Konjac
Experienced
- Oct 25, 2020
- 281
Hey, how are you all doing today? Hope you're all doing well, and if not my PMs are still open of course. But uh as you could probably tell from the title, due to some recent events, I decided it's finally time for me to CTB. A little earlier than planned but it'll be okay.
I can say, hands down, that if it weren't for this site I would've spent my final few months completely alone with my thoughts. This place has been a sanctuary for me- full of some of the most kind, thoughtful individuals I've ever had the pleasure to talk to. People I can share my darkest thoughts with, zero judgement. Thank you, SS, for seeing me through my roughest hours. I wish I'd found this website sooner tbh. You guys are better than any therapist I've ever seen, that's for sure.
I've just had my last meal (croissant and beans on toast, love that for me) and as I'm a little late for the 48 hour regimen, I'll just be going with the stat dose. I couldn't get a hold of any antiemetics but I have enough SN to prepare a second dose just in case. Along with some ibuprofen and antacids.
I won't be actually taking the SN until later today. I have a few things to sort out first, and according to the guide I got until about midnight until I'm clear to take it anyways. Figured I'd just make the thread now and leave a few updates during the day. Despite how fucked up this whole situation is, I'm in an alright mood. Kinda cheerful, actually. I can't tell if it's just me repressing my emotions as usual or if I'm just relieved my story's finally coming to an end ahah.
If this whole thread ends up as me just rambling on like I am here, I'm sorry. Nervous habit lmao.
I can say, hands down, that if it weren't for this site I would've spent my final few months completely alone with my thoughts. This place has been a sanctuary for me- full of some of the most kind, thoughtful individuals I've ever had the pleasure to talk to. People I can share my darkest thoughts with, zero judgement. Thank you, SS, for seeing me through my roughest hours. I wish I'd found this website sooner tbh. You guys are better than any therapist I've ever seen, that's for sure.
I've just had my last meal (croissant and beans on toast, love that for me) and as I'm a little late for the 48 hour regimen, I'll just be going with the stat dose. I couldn't get a hold of any antiemetics but I have enough SN to prepare a second dose just in case. Along with some ibuprofen and antacids.
I won't be actually taking the SN until later today. I have a few things to sort out first, and according to the guide I got until about midnight until I'm clear to take it anyways. Figured I'd just make the thread now and leave a few updates during the day. Despite how fucked up this whole situation is, I'm in an alright mood. Kinda cheerful, actually. I can't tell if it's just me repressing my emotions as usual or if I'm just relieved my story's finally coming to an end ahah.
