Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

So much torture in this cruel, futile existence.
There truly is so much torture in this cruel, futile existence with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and no matter what I'll just always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this terrible, torturous existence.

For me non-existence is just the only peace in this existence so torturous and dreadful and I'll just always prefer to not exist than suffer, I just hope for no more torture and no more suffering, to suffer in this existence is just a terrible mistake to me, I just want to be gone, I just want to never be tortured ever again in this existence so dreadful and painful.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is peace to me.
It truly is peace to me and I'll just only be at peace once I no longer suffer in this cruel, terrible and torturous existence, for me non-existence is just the only relief in this existence so harmful and dreadful that just causes all this cruelty and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured.

I just want to never suffer again and for me non-existence is just the only peace, I just want to be free from all the torture and suffering of existing, I'll just always prefer to not exist than suffer in this cruel existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

To suffer in this existence is just always the most dreadful abomination.
It truly is the most terrible, dreadful abomination that just harms and tortures existing beings and I'll just always prefer to not exist, all I want is peace from the pain, torture and suffering of existing and I'll just always see existing as just being only suffering.

All I want is peace from the torture of existing, I just want to never suffer again, I just wish to be permanently free from this existence so dreadful that just harms and tortures existing beings and I suffer simply from existing, all I want is to be free from all cruelty and suffering, I just want all to be gone, forgotten and erased for me in the peace of non-existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

For me ceasing to exist will always be the positive solution.
It truly will always be the positive solution for me to find true permanent peace from the torture, cruelty and suffering of this terrible, dreadful existence and I suffer simply from existing, it truly is so dreadful and as long as I exist I'll just wish and hope to never suffer again.

Only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from the cruelty and torture of this painful, deeply undesirable existence that just causes all this harm and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I'll just always find it so torturous and painful to suffer in this existence I just always saw as a mistake, to be permanently free from all torture and suffering is just all I see as desirable.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence truly does just cause all this dreadful cruelty and suffering.
It truly does just cause all this dreadful cruelty and suffering and I'll just always prefer to not exist no matter what than suffer in this terrible, dreadful existence I just always saw as a mistake that just causes all this pain, harm and suffering.

I suffer simply from being burdened with this existence that just harms and tortures existing beings, all I want is to be gone, I just want to never suffer in this torturous, futile existence I just always saw as a mistake ever again and for me existence really is the problem, it's one only non-existence can solve for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only non-existence could ever be positive for me.
It truly is all I see as positive in this existence of torturous suffering and I'll just always prefer to not exist than be tortured in this cruel, dreadful existence no matter what, all I want is peace from all pain, suffering and torture.

For me non-existence is just the only relief in this existence I just always saw as the most dreadful, terrible mistake and there's just so much suffering in this torturous existence, for me ceasing to exist will always be the positive solution, I just hope for no more suffering, ceasing to exist solves everything for me in this existence so dreadful.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always seeing existing as just being dreadful suffering.
No matter what I'll just always see existing as just being dreadful suffering and all I want is to be free from it, I just see it as so terrible how this existence was imposed causing all this cruelty, harm and suffering as a result and I just suffer so much as a result of this existence.

It's just all so dreadful and I'll just always prefer to not exist than be tortured in this existence I just always saw as a mistake that only ever causes all this harm and suffering, for me non-existence is just all that's positive, all I hope for is no more suffering and no more torture, I'll always find it so dreadful to exist.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is just the most torturous, terrible mistake.
It truly is the most torturous, terrible mistake and no matter what I'll just always prefer to not exist than suffer, for me non-existence is just the only peace from this existence so dreadful that just causes all this cruelty, torture and suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel.

I just want to erase this terrible, dreadful existence, I just want to never suffer again and I'll just always see this existence as only suffering, I suffer simply from being burdened with this terrible, dreadful existence, in this existence of torturous suffering the peace of non-existence is just all I could ever see as desirable no matter what.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always seeing existing as just being suffering.
No matter what to me existing will just always be only suffering and I suffer so much as a result of this terrible, torturous existence, all I want is to be gone, I just want peace from this existence that just harms and tortures existing beings.

I'll just always see existence as the most terrible cruel mistake that just causes all this harm and suffering, to me existence really is always the problem and I suffer simply from existing, all I want is to be gone, I just want peace from the suffering and torture of this existence I just always saw as a mistake.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only eternal sleep can solve everything for me.
It truly is all that can solve everything for me in this existence so dreadful, cruel and torturous and I'd just never wish for the torture of this cruel, futile existence no matter what, for me non-existence is just the only peace in this existence I just always saw as such a terrible, dreadful mistake.

