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Cashewmilk

Cashewmilk

Specialist
Mar 10, 2020
352
This is horrible but, maybe it's a good thing for me. It would be a huge gamble for me to save up that much money and lose it. Or get in trouble. And with my luck in life I'd 100% end up on the losing side. It sounds like a lottery game and I always lose lotteries while others always win. Life just hates me a lot I have bad luck literally every second, like I'm cursed. I've known about N from A since 2015, even earlier than that. It was the same kind of thing back then, people had their packages intercepted and never recieved, but I don't remember hearing about unsealed bottles and not answering... but I can imagine he must get a ton of e mails and this is risky business. Plus I didn't even have money for a rope to hang myself back then so I didn't even bother. I just dreamed and watched others get theirs. Another thing, I heard it's hard to swallow and has a risk of vomiting so you need to take anti emetics. Then I was also worried about my situation, I'm physically addicted to a high dosage of opiates, so I was worried it wouldn't even work for me anyway (considering my luck I'd wake up 3 days later like I've done before on a giant methadone overdose). But now I realize that a lot of terminally ill patients who recieve N in assisted euthanasia are probably on high doses of opiates too.

Anyway, I have a steaming headache and my eyes hurt, I couldn't read the whole thread... did Ark end up getting the test results? It's probably not a good idea for me to try to get N unless I come into a few grand somehow. I'm in Canada btw if that matters. Ugh... I don't know anything about SN I still have to read about it. I'm glad it's a hopeful method for some.
 
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NotMeantForHere

NotMeantForHere

I want to go like Marilyn Monroe
Feb 6, 2020
156
I ordered and received N from A in about a month. Glass bottle, seemed genuine. Had taken label off to ship.

Then the local police arrived at my house. The US department of homeland security called them and told them about the N. They had tracked the entire shipment. He told me they knew about the website and seller (obviously).

So I had to go to a 72 hour hold and N taken away.

Just be careful. Or use it as soon as you get it.
Whoa! Did they have a warrant? Do you live in the U.S.?
 
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h3atd3ath

Member
Mar 1, 2020
7
My N from A showed up today - sealed in 2 glass bottles. 11 days from ordering.
I'm glad you received your N without any hiccups, but it seems like the ordering process has been very hit and miss for a lot of folks. I'm getting antsy about ordering some myself and I'm wondering if I should just bite the bullet or keep holding out in hopes that another reliable seller will come along.
 
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time2register

Member
Mar 5, 2020
41
So the cops come if you order N from A? That doesn't sound ideal at all! I would want to have it and be able to take my time and not rush into my decision.
 
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AcornUnderground

Mage
Feb 28, 2020
505
Very nice. I assume you received 2x100ml according to this post?

Are you going to test the N?
I did. I ordered a test kit but I'm not sure if I'm going to test it, it looks pretty legit.
 
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Blutsager

Experienced
Mar 11, 2020
220
Guys, this isn't time to risk getting N. Get SN. It's a great alternative, just read the posts, it works, it's effective, it's as painless as it gets. As much as N will be the highest standard of quality, I assure you SN has nothing to envy of it.
 
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Busdriver

Busdriver

Mage
Feb 11, 2020
513
Guys, this isn't time to risk getting N. Get SN. It's a great alternative, just read the posts, it works, it's effective, it's as painless as it gets. As much as N will be the highest standard of quality, I assure you SN has nothing to envy of it.

You are so right. SN is way easier to get and also a lot cheaper.
I really hate life, I hate every second of it for a very long time.
However, the discomfort the 1st 20 minutes after SN ingestion freaks me out to the maximum. I am such a coward when it comes to this 'pain'. I think I am not the only one and that is why people like me are investigating N.

I am happy for you that SN doesn't scare you. Means you are close to leave this shit planet when you want to. :smiling:
 
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time2register

Member
Mar 5, 2020
41
Guys, this isn't time to risk getting N. Get SN. It's a great alternative, just read the posts, it works, it's effective, it's as painless as it gets. As much as N will be the highest standard of quality, I assure you SN has nothing to envy of it.

Yeah, my SI is just too high to risk anything that isn't falling asleep after a couple minutes. I don't want any pain or anything scary to happen. I don't want anything I can fight or screw up. I've waited this long; I pretty much plan on waiting until I feel confident and assured my method will be fool proof, painless, and safe.
 
