Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

It feels like I've suffered for so long.
It really does feel like I've suffered for so long in this torturous existence and I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence rather all I hope for is the peace of an eternal sleep.

I'll always find it so undesirable to exist and I'd never wish for any of this, I'd just never wish for this existence that causes and brings all this suffering all for the sake of it with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, for me non-existence really is the only relief in this existence where it feels like I've suffered for so long.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much cruelty in existing.
There truly is so much cruelty in existing and I just wish that more than anything I never suffered in this cruel, torturous existence, for me non-existence is just the only peace and relief and is just all I see as desirable in this existence I always saw as a mistake and I always wish I never suffered.

I suffer simply from existing and it's suffering only non-existence can take away for me, I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer and it feels like I've suffered for so long in this cruel, deeply undesirable and torturous existence, for me non-existence really is the only relief from the cruelty of this dreadful existence and I'd prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily no matter what, I just suffer so much as a result of this cruel existence I always saw as a mistake.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always finding it the most terrible tragedy how this existence was imposed.
No matter what I really will always find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence was imposed and I just wish that more than anything I never suffered in this dreadful, torturous existence.

For me non-existence truly is the only relief and is all I could see as desirable, I just want to never suffer ever again but of course I continue to be burdened with this existence I always saw as a mistake, for me non-existence is just the only peace but I wish this existence was never imposed. Never existing would had saved me from so much futile unnecessary suffering in this existence where I'm just waiting to die and I suffer simply from existing, it's just all so cruel to me and I'd never wish for any of this no matter what, I just always find it the most torturous, deeply undesirable burden to exist and it's one that just causes harm and suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

To cease existing is all I could hope for.
It truly is all I could hope for in this existence so cruel, torturous and dreadful I always saw as a mistake and I just suffer so much as a result of existing, it's all so terrible to me and I wish I never suffered more than anything.

Only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for and is just all I hope for, all I want is to never exist again and in this existence where there's all this suffering all for the sake of it only non-existence could ever be desirable to me, I just wish for some peace and for me peace could only ever lie in being unconscious for all eternity, I only hope and wish to never suffer again and there's just so much suffering in this cruel, futile and torturous existence, all I want is to be free from it all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing is always so undesirable to me.
No matter what I'll always find it so undesirable to exist and I just wish I never suffered in this torturous, cruel existence more than anything, for me non-existence really is the only peace and relief from this dreadful, deeply undesirable existence and it just feels like I've suffered for so long in this existence I always saw as a mistake.

I just want to never suffer again, I'll always see it as a burden to exist and it's one only non-existence can bring me peace from, I just hope for no more pain and no more suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of existing, for me non-existence really is the only peace from this deeply undesirable existence, I'd never wish for any of this no matter what rather all I want is to be gone, I just wish for peace from this torturous, futile and deeply undesirable existence I never would had chosen.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence to me could never be worth it.
It truly could never be worth it to me and I wish that more than anything I never suffered in this torturous, futile and deeply undesirable existence, I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer and in this existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering only non-existence could ever be desirable to me.

I just want to never exist again with all finally gone and forgotten in non-existence and I suffer simply from existing, it's just all so cruel and terrible to me and as long as I exist I'll only wish to be gone, I just wish for peace from this torturous, dreadful and deeply undesirable existence I always saw as a mistake, for me only non-existence is desirable and is all I'll hope for no matter what, for me peace could only lie in non-existence where all is finally gone and forgotten, I just want to never exist ever again with this existence no longer my problem.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of suffering.
I truly am always so tired of suffering in this dreadful, torturous existence and I just wish I never suffered more than anything, in this existence so cruel the only peace for me could lie in non-existence where all is finally forgotten, I just hope and wish to never suffer ever again and it feels like I've suffered for so long in this dreadful existence I always saw as a mistake, all I want is to be gone.

I just wish to be free from it all, in this existence so cruel only non-existence can bring me peace and the peace of non-existence is just all I see as desirable, I just want to never suffer again and I'm always so tired of suffering, it's the kind of tiredness only eternal dreamless sleep could ever take away for me and bring me peace from, I just want all to be gone for me in non-existence but of course all the suffering just continues and I'd never wish for the suffering of this torturous, cruel existence, all I wish and hope for is to never suffer in this existence ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is all I've wished for.
It truly is all I've wished for and is all I hope for, all I want is to never suffer in this dreadful, futile and torturous existence ever again and I just suffer so much as a result of existing.

