MicahBell
the coke keeps me slim, booze gives me personality
- Feb 11, 2025
- 132
hi SaSu.
i've been such a coward for so long, I should have been dead a long time ago. Nows finally time I can't stand it anymore. theres not a single thing left for me to hope for, anything that I really love or enjoy, so i'm sad or anything. I'm very lucky to be an unremarkable person who not many people will remember.
for the people who will remember me, at least my family, they probably won't remember me fondly for the most part. They do love me I think in their own way, but they've never liked me. I waited for them to notice something was wrong. even when I told them I wanted to kill myself they didn't seem to notice. at every turn I waited for someone to save me but they won't.
And whatever, no matter how long I put it off it won't make them hurt any less. so i'm not too sad about them anymore either.
thats all I guess. I'll be catching the bus tomorrow but for now i'm burnt out from other people and I want to turn my phone off and be alone. thank you everyone for being so kind even when i'm not sure i've deserved it. ironically SaSu has probably made me live longer. Best of luck to you all
i've been such a coward for so long, I should have been dead a long time ago. Nows finally time I can't stand it anymore. theres not a single thing left for me to hope for, anything that I really love or enjoy, so i'm sad or anything. I'm very lucky to be an unremarkable person who not many people will remember.
for the people who will remember me, at least my family, they probably won't remember me fondly for the most part. They do love me I think in their own way, but they've never liked me. I waited for them to notice something was wrong. even when I told them I wanted to kill myself they didn't seem to notice. at every turn I waited for someone to save me but they won't.
And whatever, no matter how long I put it off it won't make them hurt any less. so i'm not too sad about them anymore either.
thats all I guess. I'll be catching the bus tomorrow but for now i'm burnt out from other people and I want to turn my phone off and be alone. thank you everyone for being so kind even when i'm not sure i've deserved it. ironically SaSu has probably made me live longer. Best of luck to you all
i did not know you for long, but you are someone worth meeting. i wish the best for you.
. I wish you nothing but the best, and goodbye. Hope things go smoothly for you, or are the least painful as possible. 
