Help Getting attached online when about to CTB

[Ekim]

I got attached to someone from another country we started talking on Instagram on 21st April and since then we've been talking every day for long hours i won't lie they're emotionally mature, they understand me and they talk to me sweetly they don't even know my real name just my country and I don't know theirs either the problem is I've become very attached to them am waiting every second for their messages I know I'm going crazy I feel like I have to commit suicide before 30 April and today is already the 27th I'm really scared its hard for me to block them i told all of this to my online best friend but the only reply I got was "ok" ngl that hurt me so I blocked her but I can't seem to block the person I just met can someone give me advice or help me detach from them and stop thinking about them? It would mean a lot to me.

 

[whywere]

I know that this is the opposite of what you have asked, but in all fairness, I have to say this.

One can call it as one pleases, a sign, an occurrence, etc. BUT it stays the same as far as maybe, just maybe you are supposed to connect with this person and see where it goes to.

Always remember that ctb is truly one and done and will it matter all that much if one gives friendship or maybe more down the road a chance?

Ctb is NOT going anywhere and having a friend and maybe a soulmate might be dramatically life changing, it may not also, to be fair, BUT just think of sitting on a park bench, on the beach with a great friend or more watching the sunrise or set or both, wonderful!

Heavens, talk and see what develops, as there in again, CTB is NOT going anywhere.

Please give it a chance to bloom and blossom in the sunshine of life.

Walter

I am NOT pro-life nor pro-ctb, I am pro-choice and this situation might develop into something so much more.

 

[Aflame5926]

sorry im not gonna tell you how to stay motivated for this. CTB needs to be done purely with your own will power.

but if you get attached to a new person dont be afraid for it. CTB can always be an option.
i dont know your situation but its my 2 cent of my opninion and ill solve it up on my own arse

 

[Ekim]

Thank you so much your words mean a lot to me but for me the future feels really scary I feel like if I don't commit suicide in two days everything will go wrong for me they're honestly one of the nicest people you could ask for mature, funny, understanding and they reply to my texts quickly but the problem is I've become overly attached to them and I feel really ashamed of myself for that

 

[whywere]

Thank you so much your words mean a lot to me but for me the future feels really scary I feel like if I don't commit suicide in two days everything will go wrong for me they're honestly one of the nicest people you could ask for mature, funny, understanding and they reply to my texts quickly but the problem is I've become overly attached to them and I feel really ashamed of myself for that

NEVER EVER feel ashamed about friendship, love, kindness, caring thoughtfulness, the desire for companionship and so much more.

You ARE a VERY kind, caring and ever so heartfelt soul who cares about others and you should feel VERY proud of you being you.

Walter

 

[Aflame5926]

I feel really ashamed of myself for that

WHY bro?

i am jealous you even found a person that makes you feel that way.
also why is the 30th such a deadline? can you maybe explain it a bit more?

i still won't give any advice tho.

 

[unluckysadness]

That's why I avoid new conversations. I'd like to contact s

Thank you so much your words mean a lot to me but for me the future feels really scary I feel like if I don't commit suicide in two days everything will go wrong for me they're honestly one of the nicest people you could ask for mature, funny, understanding and they reply to my texts quickly but the problem is I've become overly attached to them and I feel really ashamed of myself for that

It seems that it's not your time to leave. You don't need to hurry. CTB in a hurry isn't always a good thing.
Take care and remember that this forum will always be here for you (as long as authorities don't shut it down...)
This forum saves more lives than it kills. Day after day I'm more and more sure about it.