It's all so dreadful and terrible and I wish I never suffered more than anything, all I see as desirable is dreamless, eternal sleep, I just wish to be unconscious for all eternity with all finally gone and forgotten but more than anything I just wish I never suffered, I find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence was even imposed causing all this harm, cruelty and suffering as a result and I just suffer so much as a result of this existence, I just find it so deeply undesirable to exist in every way, I'll always see existence as the problem and it's one only non-existence could ever take away for me and bring me peace from, I just hope for no more pain and no more suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is always so cruel to me.
It really is so cruel to me and I just wish that more than anything I never suffered in this cruel, torturous existence, for me non-existence is just the only peace and is all I see as desirable in this deeply undesirable, painful existence.

All I could hope for is to be gone, only non-existence can bring me peace from this existence so cruel and dreadful I always saw as a mistake causing and bringing all this harm and suffering, to me existence truly is an abomination and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never exist again, only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for and is just all I'll ever see as desirable in this existence so torturous and cruel I just always saw as a mistake causing all this suffering as a result.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always wishing this existence was never imposed.
I really do always wish this existence was never imposed and I'd just never wish to suffer in this dreadful, cruel and futile existence rather all I want is to never suffer again and only non-existence can bring me the peace from suffering I search for.

More than anything I just wish I never suffered in this existence, I'd never wish for this existence that just causes pain, problems and suffering there were never a need for with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, to me existence really is an abomination and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never suffer again, I just want all to be gone and forgotten for me, in this existence so cruel and dreadful only eternal dreamless sleep with no more pain and no more suffering could ever be positive for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'll only be at peace in dreamless, eternal sleep.
I truly will only be at peace in dreamless, eternal sleep and only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from the terrible, torturous abomination of existence where I just hope and wait to be gone.

I'll always see existing as just being waiting to die, it's just suffering all for the sake of it with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I just suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this torturous, futile existence, all I hope for is to be gone, I just hope to never suffer ever again with this existence I always saw as a mistake finally all forgotten, for me non-existence really is all that's desirable and is all I could wish for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always finding it so undesirable to exist.
No matter what I'll always find it so undesirable to exist in every way and I wish I never suffered in this torturous, futile existence more than anything, for me non-existence is just the only peace and relief in this existence that causes so much suffering all for the sake of it and I suffer simply from existing.

It's just all so dreadful and cruel to me and as long as I exist I'll only ever hope to be gone, only non-existence can take away and solve what I see as the true problem which is existence itself and I'll just always find it so undesirable to suffer in this existence, I suffer simply from existing and it's suffering only non-existence can take away for me, I just hope and wish to never exist again and I suffer simply from existing,

 

[FuneralCry]

It feels like I've suffered for so long.
It truly does feel like I've suffered for so long in this cruel, dreadful and torturous existence and I just wish I never suffered more than anything, in this existence so painful, dreadful and undesirable only non-existence can bring me peace and as long as I exist I'll only hope to never suffer again.

I wish for no more suffering and it just feels like I've suffered for so long in this existence I always saw as a mistake, for me non-existence is just the only relief, it's all I hope for and is all I see as desirable in this existence where there's all this endless suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so dreadful to me, for me non-existence really is all that's positive and is just the only relief for me, all I want is some peace, I just hope to never suffer in this dreadful, cruel existence ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is the only peace for me.
It really is the only peace for me and is all that can bring me the relief I search for from this dreadful, torturous existence where I suffer so unnecessarily and there's just so much suffering in existing, all I want is to be gone.

I just want peace from it all but of course all the suffering continues and I just suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this existence, it's suffering only non-existence could ever take away for me, all I want is some peace and peace is all I'll hope for, I always suffer from how I cannot just have a death like never waking again to finally escape from the suffering of existing.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is just all I see as positive.
It truly is all I see as positive and is all I hope for in this dreadful, futile existence where there's all this endless cruelty and suffering, as long as I exist I really will just hope to never suffer again, all I want is for non-existence to finally bring me peace from this existence so cruel and dreadful I always saw as a mistake, all I want is to never suffer again, I'd always prefer to not exist, only non-existence can bring me the relief from suffering I search for and I suffer simply from existing, all I want is peace and I'll only be at peace in non-existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence just causes harm and suffering.
It truly does just cause harm and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I just wish that more than anything I never suffered, I find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence was even imposed causing all this suffering as a result and I suffer simply from existing.

