Goodbye thread (finally)

[IndyAna]

So, I might have found the perfect timing to finally ctb. The personal stuff I had to take care of is done.
My mom and brother will be out of home in a few hours. This may be my chance, so...

I wanted to thank everyone in this forum for being that helpful and supportive. I'm glad I've managed to find a community like this.

My method is SN. My plan is this:

0:30am: fasting
6:00am: dry fasting
8:00am: 1000mg paracetamol+80mg propanolol
8:30am: 8mg lorazepam + 30mg domperidone
9:15am: 25g SN in 50ml water (plus 2 other glasses prepared)
Then, lay down in my bed comfortably and wait for the bus to arrive.

Wish me luck guys! I can't fail to ctb once more. SN is my last resort.

I'll keep you all updated.

 

[Unwr!tten]

Keep us updated and I wish you peace on your bus ride!

 

[theRetroHawk]

Good luck I pray you can find the eternal rest you have been looking for.

 

[Unwr!tten]

No matter what happens, you have a home, here

 

[Vizzy]

So, I might have found the perfect timing to finally ctb. The personal stuff I had to take care of is done.
My mom and brother will be out of home in a few hours. This may be my chance, so...

I wanted to thank everyone in this forum for being that helpful and supportive. I'm glad I've managed to find a community like this.

My method is SN. My plan is this:

0:30am: fasting
6:00am: dry fasting
8:00am: 1000mg paracetamol+80mg propanolol
8:30am: 8mg lorazepam + 30mg domperidone
9:15am: 25g SN in 50ml water (plus 2 other glasses prepared)
Then, lay down in my bed comfortably and wait for the bus to arrive.

Wish me luck guys! I can't fail to ctb once more. SN is my last resort.

I'll keep you all updated.

Hope you find peace, I just drunk my antiemetic

 

[GasMonkey]

See you on the Other Side.

 

[IndyAna]

Good luck I pray you can find the eternal rest you have been looking for.

thank you so much

No matter what happens, you have a home, here

you're so kind. thanks sweetheart

Hope you find peace, I just drunk my antiemetic

see you on the other side, vizzy. wishing you a peaceful journey

 

[cami]

if you change your mind, we will all be here <3. if not i hope you find love and joy in the next life.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Have you given yourself enough time for the SN to work? Your mom and brother won't be back too soon?

I hope all goes well and that you get to the peace you deserve.

 

[KevG]

I wish for you peace and no more trauma of life. No more tears. I know I understand. If by chance you fail in your attempt please stay in touch with this community. We care more than you think. My end is near also. Hope I don't fail. Will see.

 

[IndyAna]

Have you given yourself enough time for the SN to work? Your mom and brother won't be back too soon?

I hope all goes well and that you get to the peace you deserve.

they will both be gone within the timeframe I'm planning to take the SN and for at least an hour after it. it's really tricky since it's the only day I manage to be completely alone even for a couple of hours. I'll tell them beforehand that I'll need some rest and to not wake me up or whatever. my bedroom will be locked, as it always is when I'm sleeping. thank you

if you change your mind, we will all be here <3. if not i hope you find love and joy in the next life.

thanks so much you kind soul

I wish for you peace and no more trauma of life. No more tears. I know I understand. If by chance you fail in your attempt please stay in touch with this community. We care more than you think. My end is near also. Hope I don't fail. Will see.

thank you so much. I really really wish I don't.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

and for at least an hour after it

I'll tell them beforehand that I'll need some rest and to not wake me up or whatever. my bedroom will be locked

That's not very long. I hope all goes as planned for you.

 

[IndyAna]

That's not very long. I hope all goes as planned for you.

I know, it's risky. If I see that time really is against me I'll have to postpone it.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

I know, it's risky. If I see that time really is against me I'll have to postpone it.

If you "happened" to be making "noises" after taking the SN, and your mom and brother heard you after they came home, would they break down your locked door? If they did, they could call for help and there would, very likely, be time for you to be saved.

 

[SVEN]

Best wishes for a successful and peacefull journey. Go well, rest quietly.

 

[Gonnerr]

Good luck , i wish you escape peacefully.

 

[WaffleWoman]

I wish you luck and peace in your passing

 

[dimstar]

Wishing you the best, sorry it came to this. Will be thinking of you. Hope you find peace❤
Were always here if the times not right.

 

[EndJstifiesTheMeans]

I wish you peace

 

[MrDarkness]

I wish you peace cya soon

 

[toofargone6969]

I'm sorry you find yourself here. I wish you peace and an easy journey. I will be using the same meds if I use SN. Rest easy

 

[90starve]

wishing you a safe and peaceful journey <3

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope that you find the freedom you are searching for, best wishes, I envy those who are freeing themselves from all the suffering.

 

[Yllene13]

I hope you can find peace elsewhere <3

 

[IndyAna]

unfortunately I couldn't get the time needed to pull this through. as much as I wish to leave right now, I need it to be perfect I can't end up in a shitty psych ward again. thanks so much for your kind comments everyone. just a few more days to go.

 

[TheHuman]

unfortunately I couldn't get the time needed to pull this through. as much as I wish to leave right now, I need it to be perfect I can't end up in a shitty psych ward again. thanks so much for your kind comments everyone. just a few more days to go.

Oh no that's terrible I hope that you can find another time where you can ctb, It's so terrible that you have to continue suffering.

 

[Yllene13]

unfortunately I couldn't get the time needed to pull this through. as much as I wish to leave right now, I need it to be perfect I can't end up in a shitty psych ward again. thanks so much for your kind comments everyone. just a few more days to go.

perhaps you should think this over again, take some time to see if you can find a reason to live. If you are totally certain about your decision, then I wish you the best in finding your freedom :>

 

[dimstar]

unfortunately I couldn't get the time needed to pull this through. as much as I wish to leave right now, I need it to be perfect I can't end up in a shitty psych ward again. thanks so much for your kind comments everyone. just a few more days to go.

So proud of you knowing the moment wasnt right. That's the key to peaceful passing. Sorry it didnt go as planned but still glad your doing what's best for you.❤ hope your not too stirred up after coming so close to the edge.

 

[Readytogo246]

Congrats on listening and updating plans. It must be really hard....and yet a plan for success is invaluable. You will know when the time is right so keep trusting yourself.

 

[IndyAna]

almost 24 hours to go... God, I'm so nervous.