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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,527
Always so tired of suffering.
I truly am just always so tired of suffering in this terrible, torturous existence and I'd just never wish for the pain and suffering of existing rather all I want is some peace and I'll just only be at peace in non-existence where this torturous existence of dreadful suffering that I just always saw as a mistake is finally all gone and forgotten.

No matter what I really will just always prefer to not exist than suffer and I'll always and only see existing as only suffering, to suffer in this existence is always an abomination to me, no matter what only non-existence could ever be positive for me, eternal sleep is just all I hope for.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,527
Existence should never be imposed.
It truly never should be imposed and it's just so terrible how it was causing all this cruelty, torture and suffering as a result, all I want is to be gone, I just want to be never tortured in this terrible existence ever again.

To me the existence of life is the most terrible, devastating tragedy that just causes all this cruelty, torture and suffering, to impose this existence is such terrible extreme cruelty to me, all that imposing existence ever does is cause all this pain and suffering there was never a need for with no limit as to how much one can be tortured.
 
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FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,527
There is so much suffering in this existence.
There truly is so much suffering in this existence I just always saw as the most terrible mistake and to exist really does mean to suffer, I'll just always see it as an abomination to suffer in this existence.

In this existence of torturous suffering non-existence is just all I see as positive and I'll just only be at peace once I'm permanently unconscious no longer burdened with this terrible, cruel existence that just causes all this pain, torture and suffering, all I want is to be gone, I just want to never be tortured in this dreadful, torturous existence ever again.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,527
To suffer in this existence is the most tortuous burden.
It truly is the most torturous burden to me and no matter what I'd just never wish for the torture of this terrible, cruel existence.

All I want is peace and for me non-existence is just the only peace and relief from this existence so torturous and dreadful that just causes all this cruelty, harm and suffering and I suffer simply from existing, I'd just never wish to be conscious of anything at all, for me non-existence is just all that's positive, I just hope for no more suffering.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,527
Only hoping for all to be forgotten for me in non-existence.
No matter what all I could hope is for all to be gone and forgotten for me in non-existence, I just hope for no more torture and no more suffering, all I want is to erase this existence I just always saw as the most cruel mistake and there's just so much cruelty and so much torture in existing, I'll just always find it so undesirable to exist.

For me non-existence is just the only peace and I'll only be at peace once all is gone for me, in this existence so torturous and dreadful only the peace of non-existence can solve everything for me.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,527
Always preferring the peace of non-existence.
It truly is always preferable for me and the peace of non-existence is just all I could hope for, all I want is to be free from the terrible torture and suffering of this dreadful, torturous existence.

I'll just only be at peace once I no longer exist, there's just so much cruelty in existing and I'll just always see existence as a mistake, the peace of non-existence is just all I see as desirable, only non-existence could ever be positive for me, I just want to never suffer again and I'll always see this cruel, deeply undesirable existence as just being suffering.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,527
Always finding it so deeply undesirable to exist.
No matter what I really will always find it so deeply undesirable to exist and I'd just never wish for the suffering and torture of existing, to me existence will just always be such a terrible mistake that just causes all this torture and suffering.

For me only non-existence could ever be positive and desirable, I just wish for no more suffering, I'll just always prefer to not exist than suffer in this torturous, cruel existence, I just hope for no more suffering and I suffer simply from being burdened with this existence.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,527
Never wishing for any of this.
No matter what I'd just never wish for any of this and all I want is to be free from the torture and suffering of existing, all I want is some peace and I'll just only be at peace once I'm permanently unconscious.

It's just so terrible how this existence was imposed causing all this torture as a result and I'll just always find it so torturous to suffer in this dreadful, painful existence, all I want is to be gone, non-existence really is just all I could ever see as positive.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,527
Existence is just so evil to me.
It truly is so evil to me with existing beings tortured in agony every second and I suffer simply from being burdened with this existence I just always saw as the most terrible, cruel mistake, all I want is peace from the terrible torture and evil of existing.

I'll just always see existence as the problem, there truly is just so much torture in existing and I'll just always prefer to not exist no matter what than suffer in this harmful, torturous existence that just causes all this cruelty and suffering.
 
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LastDayOnEarth

LastDayOnEarth

Vsed apologist
May 20, 2025
421
I truly hope when I attempt ctb I succeed
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,527
Always finding it so dreadful to suffer in this existence.
No matter what I really will always find it so dreadful to suffer in this existence and I'd just never wish for the torture of existing rather I just want to be gone.

