Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

Always preferring peace over suffering.
No matter what I really will always prefer peace over suffering and the true peace of non-existence where all is gone and forgotten is just all I see as positive and desirable, I'll just always prefer to not exist than suffer.

All I want is peace from this torturous existence of dreadful suffering I just always saw as a mistake, as long as I exist I really will just wish and hope to never wake again, I just want to be free from all pain and suffering.

 

[Epikur]

Back again after 2 yrs. Which means I didn´t have the guts to kill myself. Some attempts, though. I simply cannot understand why I will reach 60 next years ... I want to die since I was a teenager. Moral obligations towards other people (parents, partners, friends) always hindered me to do it. I am just tired of life. Well, despite of my depression coming and going the last 25 yrs, I had a good life so far, as people would say. I really don´t want to get old and invalid. The most I fear dementia. To die is a wish that follows me even in my dreams. It´s so sweet. Lay down and rest. Eternal peace of mind.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only wanting non-existence to save me from all future suffering.
For non-existence to save me from all future suffering truly is all I hope and wish for and I'll just always prefer to not exist than suffer, all I want is peace from this terrible, torturous and cruel existence that just causes all this harm and suffering.

I'll just always prefer the peace of non-existence, I just want to be permanently free from all pain and suffering in this existence I just always saw as a mistake that is just waiting to die anyway, to exist truly does mean to suffer.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always wishing to erase this existence.
To erase this existence truly is all I hope and wish for, all I want is peace from the terrible, torturous burden of existence that I just always saw as a mistake, to me existence will always be the problem that just causes all this harm and suffering. All I want is for all to be gone and forgotten for me in non-existence with no more pain and no more suffering, I just want it to be like I never suffered in this cruel, futile existence at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

To suffer in this existence will just always be a terrible mistake to me.
It truly is a mistake to me and I wish I never suffered more than anything, to me this terrible, torturous existence will just always be the problem and I'd just never wish to exist, all I want is peace from the mistake of existence that just tortures and harms existing beings, I just want to never suffer again, for me ceasing to exist will just always be the positive solution to find peace from the terrible mistake of existence, I just want all to be gone and forgotten in non-existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is all I could hope for.
It truly is all I could hope for in this existence of torturous suffering and all I want is to erase this terrible, cruel and futile existence so it's like I never suffered at all, for me the peace of non-existence is just all that's desirable.

I'll just always find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence was imposed causing all this cruelty and suffering as a result, I'll just always see existence as the problem.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing is just always so terrible and torturous.
It truly is so terrible and torturous and I'd just never wish to suffer in this painful, dreadful existence rather I just wish for the peace of non-existence where this torturous, futile existence of unnecessary suffering is finally all gone.

To suffer in this existence will just always feel like a mistake to me that just causes all this cruelty and suffering, I'll just always see existence as the problem, simply just existing is enough to make me wish for true permanent peace.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always and only hoping to be free from this torturous existence.
To be free from this terrible, torturous existence really is just all I could hope for and as long as I exist I really will just wish to be free from all suffering, I'll just always see existence as the problem and it's one only non-existence can bring me any peace from.

To suffer in this torturous, futile existence will just always be a mistake to me, for me only non-existence could ever be positive, I just hope for no more suffering and I'll just always see this torturous, cruel existence as just being suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Nothing would ever make me wish for this existence so terrible and futile.
I truly would never wish for this existence so terrible and futile rather all I want is to erase this terrible, torturous existence so it's like I never suffered at all,

I'll just always see it as so dreadful to suffer in this existence, I'll just always see existence as the problem and simply just existing is enough to make me want to never suffer again, I just want some peace from this torturous, futile existence that I just always saw as a mistake.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only hoping for true peace.
I truly only hope for true peace and I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence so torturous and terrible, I'll just always prefer the peace of non-existence no matter what than suffering in this existence so dreadful and terrible that I just always saw as a mistake.

To me existence will just always be the problem and it's one only non-existence can solve for me, all I hope for is no more suffering, I'll just only be at peace once I no longer suffer in this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

This cruel existence will always be waiting to die.
It truly is just waiting to die with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I'd just never wish for any of this, to me this existence will just always be a mistake and I'll just always prefer to not exist, for me non-existence is just all I see as positive.

I'd just never wish for this existence of torturous suffering that is just waiting to die, non-existence really is just all I see as desirable, I'll just never see any point to suffering in this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Nothing would make me wish for any of this.
I truly would never wish for any of this, I just want peace instead and for me non-existence is just the only peace from the suffering of this terrible, torturous and cruel existence, I just want to never suffer again.