It's all so dreadful to me and I'd never wish to exist rather all I want is to not exist, I just wish for true permanent peace from the mistake of existence that just causes and brings so much harm and suffering with no limit as to how much one can suffer, all I want is to be gone, I just hope and wish to never suffer ever again with this torturous existence all forgotten.

 

[FuneralCry]

Wish to erase this existence.
I really do always wish to erase this existence, I just want it to be like I never suffered in this cruel, torturous and dreadful existence at all but of course all the suffering just continues and I suffer so much as a result of this existence.

I'd just always prefer to not exist no matter what and it feels like I've suffered for so long in this torturous, cruel existence, for me non-existence is just the only relief and is all I see as desirable, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering.

I just want all to be gone for me in the peace of non-existence but of course all the suffering just continues and I'd just never wish to suffer in this dreadful, torturous existence rather all I want is peace and I'll only be at peace once I no longer exist, all I want is to disappear, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so dreadful and cruel to me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of suffering.
I truly am always so tired of suffering and I just wish I never suffered in this cruel, torturous existence more than anything, for me non-existence is just the only relief and is all I see as desirable in this existence so painful and dreadful.

All I hope for is to never exist again, I suffer simply from existing and it's suffering only non-existence could ever take away for me, I really am always so tired of it all and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is true permanent peace.

I wish for no more cruelty and no more suffering and I suffer simply from existing, all I could hope for is to not exist, I wish to never suffer again and I just suffer so much as a result of this existence, it's all so cruel to me and I wish I never existed more than anything, I'll just only be at peace in non-existence where I'm finally free from this existence I'm always so tired of that only ever caused me to suffer and there's just so much suffering in existing, it's all so cruel to me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only hoping to never suffer again.
No matter what all I could hope for is to never suffer again, I just wish for non-existence to bring me peace from the terrible tragic mistake of existence but of course all the suffering continues.

It feels like I've suffered for so long in this dreadful, deeply undesirable and torturous existence that to me is just waiting for death and I'd never wish for any of this, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for but of course I'm still trapped in this existence suffering so unnecessarily just waiting for death and I'll always see existing as just being waiting to die, it's just pain and suffering all for the sake of it with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I just suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this terrible, torturous existence, all I hope and wish for is to be gone, I just want to never suffer again.

 

[FuneralCry]

To cease existing is just all I see as desirable.
It truly is all I see as desirable and all I hope for is to never suffer in this dreadful, torturous existence ever again, I just wish for the peace of non-existence where finally nothing can concern me and all is forgotten.

I'll always find it so undesirable to exist, for me non-existence is just all that's positive and is all I hope for, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of existing, all I want is to be gone, I just hope for no more pain and no more suffering and I'll always see existing as only suffering no matter what, it's just all so dreadful to me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never wanting to exist.
No matter what I really would never want to exist and I just wish I never suffered more than anything, for me non-existence is just the only relief and is all I see as desirable in this existence so torturous and dreadful I always saw as a mistake.

I suffer simply from existing, it's just all so cruel to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is some peace and for me peace could only lie in non-existence where this deeply undesirable, painful existence is finally all gone and forgotten, for me non-existence is just the only relief, all I want is to never suffer again but of course all the suffering just continues and it's all so dreadful to me, for me non-existence really is just the only peace, I'd never wish to exist rather all I want is for non-existence to solve everything for me and finally bring me the peace from suffering I search for.

 

[FuneralCry]

All that existence does is cause suffering.
It truly does bring and cause suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this dreadful, futile existence, all I want is to be gone, I just want to never exist again and it feels like I've suffered for so long.

I just want some peace from the suffering, for me non-existence is just all that's positive and is all I see as desirable in this existence where there's all this endless cruelty and suffering and it feels like I've suffered so much for so long, all I want is to be gone, I wish for no more suffering and I'll always see this futile, torturous and cruel existence as only suffering no matter what.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence just causes so much harm.
Existence really does just cause so much harm and I suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this dreadful, harmful and torturous existence and it's suffering only non-existence could ever bring me peace from.

