Goodbye CTB Thread

[cakedog]

I'll try to attempt with psh in the next hour
I was going to postpone it to tomorrow or a few days but what's the fucking point, tomorrow is just going to be another shithole day and even worse than the current ones
I'll just try to delude myself that I'll eventually find all the answers have a more elaborate setup and a more peaceful method but it's just bullshit i'm tired of putting extra effort just to be normal or have an easier pathway than the rest

I wasn't even going to make a gb thread but i'm so fucking scared of it going wrong i don't feel like i really got to live a good and happy life, i really like the idea of drifting into isekai or some better world where i can be comfortable but the idea of waking up is scary cause that means i fucked up and i'll likely end up in a worse situation than the one i am now
I'll leave some notes and my phone wallpaper with stuff like no forced life support just in case the worst happens

i really wish i could have just died in my sleep yesterday

 

[melodrama]

Do you have a good place to tie the rope? One that can fully support your weight? This method needs to be carefully considered to avoid any problems. There's nothing wrong in changing your mind if you feel it's not the right time yet. Sending you a virtual hug

 

[cakedog]

Do you have a good place to tie the rope?

yeah i'll tie it to the rail at the top of the shower door i already tested it and it holds, it's very strong actually
only problem i found with psh is that when i let go or simulate being unconscious (dropping all my weight as if i'm about to fall) i feel like my trachea is being squeezed,
i mean it's tolerable at least for a few seconds but i'm afraid of ending with a neck injury/fracture in case i survive

thanks for replying btw i really appreciate it

 

[ilovebudgie]

I hope you find peace

 

[melodrama]

yeah i'll tie it to the rail at the top of the shower door i already tested it and it holds, it's very strong actually
only problem i found with psh is that when i let go or simulate being unconscious (dropping all my weight as if i'm about to fall) i feel like my trachea is being squeezed,
i mean it's tolerable at least for a few seconds but i'm afraid of ending with a neck injury/fracture in case i survive

thanks for replying btw i really appreciate it

I see. I wish I had a solution for this, but my knowledge about methods is still very basic. Wishing you peace in whatever you choose to do.

 

[cakedog]

felt too insecure about doing it today and decided to postpone it
sorry everyone for wasting your time

 

[DeathSweetDeath]

felt too insecure about doing it today and decided to postpone it
sorry everyone for wasting your time

You didn't waste anyone's time. If the time isn't right then the time isn't right. I hope you have a good day.

 

[cakedog]

You didn't waste anyone's time. If the time isn't right then the time isn't right. I hope you have a good day.

thanks a lot friend

 

[BlueMist96]

A shower door sounds sketchy.

 

[cakedog]

A shower door sounds sketchy.

it has a rail at the top that's pretty strong at least it's stronger than the hanging rod from my closet

 

[Sparkly rainbow]

Happy to hear that youre still here. CTB is a very daunting action so take your time in what you will proceed with. take care of yourself

 

[cakedog]

hopefully this time

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