For me non-existence is just all that's positive, only in non-existence will I be at peace from this existence so torturous that just causes endless amounts of cruelty, harm and suffering, non-existence solves everything for me and saves me from all future suffering and torture in this existence so dreadful.

 

[FuneralCry]

To suffer in this existence is just always so terrible to me.
I truly will always find it so terrible to suffer in this existence and I'd just never wish for the torture of existing rather all I want is some peace, only in non-existence will I be at peace from this terrible, torturous existence that just causes all this cruelty, harm and suffering and I suffer simply from existing, it's just so terrible and dreadful.

All I want is for this existence to be gone, forgotten and erased for me, I just want peace from this existence so torturous and dreadful, I just want all to be forgotten for me, no matter what this torturous existence of dreadful suffering should just never be imposed.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much terrible torture and suffering in existing.
There truly is so much terrible torture and suffering in existing and I'd just never wish for any of this, I'll just always see it as so dreadful to suffer in this existence, to me existence is just the most terrible, dreadful abomination and I suffer simply from existing.

It's just all so dreadful, all I hope for is no more torture and no more suffering, I'll just always see it as a mistake to suffer in this torturous existence and the suffering of existing is endless, all I hope for is no more suffering, I just want true permanent peace from the torture of existing.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always and only hoping for the peace of non-existence.
The peace of non-existence is just all I see as positive and desirable, all I want is to erase this terrible, torturous and dreadful existence, I just want to never exist again with no more suffering and no more torture.

I'll just always find it so torturous to suffer in this cruel, harmful existence, for me non-existence is just all that can bring me any peace, I just wish to be free from this existence I just always saw as the most terrible mistake that just causes all this torture and suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only hoping to be free from the suffering of existing.
No matter what to be free from the suffering and torture of existing truly is all I could hope for, all I want is to never suffer again and I'll just always see this terrible, dreadful existence as just being suffering.

All I want is to be free from this existence so torturous and cruel and I'll just always see existing as just being only suffering, to never suffer in this painful existence ever again is just all I see as desirable, I'll just always see existence as an abomination that only ever harms and tortures existing beings and all I want is to be gone, I just want peace from the torture of existing.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing will always be so torturous to me.
No matter what I really will always find it so torturous to suffer in this terrible, cruel existence and I'd just never wish for the pain and suffering of existing rather all I want is to be gone. I just want some peace from this torturous existence that I just always saw as the most cruel mistake that just causes all this cruelty, torture and suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel.

Existence to me is just always an abomination and I suffer simply from being burdened with this terrible, cruel existence that just causes all this pain, harm and suffering and I suffer simply from being conscious burdened with this torturous existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence to me could never be worth it.
It truly could never be worth it for me and I'd just never wish for the torture of this terrible, cruel existence and there's just so much cruelty in existing, to suffer in this existence is always a mistake that never should had been imposed.

There's nothing desirable about this existence of torturous suffering that is just waiting to die anyway, all I want is to be gone, I just want to be free from this existence so dreadful that just harms and tortures existing beings with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, I just hope for peace from the suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always seeing existing as just being only suffering.
No matter what to me existing will just always be only suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of existing, to exist truly does mean to suffer and it feels like I've suffered so much for so long in this existence I just always saw as a mistake.

To me existence will always be the problem and I suffer simply from being burdened with this terrible, torturous existence, I just hope for no more torture and no more suffering, there's just so much pain in this dreadful, cruel existence, I just wish to erase this painful, harmful existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always seeing existence as a cruel mistake.
I truly will always see existence as a cruel mistake and there's just so much cruelty and torture in existing, all I want is to be gone, I just want to erase this terrible, torturous existence, I just hope for peace from all the suffering.

I'll only be at peace once I'm free from this existence I just always saw as a mistake, for me non-existence is just all that's positive, I'll always see ceasing to exist as the positive solution for me to be free from all future torture and suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always finding it torture to suffer in this existence.
I truly will always find it so torturous to suffer in this existence and no matter what I'd just never wish for the suffering and torture of this terrible, dreadful existence, for me non-existence is just the only peace from this torturous existence I just always saw as a mistake that just causes all this harm and suffering.

For me non-existence truly is all that's desirable in this existence that just harms and tortures existing beings and I suffer simply from existing, to suffer in this torturous existence really is an abomination to me that just tortures existing beings.

 

[amy joyce]

In these last two years or so have you engaged in any actual discussion with people in this group?

