb. The personal stuff I had to take care of is done.
My mom and brother will be out of home in a few hours. This may be my chance, so...

I wanted to thank everyone in this forum for being that helpful and supportive. I'm glad I've managed to find a community like this.

My method is SN. My plan is this:

0:30am: fasting
6:00am: dry fasting
8:00am: 1000mg paracetamol+80mg propanolol
8:30am: 8mg lorazepam + 30mg domperidone
9:15am: 25g SN in 50ml water (plus 2 other glasses prepared)
Then, lay down in my bed comfortably and wait for the bus to arrive.

Wish me luck guys! I can't fail to ctb once more. SN is my last resort.

I'll keep you all updated.
Hope you find peace, I just drunk my antiemetic
 
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GasMonkey

GasMonkey

Nitrogen Master Race
May 15, 2022
1,878
See you on the Other Side.
 
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cami

cami

the lonely
May 27, 2023
186
if you change your mind, we will all be here <3. if not i hope you find love and joy in the next life.
 
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locked*n*loaded

locked*n*loaded

Archangel
Apr 15, 2022
8,983
Have you given yourself enough time for the SN to work? Your mom and brother won't be back too soon?

I hope all goes well and that you get to the peace you deserve.
 
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KevG

Member
Jan 4, 2022
21
I wish for you peace and no more trauma of life. No more tears. I know I understand. If by chance you fail in your attempt please stay in touch with this community. We care more than you think. My end is near also. Hope I don't fail. Will see.
 
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IndyAna

IndyAna

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Feb 9, 2023
115
Have you given yourself enough time for the SN to work? Your mom and brother won't be back too soon?

I hope all goes well and that you get to the peace you deserve.
they will both be gone within the timeframe I'm planning to take the SN and for at least an hour after it. it's really tricky since it's the only day I manage to be completely alone even for a couple of hours. I'll tell them beforehand that I'll need some rest and to not wake me up or whatever. my bedroom will be locked, as it always is when I'm sleeping. thank you 🤍
if you change your mind, we will all be here <3. if not i hope you find love and joy in the next life.
thanks so much you kind soul 🤍
I wish for you peace and no more trauma of life. No more tears. I know I understand. If by chance you fail in your attempt please stay in touch with this community. We care more than you think. My end is near also. Hope I don't fail. Will see.
thank you so much. I really really wish I don't.
 
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locked*n*loaded

locked*n*loaded

Archangel
Apr 15, 2022
8,983
I know, it's risky. If I see that time really is against me I'll have to postpone it.
If you "happened" to be making "noises" after taking the SN, and your mom and brother heard you after they came home, would they break down your locked door? If they did, they could call for help and there would, very likely, be time for you to be saved.
 
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SVEN

SVEN

I Wish I'd Been a Jester Too.
Apr 3, 2023
2,815
Best wishes for a successful and peacefull journey. Go well, rest quietly.
 
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Gonnerr

Enlightened
Mar 12, 2023
1,321
Good luck , i wish you escape peacefully.
 
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WaffleWoman

WaffleWoman

Ready to sleep
May 16, 2023
180
I wish you luck and peace in your passing
 
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dimstar

dimstar

Poor little woodpecker
Mar 17, 2023
320
Wishing you the best, sorry it came to this. Will be thinking of you. Hope you find peace❤
Were always here if the times not right.
 
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EndJstifiesTheMeans

EndJstifiesTheMeans

Bad english, didn't go to school sorry
May 14, 2023
447
I wish you peace
 
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MrDarkness

MrDarkness

Left sasu, to improve my life
Jun 18, 2023
1,066
I wish you peace cya soon
 
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toofargone6969

toofargone6969

Wandering
Apr 29, 2023
324
I'm sorry you find yourself here. I wish you peace and an easy journey. I will be using the same meds if I use SN. Rest easy
 
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90starve

90starve

i don’t know who i am
May 8, 2023
578
wishing you a safe and peaceful journey <3
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,680
I hope that you find the freedom you are searching for, best wishes, I envy those who are freeing themselves from all the suffering.
 
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an0n1

an0n1

Member
Jun 18, 2023
19
I hope you can find peace elsewhere <3
 
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IndyAna

IndyAna

🤍
Feb 9, 2023
115
unfortunately I couldn't get the time needed to pull this through. as much as I wish to leave right now, I need it to be perfect I can't end up in a shitty psych ward again. thanks so much for your kind comments everyone. just a few more days to go. 🤍
 
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TheHuman

TheHuman

Member
May 31, 2023
98
unfortunately I couldn't get the time needed to pull this through. as much as I wish to leave right now, I need it to be perfect I can't end up in a shitty psych ward again. thanks so much for your kind comments everyone. just a few more days to go. 🤍
Oh no that's terrible I hope that you can find another time where you can ctb, It's so terrible that you have to continue suffering.
 
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an0n1

an0n1

Member
Jun 18, 2023
19
unfortunately I couldn't get the time needed to pull this through. as much as I wish to leave right now, I need it to be perfect I can't end up in a shitty psych ward again. thanks so much for your kind comments everyone. just a few more days to go. 🤍
perhaps you should think this over again, take some time to see if you can find a reason to live. If you are totally certain about your decision, then I wish you the best in finding your freedom :>
 
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dimstar

dimstar

Poor little woodpecker
Mar 17, 2023
320
unfortunately I couldn't get the time needed to pull this through. as much as I wish to leave right now, I need it to be perfect I can't end up in a shitty psych ward again. thanks so much for your kind comments everyone. just a few more days to go. 🤍
So proud of you knowing the moment wasnt right. That's the key to peaceful passing. Sorry it didnt go as planned but still glad your doing what's best for you.❤ hope your not too stirred up after coming so close to the edge.
 
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Readytogo246

Experienced
Jun 4, 2023
205
Congrats on listening and updating plans. It must be really hard....and yet a plan for success is invaluable. You will know when the time is right so keep trusting yourself.
 
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IndyAna

IndyAna

🤍
Feb 9, 2023
115
almost 24 hours to go... God, I'm so nervous.
 
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