Goodbye SS.

[Konjac]

Hey, how are you all doing today? Hope you're all doing well, and if not my PMs are still open of course. But uh as you could probably tell from the title, due to some recent events, I decided it's finally time for me to CTB. A little earlier than planned but it'll be okay.

I can say, hands down, that if it weren't for this site I would've spent my final few months completely alone with my thoughts. This place has been a sanctuary for me- full of some of the most kind, thoughtful individuals I've ever had the pleasure to talk to. People I can share my darkest thoughts with, zero judgement. Thank you, SS, for seeing me through my roughest hours. I wish I'd found this website sooner tbh. You guys are better than any therapist I've ever seen, that's for sure.

I've just had my last meal (croissant and beans on toast, love that for me) and as I'm a little late for the 48 hour regimen, I'll just be going with the stat dose. I couldn't get a hold of any antiemetics but I have enough SN to prepare a second dose just in case. Along with some ibuprofen and antacids.

I won't be actually taking the SN until later today. I have a few things to sort out first, and according to the guide I got until about midnight until I'm clear to take it anyways. Figured I'd just make the thread now and leave a few updates during the day. Despite how fucked up this whole situation is, I'm in an alright mood. Kinda cheerful, actually. I can't tell if it's just me repressing my emotions as usual or if I'm just relieved my story's finally coming to an end ahah.

If this whole thread ends up as me just rambling on like I am here, I'm sorry. Nervous habit lmao.

 

[newave3]

I hope everything goes smoothly and you have a peaceful exit.

 

[BehindTheWall]

I hope you'Il find peace.
We're here, no matter what.

 

[sadworld]

Safe travels! I hope you'll find peace!

 

[Sakura94]

I don't think we spoke but I remember you liking my posts once or twice. Hope things work out as you want it to. Yeah there is always relief when you make a decision. The uncertainty is often the worse and actually can help people function better. Tho if things get tough feel free to come back oh and we're happy if you decide to stick around too.

 

[Hopeindeath!]

I just want you to know that you mattered in life.

 

[LastWhisper]

Wish you peace, mate.

 

[Panna]

Good luck

 

[Gnip]

Peace

 

[Pookie]

Safe travels.

 

[Salvation_]

Safe travels

I'm happy you found as much consolation in this site as I have. This community is one of the realest I have ever seen, and it's always sad to see another recognizable member leave. Goodbye...

 

[EnnuiCat]

I hope you have a safe and peaceful journey.

 

[justanotherstar]

I'm sorry it has come to this but so glad you found a sanctuary in SS. I hope you find your peace, travel well

 

[Prathibha]

Peace

 

[Disappointered]

Safe travels. I hope you find eternal peace.

 

[Romeo]

Wish you a peaceful journey.

 

[Deleted member 24006]

Peace to you .....

 

[death137]

Peace be with you

 

[demuic]

I'm sorry life has lead you to this. I hope you find eternal peace.

 

[Sherri]

Sorry life has got to this point , yes SS does work better than a therapist, I tried to be offline for two days and just couldn't. Wish you a peaceful way out and I'd you wanna stay a bit longer that's ok to. All the best hun.

 

[x~Sophia~x]

So sorry... peace be with you.

 

[Isadeth]

I hope you find the peace you've been looking for ♡

 

[yetme]

Goodbye!

 

[MindFrog]

I hope you find peace, mate.

 

[Meditation guide]

Have a peaceful journey.

 

[Konjac]

Hi, I'm not gone just yet. I've just gotten home and am sorting out the last few things before heading out. My day's actually been nice so far, to the point where I was even reconsidering my decision to CTB aha. I'm deadset on it for many reasons but if it works out I really am gonna miss my mates. I feel like if my circumstances in life were different, if I didn't have so many damn reasons to do this in the first place, I wouldn't have to resort to this. Maybe I could've just gotten therapy or something and gone on to live a normal life, idfk. Anyways, I had a good time with them today. We found some random stash of beer as we were walking home so I'm a little buzzed from drinking that. I might have to make myself throw up because it might affect the SN? It depends what time I do it honestly haha.

I've decided on a location, a park near my childhood home. The woods are really nice and scenic there as well, so I think I'll just walk around until dark and then when it feels right, I'll head somewhere with shelter to take the SN. I'm considering livestreaming it for educational purposes if anyone would be interested in watching? I don't think there's any documented video cases of CTB via SN out there so yeah. I feel like it's the least I can do for you guys.

For now I'm just playing my favourite video games, doing stuff I enjoy to try and pass the time.

 

[Meditation guide]

Where would you livestream it?

 

[Thanatonaut]

Safe travels!

 

[sadworld]

Hi, I'm not gone just yet. I've just gotten home and am sorting out the last few things before heading out. My day's actually been nice so far, to the point where I was even reconsidering my decision to CTB aha. I'm deadset on it for many reasons but if it works out I really am gonna miss my mates. I feel like if my circumstances in life were different, if I didn't have so many damn reasons to do this in the first place, I wouldn't have to resort to this. Maybe I could've just gotten therapy or something and gone on to live a normal life, idfk. Anyways, I had a good time with them today. We found some random stash of beer as we were walking home so I'm a little buzzed from drinking that. I might have to make myself throw up because it might affect the SN? It depends what time I do it honestly haha.

I've decided on a location, a park near my childhood home. The woods are really nice and scenic there as well, so I think I'll just walk around until dark and then when it feels right, I'll head somewhere with shelter to take the SN. I'm considering livestreaming it for educational purposes if anyone would be interested in watching? I don't think there's any documented video cases of CTB via SN out there so yeah. I feel like it's the least I can do for you guys.

For now I'm just playing my favourite video games, doing stuff I enjoy to try and pass the time.

You might want to reconsider if you think today is not the day!

Anyway, safe travels if you decide to go through wit it!

We already have some documented cases of SN. Where are you planning to stream it?

 

[Huntfish34]

R.I.P. Always and forever.