Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

This existence never should had been imposed.
It truly never should had been imposed and it's so terrible how it was causing all this harm, cruelty and torture as a result, all I want is peace from this cruel, dreadful existence, existence to me will just always be a mistake and it's one that just causes all this terrible suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured.

I'd just never wish for the torture of this cruel, painful existence rather all I want is some peace and I'll just only be at peace once I'm no longer burdened with this existence that just causes all this harm, pain and suffering, the suffering of existing truly is endless with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I'll just always prefer to not exist than suffer.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only ever seeing non-existence as desirable.
It truly is all I could ever see as desirable, I just want peace from the terrible suffering of existing and I'll just always find it so deeply undesirable to suffer in this dreadful, torturous existence no matter what.

I just hope to be free from the torture of existing, I just hope for no more pain and no more suffering and I suffer simply from being burdened with this existence I just always saw as the most harmful, cruel mistake and there's just so much cruelty in this terrible, dreadful existence, all I want is peace from the torturous burden of existence that just causes all this harm and suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always suffer as a result of being burdened with this existence.
I truly do just always suffer as a result of being burdened with this terrible, torturous existence and I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing, to suffer in this existence is the most terrible, dreadful burden to me.

I'll just always find it so dreadful to exist and there's just so much suffering in existing, I suffer simply from being burdened with this existence, there's just so much suffering in existing and to me this tortuous, cruel existence will just always be only suffering, to me non-existence is just the only peace from the terrible, dreadful suffering and torture of existing, I just want to never suffer again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only non-existence could ever be positive to me.
It truly is all I see as positive and I'd just never wish for the terrible, dreadful suffering of this torturous existence, in this existence so cruel and undesirable non-existence is just the only peace for me.

I'll just only be at peace once I'm no longer burdened with this painful, tortuous existence I just always saw as a mistake causing all this harm, suffering and cruelty and I suffer simply from being burdened with this painful, tortuous existence, I'll just always find it so terrible to exist, for me non-existence is just all I see as positive, I only envy those who no longer suffer in this painful existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Feels like I've suffered for so long.
It truly does feel like I've suffered for so long and I'd just never wish for the suffering and torture of existing, to suffer in this existence is always the most torturous, cruel burden to me and all I want is to be permanently at peace from it.

I just want to be free from the terrible torture of existing, existence truly does just cause harm and suffering and the fact that the option to peacefully and permanently cease existing is so cruelly denied is just horrific extreme cruelty to me, I just always suffer so much as a result of the abomination of existence, to suffer in this torturous, dreadful existence will just always be an punishment to me.