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time2register

Member
Mar 5, 2020
41
Yeah just read the Thread on SN and it sounded challenging, plus finding a prescription anti-emetic seems like another difficult endeavor. Not to sound whiny, which I'm sure I do, but it's been this very same difficulty doing small mundane tasks that has compounded my drive to CTB.
 
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Blutsager

Experienced
Mar 11, 2020
220
Yeah just read the Thread on SN and it sounded challenging, plus finding a prescription anti-emetic seems like another difficult endeavor. Not to sound whiny, which I'm sure I do, but it's been this very same difficulty doing small mundane tasks that has compounded my drive to CTB.

Honestly, all you need is SN. all the others are for being extra-safe, but not really necessary, specially if you combine this with a second method, like hanging, to be extra-safe you won't pull through.
 
GoodPersonEffed

GoodPersonEffed

Brevity is my middle name, but my name was TL
Jan 11, 2020
6,726
Guys, this isn't time to risk getting N. Get SN. It's a great alternative, just read the posts, it works, it's effective, it's as painless as it gets. As much as N will be the highest standard of quality, I assure you SN has nothing to envy of it.

I respectfully suggest you read the anecdotal accounts of SN successes and failures, there are two threads that have gathered them, you can find them by using the site search. SN is not as painless as it gets. I assure you N is still enviable.
 
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BridgeJumper

BridgeJumper

The Arsonist
Apr 7, 2019
1,193
Government is doing all that it can to stop us from painlessly ctbing :/
 
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DownToGo

Member
Mar 18, 2020
52
Anybody willing to accept PM about N and ordering?
 
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h3atd3ath

Member
Mar 1, 2020
7
It looks like the same e-mail address as when I last checked the PPeH which was early 2019.
 
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Ashleyrodriguez

Member
Mar 19, 2020
62
I have been talking to several other members here and on another CTB forum about current experiences with A. This is a collection of everything that we have experienced dealing with A currently.

I have talked to 7 other people here who have ordered from A.

First, when ordering from A The expectation is to receive sealed 100ml glass bottles of N. A also gives a timeline of 20 to 25 days. A randomly asks some people for their phone numbers also. Can't seem to find a rhyme or reason as to who he requests it from.

My order was for two bottles. My order took 19 days. What was immediately odd though was A had told me my order was shipped 17 days before I received it. And when I got the package I realized it was sent 3 days ago. When I opened the package instead of the two sealed 100ml glass N bottles I was expecting, I had two 60ml unsealed plastic bottles. One of which I could immediately smell the chemical smell of the product. I contacted A with these concerns and A replied that the product was good and I had his word. He did not respond to the amount questions, the unsealed questions, or anything else. He has since stopped responding to any of my emails.

Member 2 also ordered two bottles, and received the same as I did. That member also reached out to A with questions and also is not being responded to. This member decided to have the product tested.

Member 3 ordered two bottles. Received one bottle but at least it is the proper 100ml glass bottle. A has promised to send this member another bottle. Will update if it is received.

Member 4 never received their order. A claims it was probably intercepted. There is no way to confirm or deny this of course.

Member 5 ordered one bottle, received one large ( larger than 100ml ) bottle that was partially used, and not properly sealed.

Member 6 is still waiting for delivery. They ordered two bottles and are now at 27 days.

Member 7 ordered two 100ml bottles and received the two 60ml unsealed bottles yet again. One bottle actually leaked in the package due to not being sealed, and was not clear, with particulates in it.

What I have learned that might be key here is that this is not how A operated before October. Since October however many people are very concerned with how A is operating. On the other forum the talks are similar. People getting the unsealed plastic bottles, getting the wrong orders and so forth.

As soon as the member here gets the test results they will be posted by me or them if they want to post it. Several members involved do not want their names used so please do not ask here or in PM as I will not give them out.

My personal advice right now would be to be very cautious, obviously something is very wrong right now. The product could still very well be N, one of the members actually tasted it and said it tasted similar to what would be expected. But, until the test results come back we do not know for sure. Also, be aware that there is no way of knowing what you might receive right now as in quantity, quality, anything. From people I have spoken to from here and the other forum no one has received 2 100ml sealed glass bottles since around the beginning of November.

I do have to say though that if the test comes back positive for N with at least 60mg/ml that would mean that all of us who got the two 60ml bottles would have about 8gm of N. Which is more than enough to peacefully CTB. So we are of course hoping that is the case.

Now, with all the transferred and unsealed product we also have to worry about shelf life. A few of us are researching that and I will update as we learn more.

Another concern is the product being tainted. One member had one bottle that was not clear and appeared to have particulates in it. This is extremely concerning for obvious reasons. I believe that member is having it tested also.