I just want to erase this existence that just tortures existing beings, I'll just always see existence as the problem and it's one only non-existence can solve for me, all I want is for this existence to be forgotten.

 

[FuneralCry]

To suffer in this existence will just always be an abomination.
It truly is an abomination that just causes all this cruelty and suffering and I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence so terrible and torturous that I just always saw as a mistake, this existence truly is an abomination that just tortures existing beings.

I just want to never suffer again and to me existing will always be only suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, nothing would ever make me wish to suffer in this futile, torturous existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

All I see as desirable is being at peace from all suffering.
It truly is all I see as desirable and I'd just never wish for the suffering of this painful, torturous existence, to suffer in this existence will just always be a mistake to me and all I want is to erase this existence of torturous suffering so it's like I never suffered at all.

For me ceasing to exist is just the only peace from this existence that just harms existing beings all for the sake of it, I'd just only be relieved to never exist again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing will just always be so undesirable.
It truly is so undesirable to me and I'd just never wish to suffer in this terrible, torturous existence, in this existence that I just always saw as a mistake non-existence is just the only peace and as long as I exist I really will just hope to erase this existence. I just want it to be like I never was burdened with this existence at all and I'll always see existence as a burden that just causes all this cruelty, harm and suffering all for the sake of it.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much pain in existing.
There truly is so much pain in existing with existing beings tortured every second, I'll just always see existence as the problem and it's one only non-existence can solve for me, all I wish and hope for is to never suffer in this painful, torturous existence ever again.

I just want this existence to be all gone, forgotten and erased with no more suffering and I wish I never suffered in this cruel, dreadful existence more than anything.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always suffer as a result of the mistake of existence.
I truly do always suffer as a result of the mistake of existence and I just want to be free from it all, I'll just always prefer the peace of non-existence over being burdened with this existence so terrible and torturous that just causes all this futile, unnecessary suffering there was never a need for, for me only the peace of non-existence could ever be positive, I'll always see existence as the most dreadful, terrible mistake.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never seeing any point to suffering.
I truly could never see any point to suffering and I'd just never wish to suffer in this terrible, cruel existence that I just always saw as a mistake, for me existence will always be the problem, all that this existence does is just cause all this dreadful unnecessary suffering as a result, for me ceasing to exist is just all that's positive in this futile existence. There is no point to any of this, existing really is just waiting to die, it's just suffering all for the sake of it with no limit as to how much one can be tortured.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence will always be the problem.
It truly is the problem that just causes all this cruelty and suffering and as long as I exist I really will just hope for non-existence to solve everything for me, I'll always see ceasing to exist as the positive solution to be free from this torturous existence, it's just so terrible how this existence was imposed, to me existence will just always be the mistake that just tortures existing beings.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'd just never wish for this existence of torturous suffering.
I truly would never wish for this existence of torturous suffering and to me existence will just always be the problem, all I want is to be free from this terrible, torturous existence that I just always saw as a mistake.

I just wish for no more suffering and to exist will always mean to suffer, nothing would make me wish for any of this, for me non-existence is just all that's positive in this existence that just causes all this cruelty and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence will always be an abomination.
It truly is an abomination that just causes all this cruelty, pain and suffering and I'll just always prefer to not exist than suffer in this terrible, torturous existence, I'll just always see existence as a mistake and it's one that I'd just never wish for.

All I want is to be free from the abomination of existence that just tortures existing beings, I'll just always see existence as the problem, it's just so terrible how this existence of torturous suffering was even imposed.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing will always be so dreadful.
It truly is so dreadful, all that this existence ever does is just torture existing beings all for the sake of it and just cause all this cruelty and suffering that there was never a need for, I'd just never wish to suffer in this dreadful, futile existence rather I just want peace. I just want this terrible, torturous existence to be all gone and forgotten like I never suffered at all, I'll just always find it so dreadful to exist.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence will always be the problem.
It truly is the problem that just tortures existing beings all for the sake of it and all I want is to erase this existence so it's like I never suffered, to exist will just always be an abomination, I'll always see this cruel, painful existence as the problem that just tortures existing beings.

For me the peace of non-existence is just the only relief in this existence I just always saw as the problem, I just want to erase this existence, it's just so terrible how this existence was imposed at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Nothing would ever make me wish for this existence so torturous.
I truly would never wish for this existence so terrible and torturous rather all I want is to erase this existence, I just want true permanent peace from this existence of dreadful suffering that I just always saw as a mistake.

I'll just always see this terrible, futile existence as the problem, all I want is to never suffer again and I'll just always see existing as suffering all for the sake of it, non-existence is just all I could ever see as desirable.