Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

Always so painful to be conscious in this existence.
I truly will always find it so painful to be conscious in this existence and there's just so much pain, torture and cruelty in existing, all I want is to be gone, I just want peace from the terrible cruelty and suffering of existing.

I just want to be permanently unconscious of this existence, to be conscious in this existence is the most painful, dreadful burden to me and I suffer simply from existing, I just hope to be gone, I wish for no more torture and no more suffering and I'll always see the abomination of existence as just being only suffering, I'll always prefer to not exist than suffer.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence truly does just cause harm.
It truly does just cause suffering and harm with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and it's just so terrible how this dreadful, harmful existence was imposed, I'll just always see the existence of life as the most terrible devastating tragedy that just causes all this torture and suffering and I'll just always find it torture to suffer in this existence.

To me existence is just always a mistake and it's one that just harms and tortures existing beings, for me the peace of non-existence is just all that's positive and desirable, nothing would ever make me wish for the torture and cruelty of existing.

 

[Cauliflour]

Tbh this account seems like a bot/automated. No disrespect intended, but the posts in this thread all sound the same and they don't engage with comments.

Who the hell is programming bots for fucking sanctioned suicide!? I can understand on twitter or facebook or ones of those sites cause it gives you attention, but why on sasu? Did they piss off someone irl before they died and this is part of some weird revenge plan cause that's all I can think of.

 

[bl33ding_heart]

Who the hell is programming bots for fucking sanctioned suicide!? I can understand on twitter or facebook or ones of those sites cause it gives you attention, but why on sasu? Did they piss off someone irl before they died and this is part of some weird revenge plan cause that's all I can think of.

It could be to spread some weird kind of agenda lol.

 

[geepeedee]

It could be to spread some weird kind of agenda lol.

like what? all it does is post in here and wish peace in ctb threads.

 

[Cauliflour]

It could be to spread some weird kind of agenda lol.

Hmmm fair point. They are one of the most famous users on this forum after all. In fact, didn't that youtube video from about a year ago, didn't they bring up funeralcry too? I don't remember the specifics as when I watched that video I just laughed at it for a total of 5 minutes while skipping to random parts and then got bored. Does make me wonder how many users from the early days (2018-2020) are still on here though...

 

[bl33ding_heart]

Hmmm fair point. They are one of the most famous users on this forum after all. In fact, didn't that youtube video from about a year ago, didn't they bring up funeralcry too? I don't remember the specifics as when I watched that video I just laughed at it for a total of 5 minutes while skipping to random parts and then got bored. Does make me wonder how many users from the early days (2018-2020) are still on here though...

They said it could be the person that owns the website on an alt. Or some weirdo that wants to indirectly encourage suicide. Not that it's necessarily true at all but still a little uncomfortable to think about.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing to me will always just be waiting to die.
No matter what existing to me will always just be waiting to die and I always suffer so much as a result of waiting for death in this cruel, terrible existence that just causes all this torture and suffering, all I want is to be gone.

I just want this torturous existence to be all gone, forgotten and erased for me with no more pain and no more suffering and I just suffer as a result of being conscious burdened with this torturous, dreadful existence, I just want peace from the pain and torture of existing and for me non-existence is just the only relief from this existence I just always saw as the most terrible, cruel mistake.