A also stops responding it seems once one gets the product and starts asking questions about their concerns. I have been told by several previous customers that A before November never acted that way. There is a ton of speculation as to why that is, but I will not speculate. I am trying to find the real answers. As I get answers I will update here.

This is all very concerning. This is incredibly serious. I spent every penny I had saved up to get this from A and expected 2 100 ml sealed bottles of N. And I am not alone. We are talking about people counting on A to deliver as promised for people that have gone to him as their means for their final act in life. To find our peace, the way we want to.

I am reporting my experience and findings to EI, as are others.

I promise to update all findings until I CTB myself. Please just use caution for now, I hate that A is the only source that is recommended to us and these things are happening. So I don't want to tell people not to order because our options are limited, and the product might still be N. We should know soon. But there is a lot wrong right now. So use your own discretion. I just want everyone to have all the information available.

Also, if anyone wants to talk to me about any of this, or their own experience, you can respond here of course or you can PM me if you want. As crazy as it may sound to some, all I want is to help others get to any conclusions we can for others while I am still here.
Did you get it tested?
 
bananabear

bananabear

Member
Jan 20, 2020
48
Did you get it tested?

If a member's name is crossed out, like Ark's, they are no longer here. Somewhere in this thread is probably the results of someone's test, just have to look around yourself or check other threads if not this one.
 
enjolras

enjolras

Dead are useless if not to love the living more
Feb 13, 2020
1,293
This is the latest update from the 14st March 2020 (PPeH)

"As of 2020, Exit is once again aware of successful deliveries from the supplier. However, as of March 2020, we are also aware of customs' interceptions and a police welfare check in the Netherlands"
 
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HelensNepenthe

Thoughtful poster
Jan 17, 2019
835
This is the latest update from the 14st March 2020 (PPeH)

"As of 2020, Exit is once again aware of successful deliveries from the supplier. However, as of March 2020, we are also aware of customs' interceptions and a police welfare check in the Netherlands"
Are there any mentions of C in the current edition?
 
enjolras

enjolras

Dead are useless if not to love the living more
Feb 13, 2020
1,293
Nope, the China mail order chapter is still empty of sources
 
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DownToGo

Member
Mar 18, 2020
52
Anybody ordering during Covid-19?
 
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Busdriver

Busdriver

Mage
Feb 11, 2020
513
This is the latest update from the 14st March 2020 (PPeH)

"As of 2020, Exit is once again aware of successful deliveries from the supplier. However, as of March 2020, we are also aware of customs' interceptions and a police welfare check in the Netherlands"

Does it mean both customs' interception and welfare check in the Netherlands?
I thought welfare checks were for people with mental conditions who have a history known to the police.
But this indicates you could get a welfare check because of purchased N? :aw:
 
faust

faust

lost among the stars
Jan 26, 2020
3,138
Am I the one who A does not reply to?
I guess my fault was asking about meto, not N.
Does anybody have the same issue?
 
Throwawaysoul

Throwawaysoul

Wizard
May 14, 2018
606
Guys, this isn't time to risk getting N.

Why? I think a lot of resources are tied up right now and the chances of it getting intercepted are lower than usual.
 
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Una

Una

Write something, even if it’s just a suicide note.
Feb 28, 2020
87
I shared my experience with obtaining 'N' from 'A' … it happened little bit over a year ago so not recent, but it might be still of some use as an information.
 
RainAndSadness

RainAndSadness

Administrator
Jun 12, 2018
2,145
I ordered and received N from A in about a month. Glass bottle, seemed genuine. Had taken label off to ship.

Then the local police arrived at my house. The US department of homeland security called them and told them about the N. They had tracked the entire shipment. He told me they knew about the website and seller (obviously).

So I had to go to a 72 hour hold and N taken away.

Just be careful. Or use it as soon as you get it.

I'm sorry about your experience. That really sucks.

I want to remind all people in this forum to hide your N - if possible outside of your house - if you receive it. The recent incidents of welfare checks and police visits indicates that even if you receive N, it doesn't mean your N is safe. Never let them into your house without a search warrant. Always question their actions. You have rights, take use of them.
 
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FreedomInDeath

FreedomInDeath

Ready to leave
Jan 6, 2020
147
I decided to just give up the N. I asked the officer and he said the fact that I had it was not illegal but how I got it through A was illegal and I didn't want to deal with any charges if I did not comply. To me personally it wasn't worth it as SN seems ok with me as well.