PwincessStepford
I wish I were a princess.
- Dec 31, 2019
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Or not because I'm an atheist lol
Tomorrow night, I will probably be SN'ing. I've been putting it off for a week, living as a NEET, spending 24/7 on my bed and using anime as an escape. But my next semester of school commences Tuesday, so I can't hide from the world, counting the days until my death anymore.
I'm ctb'ing because of existential depression; there is no objective reason to existence. I can distract myself with subjective goals, but I was born too physically ugly (and anyone who says appearance doesn't matter in this world is lying to themselves). And because of the lack of objective meaning in existence, any attempt to fight not killing oneself seems fruitless and just a way to cope with the existential dread. I'm going to die anyway, and putting my death off any longer is futile, as any memory of what one did in his/her life will be swept away by nothingness anyway. Time is the equalizing agent for all of us.
I don't believe in afterlife, but, if there were one, I'd wish to be a princess in it, surrounded by whimsical things like unicorns and my Prince Charming. I'd get to wear pretty dresses everyday, and maybe even a sparkly tiara..I'd wish to finally be beautiful and happy. It would be magical.
Mods, please don't ban me until it's done.
Tomorrow night, I will probably be SN'ing. I've been putting it off for a week, living as a NEET, spending 24/7 on my bed and using anime as an escape. But my next semester of school commences Tuesday, so I can't hide from the world, counting the days until my death anymore.
I'm ctb'ing because of existential depression; there is no objective reason to existence. I can distract myself with subjective goals, but I was born too physically ugly (and anyone who says appearance doesn't matter in this world is lying to themselves). And because of the lack of objective meaning in existence, any attempt to fight not killing oneself seems fruitless and just a way to cope with the existential dread. I'm going to die anyway, and putting my death off any longer is futile, as any memory of what one did in his/her life will be swept away by nothingness anyway. Time is the equalizing agent for all of us.
I don't believe in afterlife, but, if there were one, I'd wish to be a princess in it, surrounded by whimsical things like unicorns and my Prince Charming. I'd get to wear pretty dresses everyday, and maybe even a sparkly tiara..I'd wish to finally be beautiful and happy. It would be magical.
Mods, please don't ban me until it's done.
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