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing to me is just waiting to die.
It'll always just be waiting to die to me, existing is just dreadful pain and suffering all for the sake of it, all I want is to be gone, I just wish for peace from this existence of torturous suffering that just tortures existing beings.

I'll just always prefer to not exist than suffer in this dreadful, cruel existence no matter what, I just wish for no more torture and no more suffering and I suffer so much as a result of being conscious burdened with this existence, I just want to erase this cruel existence, I just want to never suffer again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing is just so torturous and painful.
It truly is so torturous and painful to me and no matter what I'd just never wish for the pain of this dreadful existence I just always saw as the most cruel mistake and there's just so much cruelty and suffering in this torturous existence of dreadful suffering.

All I want is to be gone, I just want to erase this cruel existence of futile unnecessary suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of being conscious burdened with this futile existence I just always saw as a mistake that only ever causes all this cruelty, harm and suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always suffer as a result of this cruel, painful existence.
I truly do always suffer as a result of this cruel painful existence and there's just so much cruelty and so much suffering in this torturous existence and I'll just always see existence as a mistake, all that existence ever does is just cause all this torture, harm and suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel.

I just suffer so much as a result of this torturous existence, for me existing will just always be torture, all I want is to be gone, I just hope for no more pain and no more suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of this existence so dreadful and painful.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always seeing existing as so undesirable.
No matter what I really will always see it as so undesirable to suffer in this torturous, futile existence and I'd just never wish to exist, it's just so dreadful and terrible to me how this existence was imposed causing all this harm and torture as a result.

All I want is to be gone, I just wish for peace from this existence I just always saw as the most cruel mistake, I'll just always and only hope to not exist, for me non-existence is just all that's desirable, I just wish for non-existence to bring me the peace and relief from suffering, to be burdened with this existence will always be so deeply undesirable to me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never wanting to exist.
No matter what I really would never want to exist, I'd just never wish for the pain and suffering of this cruel, terrible existence that just harms and tortures existing beings, I'll just always and only see non-existence as positive.

I always suffer so much from being so cruelly denied the option to find true permanent peace from the torture and suffering of this terrible, cruel existence and I'll just always see existing as only suffering, to suffer in this existence is just the most terrible, futile abomination to me and all I want is to erase this existence, for me non-existence is just the only peace from this existence so torturous.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much torture and cruelty in existing.
There truly is just so much torture and cruelty in existing and no matter what I'll just always prefer to not exist than suffer in this dreadful, futile existence I just always saw as a mistake, to me existence truly is the problem.

I just suffer so much as a result of this existence so terrible and torturous that just causes all this terrible cruelty and suffering, I'll just always see existing as only suffering, simply just existing is enough to make me wish for peace from this existence so cruel and dreadful that only ever tortures existing beings.

 

[FuneralCry]

So horrible how a human can suffer for so long.
It truly is so horrible to me how a human can suffer for so long in this terrible, torturous existence, all I want is peace from the torture and cruelty of existing, all I want is to never suffer again, in this existence so cruel and dreadful only non-existence can bring me peace.

I'll just only be at peace once I'm no longer burdened with this terrible, torturous existence that just causes all this harm and suffering, existing truly is torture, I always suffer so much as a result of this torturous, painful existence I just always saw as a mistake.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always and only hoping for the peace of non-existence.
No matter what the peace of non-existence is just all I hope for and is all I see as desirable in this existence of torturous suffering and I'll just always see existing as only suffering, I just suffer so much as a result of how I cannot just choose to find true permanent peace from the dreadful, futile burden of existing.

I'll just always see existing as just being suffering all for the sake of it, to suffer in this existence will just always be the most cruel, terrible mistake to me, all I hope for is no more torture and no more suffering and I suffer simply from being burdened with this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence only ever causes harm.
It truly does just cause cruelty, harm and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, all I want is to be free from this torturous harmful existence and in this existence of dreadful suffering for me non-existence is just the only peace.

All I hope for is no more torture and no more suffering and I suffer so much as a result of being conscious burdened with this existence I just always saw as a mistake, I just wish for no more pain and no more suffering, existence only ever tortures existing beings, I'll always see it as a terrible mistake to suffer in this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much dreadful suffering in existing.
There truly is so much terrible suffering in existing and no matter what I'd just never wish for the torture of existing rather all I want is peace and I'll only be at peace once I'm permanently unconscious no longer burdened with this terrible cruel existence of dreadful suffering.

For me non-existence is just all that's desirable in this existence so torturous that just causes all this cruelty and suffering, I'll just always find it so dreadful to be burdened with this existence I just always saw as the most terrible, tragic mistake, I just hope for no more suffering, only non-existence is positive for me.