[Goodbye] - Entering my Kingdom, Long May I Reign

[PwincessStepford]

My stupid fucking cat is sleeping quietly next to me

 

[Jean4]

I have the opportunity to do it now. I've been waiting for this moment for so long..but I'm so scared to go
Now I'm sobbing

If you want to pm me and talk, I am here

 

[Throwmyselfaway]

I have the opportunity to do it now. I've been waiting for this moment for so long..but I'm so scared to go
Now I'm sobbing

I won't say what is best but I'm sending you the biggest hugs right now sweetie

 

[Jean4]

My stupid fucking cat is sleeping quietly next to me

You are getting signs. If you would like to talk privately, I am here.

 

[PwincessStepford]

Okay, dissociating again..maybe it's from the SN but good
I should be able to do it once I'm dissociated again
Please stop telling me not to do it >.< it makes it so hard

 

[Jean4]

Okay, dissociating again..maybe it's from the SN but good

We are here for you, and know you don't have to do this.

 

[Morphinekiss]

The bus stop is going no where, but once you get on you can't get off. There will be other times to board that bus.

 

[PwincessStepford]

Okay, my motivation is coming back..good

 

[cosmicpixiedust]

There are many chances to catch that bus, girl. This one can wait if needed.

 

[PwincessStepford]

I've waited months already..
I just don't want to wait only longer, you know?

 

[Jean4]

You don't have to do this. There will be other times, when you have no doubts

 

[MysticPerception]

Okay, my motivation is coming back..good

You're really pendulum swinging over there are you sure about this? I would wait if you're hesitating that much. There will always be other chances you don't have to take this opportunity.

 

[PwincessStepford]

Okay, I think I'm gonna do it

 

[ClownCringe]

I have the opportunity to do it now. I've been waiting for this moment for so long..but I'm so scared to go
Now I'm sobbing

Its not like this was your only chance to do it, if you can still enjoy the distractions the the world has to offer that shows your time hasnt come.

 

[Jean4]

I've waited months already..
I just don't want to wait only longer, you know?

And what will waiting do except giving you more time to make sure you have no doubts? Look at your cat.

 

[PwincessStepford]

You're really pendulum swinging over there are you sure about this? I would wait if you're hesitating that much. There will always be other chances you don't have to take this opportunity.

There is no objective reason to life. Suicide is the rational answer. The pendulum is swinging because of irrational emotions

 

[cosmicpixiedust]

You're really pendulum swinging over there are you sure about this? I would wait if you're hesitating that much. There will always be other chances you don't have to take this opportunity.

Seriously, this. ^ It'll always be there and so will we.

 

[MysticPerception]

Okay, I think I'm gonna do it

Even after you drink it you can still change your mind. It's one thing to be brave, it's another thing entirely to do something you don't actually want and make an honest mistake.

 

[PwincessStepford]

And what will waiting do except giving you more time to make sure you have no doubts? Look at your cat.

Please don't tell me to look at my cat..please please please don't

 

[Jean4]

There is no objective reason to life. Suicide is the rational answer. The pendulum is swinging because of irrational emotions

Your cat is a reason to live

 

[MysticPerception]

There is no objective reason to life. Suicide is the rational answer. The pendulum is swinging because of irrational emotions

While I agree there is no objective reason there are plenty of subjective reasons. You can always wait until your cat passes as the final hurdle. There's no reason to just accept that you have to die just because life is technically pointless.

 

[PwincessStepford]

Even after you drink it you can still change your mind. It's one thing to be brave, it's another thing entirely to do something you don't actually want and make an honest mistake.

I'm scared of drinking it and then having to call emergency services due to changing my mind. This would be so much easier if I just had nitrogen

 

[Jean4]

Please don't tell me to look at my cat..please please please don't

If you were ready, leaving your cat wouldn't matter. I won't leave mine.

 

[PwincessStepford]

While I agree there is no objective reason there are plenty of subjective reasons. You can always wait until your cat passes as the final hurdle. There's no reason to just accept that you have to die just because life is technically pointless.

she's still a kitten. I would have to wait over a decade. That's much too long

 

[MysticPerception]

If you were ready, leaving your cat wouldn't matter. I won't leave mine.

Jean is correct. I love my cat with all my heart and even still I'm ready to leave him behind for my own selfish desire to end it all.

 

[Jean4]

I'm scared of drinking it and then having to call emergency services due to changing my mind. This would be so much easier if I just had nitrogen

You aren't sure. Look at your cat. Are your ready for your cat not to be given the love you give her?

 

[PwincessStepford]

why are you guys fighting me on this

 

[Carina]

why are you guys fighting me on this

You're fighting yourself though too.

 

[Jean4]

why are you guys fighting me on this

No. However, if you were ready, you wouldn't listen to us. You aren't ready.

 

[MysticPerception]

why are you guys fighting me on this

Because originally I thought you were ready. But now I'm fairly certain you're not. If you were ready everything we said would mean nothing to you and you would ignore us without a problem. The fact that you keep responding and want us to stop means it's probably not time. Like I said before there will be other chances. You don't have to force an attempt right now.