I just want all to be gone, forgotten and erased for me in the peace of non-existence, to suffer in this existence is just the most terrible, torturous and dreadful burden to me, all I want is to never suffer ever again, I'd just never wish to be conscious of anything at all, to me existing will always be torture and it's just so terrible how this existence was imposed causing all this torture as a result.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,527
Only hoping for eternal sleep.
No matter what the peace of eternal sleep is just all I could ever hope and wish for and as long as I exist I'll only hope for true permanent peace, I just wish to be free from the torture and suffering of this terrible, cruel existence.

I'll just only be at peace once I no longer exist, in this existence so dreadful and torturous the peace of non-existence is just all I see as desirable, I just want to never suffer in this futile, cruel existence ever again, for me non-existence is just the only peace from this existence I just always saw as a mistake.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,527
Always suffer as a result of the mistake of existence.
I truly do always suffer as a result of the mistake of existence and no matter what I'd just never wish for the suffering of this terrible, dreadful and cruel existence rather all I want is some peace.

I just wish to be free from this existence that just tortures existing beings and to me it'll always be torture to suffer in this existence, all I want is for this existence to be all gone, forgotten and erased, I'll always see existence as a mistake, existence is just so dreadful and painful and I suffer simply from existing.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,527
To suffer in this existence will always be an abomination to me.
No matter what I really will always see it as an abomination to suffer in this dreadful, torturous existence and I'd just never wish for the torture of existing rather all I want is some peace, I'll just always see existence as the most terrible, cruel mistake that just causes all this harm, torture and suffering. I suffer simply from existing, all I want is to be free from the abomination of existence, I just hope to be free from all pain, suffering and torture.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,527
Only non-existence could ever be positive for me.
It truly is all that's positive for me, for me ceasing to exist will always be the positive solution to find peace from the torture and suffering of this terrible, dreadful existence, for me non-existence is just the only peace from this existence so evil and harmful and there's just so much evil in existing with existing beings tortured in agony every second.

Only in non-existence will I be safe and at peace from the terrible suffering of this dreadful existence I just always saw as a mistake that just causes all this harm, I'll just always see existence as the problem, I'll always see it as an abomination to suffer in this existence.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,527
Painless death needs to be accessible.
It truly does need to be accessible and I just always suffer so much from how I cannot just have the option to peacefully cease existing so finally I can be at peace from the torture of this dreadful, cruel existence I just always saw as a mistake that just tortures and harms existing beings and in this existence so dreadful only non-existence can bring me any relief.

There truly is so much terrible extreme cruelty how humans have made it illegal to cease existing painlessly with the suffering and torture of existing seen as to force and prolong no matter what, all I want is to erase this terrible, torturous existence, I just hope to never suffer again.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,527
To suffer in this existence will always be so painful.
I truly will always find it so painful to suffer in this existence and there's just so much pain in this terrible, torturous existence, all I want is to be gone, I just want some peace from the terrible suffering and torture of existing.

To be conscious burdened with this existence is just always so painful to me and I suffer simply from being burdened with this terrible, dreadful existence, I'll just always see it as an abomination to exist, only non-existence can bring me the peace and relief I search for from the pain and suffering of existing.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,527
Always preferring to not exist than suffer.
I truly will always prefer to not exist than be tortured in this existence and for me non-existence is just all that's positive in this existence so cruel and torturous that just causes all this cruelty, harm and suffering.

All I want is some peace, I just want non-existence to bring me the peace I search for from this existence so dreadful and cruel, for me non-existence is just all that's desirable in this existence I just always saw as a mistake, I just hope for no more pain and no more suffering and I'll just always see this torturous existence as just being suffering.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,527
To suffer in this existence is always so terrible to me.
I truly will always find it so terrible to suffer in this existence and I'd just never wish for the torture of existing rather all I want is peace and for me non-existence is just the only relief in this existence so dreadful.

I just hope for no more torture and no more suffering and I suffer simply from being burdened with this existence I just always saw as the most terrible mistake, for me non-existence is just all that's desirable in this existence so torturous and painful.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,527
So much torture in existing.
There truly is just so much torture in existing with no limit as to how much agony one can feel and no matter what I'll just always prefer to cease existing than suffer in this terrible, torturous existence I just always saw as a mistake.

I'll just always see this torturous existence as the problem, all I hope for is no more torture and no more suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this existence, all I want is to be gone, I just hope for no more pain and no more suffering and as long as I exist I'll only hope to be permanently unconscious free from the torture of existing.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,527
Eternal sleep is all that can bring me peace.
It truly is all that can bring me peace from the torture of existing and I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence no matter what, I just want to never suffer ever again and I always suffer from how I cannot just choose to peacefully cease existing to finally be free from this existence I just always saw as a mistake and I'll just always see existence as the problem. All I want is to be gone, I just want non-existence to solve everything for me, I see so much terrible cruelty in how I cannot just have a death like never waking again so finally I can be at peace from this existence so dreadful and torturous that never should had been imposed.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,527
Always and only hoping for non-existence.
No matter what non-existence really is all I could hope for and no matter what I'll just always prefer to not exist than be tortured by this terrible, cruel existence, all I want is to be gone, for me non-existence is just the only peace in this existence so torturous that just causes all this cruelty, harm and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured.

All I want is for non-existence to bring me the relief I search for from the terrible suffering and cruelty of existing, I just hope for no more pain and no more suffering, I just want to never exist again.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,527
Always hoping to erase this existence.
To erase this dreadful, torturous existence truly is all I could ever hope for, I just want it to be like I never suffered at all in this existence I just always saw as the most terrible mistake that just causes all this harm, cruelty and suffering.

I'll just always see existing as only suffering, it's just all so dreadful and as long as I exist I'll only hope for peace from the torture of existing, I just hope to never suffer again, to me existence will just always be an abomination that just causes all this cruelty and harm with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, to me existence will just always be the problem and I suffer simply from existing.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,527
The peace of non-existence solves everything for me.
It truly would solve everything for me and no matter what I'll just always prefer to not exist than suffer in this torturous, dreadful existence, for me non-existence is just all I see as positive, non-existence solves everything for me as after all if I don't exist I cannot suffer.

There is no suffering in being permanently unconscious where this dreadful, terrible existence I just always saw as a mistake is finally all gone and forgotten, I just hope for no more torture and no more suffering, all I want is to peacefully prevent all future torture and suffering by ceasing to exist.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,527
Existence is the most torturous burden.
It truly is the most torturous burden and I suffer simply from being burdened with this dreadful, terrible existence, all I want is to be gone, I just wish for peace from the terrible pain and torture of existing and to me existence will always be a mistake.

I'll just always find it torture to suffer in this cruel, painful existence, no matter what this existence should never be imposed and it's so cruel to me how it was causing all this harm and suffering as a result, simply just existing is enough to make me wish for peace from the torture of existing.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,527
Always so tired of suffering.
I truly am just always so tired of suffering in this dreadful, torturous existence and no matter what I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing rather all I want is some peace and for me non-existence is just the only peace from the cruelty and torture of this existence I just always saw as the most terrible mistake.

The peace of non-existence is just all I see as desirable, only non-existence can bring me the peace and relief I search for from this existence so torturous that I'm just always so tired of that only ever causes all this harm, torture and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I'll just always find it torture to suffer in this existence.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,527
The suffering this existence causes is endless.
It truly does just cause endless suffering and torture with no limit as to how much agony one can feel and no matter what I'll just always prefer to not exist than suffer in this terrible, cruel existence.

For me non-existence is just the only relief in this existence so dreadful and torturous that just causes all this harm and suffering and I'll always see existing as just being dreadful unnecessary suffering all for the sake of it, I'll just always see it as an abomination to exist, for me non-existence is just the only peace in this existence of endless suffering I just always saw as a mistake.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,527
Always wishing for true peace.
No matter what true peace from this existence is just all I see as desirable, I just want to be permanently unconscious free from the suffering and torture of this terrible, torturous existence I just always saw as a mistake and I suffer simply from existing.

No matter what all I could ever hope for is to be gone, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I'll just always see existing as being only suffering, to suffer in this existence is just the most terrible mistake to me, non-existence is just all I could ever hope for in this existence so dreadful.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,527
So much terrible suffering and torture in existing.
There truly is so much terrible suffering and torture in existing and I'd just never wish for the suffering of this existence I just always saw as a mistake, in this existence so dreadful and torturous non-existence is just the only peace for me.

Only in non-existence will I be free from the terrible torture and suffering of existing and I'd just always prefer to not exist, for me non-existence is just all that's positive, for me ceasing to exist is the positive solution to find peace from this existence I just always saw as the most cruel mistake and there's just so much cruelty and torture in this dreadful existence.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,527
Only non-existence could ever be positive for me.
It truly is all I see as positive in this existence of dreadful torturous suffering that I just always saw as a mistake and no matter what I'll just always prefer to not exist than be tortured in this terrible, cruel existence.

Only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from the suffering of this existence so dreadful, I just want non-existence to solve everything for me in this existence I just always saw as an abomination and there's just so much suffering in existing, all I want is some peace from it all, I just hope for no more cruelty and no more suffering and I suffer simply from existing.
 
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