I just want to never exist again with this harmful, dreadful existence finally all forgotten, all I want is peace and for me peace could only lie in finally being free from all the suffering, all I hope for is dreamless eternal sleep. For me non-existence is just always preferable to being burdened with this existence suffering so unnecessarily just waiting to die and I suffer simply from existing, it's just all so cruel to me and there's just so much cruelty in this torturous, harmful existence I never would had chosen.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is all I could see as positive.
It truly is all I could ever see as positive and is all I could hope for in this existence so dreadful and torturous, all I want is to never exist again with this torturous existence finally all forgotten.

Only non-existence can solve everything for me and is just all I see as desirable in this existence that just causes and brings all this futile suffering all for the sake of it and I suffer simply from existing, it's just all so dreadful to me and I wish I never suffered more than anything.

In this existence so cruel where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel only non-existence can bring me peace, it's all I see as positive, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this torturous, cruel existence, all I want is to never wake ever again, I wish for all to be gone for me but of course all the suffering continues, it's all so dreadful.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never wishing to suffer.
No matter what I'd just never wish to suffer in this torturous, dreadful existence and I just wish I never had to suffer and I'll always see existing as only suffering no matter what, it's all so cruel and terrible to me and I wish I never existed more than anything.

I find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence was imposed causing and bringing all this harm and suffering as a result and I suffer simply from existing, it's just all so cruel and terrible to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather I just want to not exist. Only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me the peace I search for from this existence so futile I always saw as a mistake and I'll always see existing as only suffering, it's suffering I'd never wish for that only eternal dreamless sleep could ever bring me relief from, I just hope and wish for this deeply undesirable, cruel and futile existence to be finally no longer my problem.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is just the only peace for me.
In this existence so cruel and dreadful non-existence is just the only peace for me and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily in this futile existence and there's just so much suffering and so much cruelty in existing.

It's just all so dreadful and all I want is to be free from it all, I just want to never exist again and it feels like I've suffered so much for so long, it's suffering only non-existence can take away for me, all I want is to be gone.

I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I suffer so much as a result of existing, for me non-existence truly is the only relief in this existence so torturous I always saw as a mistake, I just wish to never suffer ever again, all I want is some peace and I'll only be at peace once I'm no longer burdened with this futile existence I never would had chosen.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always wishing for painless death.
I truly do always wish for painless death and it's all I see as desirable in this existence so torturous and dreadful, all I want is to be gone from it all, I just want to never exist again with this dreadful existence all forgotten about.

I always suffer so much from how I cannot just have the option to peacefully cease existing to finally escape from the abomination of existence, all I hope for is peace and for me peace could only lie in never suffering again.

I just suffer so much as a result of existing, I suffer so much from being so cruelly denied the option to cease existing painlessly as all I want is no more suffering, I just want to never suffer again and there's just so much suffering in this dreadful, futile existence I just never would had chosen that only ever caused and brought so much pain, all I want is to be gone, I wish for no more suffering and I'll always see this torturous existence as only suffering no matter what.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence just causes suffering all for the sake of it.
It truly does just cause suffering all for the sake of it with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I wish that more than anything I never suffered in this torturous, cruel existence I always saw as a mistake.

For me non-existence really is the only peace and relief and is all I see as desirable in this existence where there's all this futile unnecessary suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, all I hope for is to be gone, I just wish to never suffer again and there's just so much pain, suffering and cruelty in existing and it's suffering only non-existence can bring me peace from. It really is just so dreadful to me and I wish that more than anything I never suffered in this dreadful, painful existence and I'll just always see existing as only suffering, it's all so cruel to me and it's suffering only non-existence can bring me relief from, all I see as desirable is the peace of non-existence and I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence always feels like a mistake to me.
It really does always feel like a mistake to me and I wish that more than anything I never suffered in this dreadful, cruel and torturous existence I never would had chosen that only ever caused me to suffer and there's just so much suffering in this futile, deeply undesirable existence, all I want is to be free from it all.

I just wish for non-existence to bring me the peace I search for from the terrible tragic mistake of existence that just causes harm and suffering torturing existing beings as a result and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so terrible to me and I wish I never suffered more than anything, only non-existence can bring me the relief from suffering I search for and I'll always see this dreadful, torturous existence as only suffering. It's suffering only non-existence can bring me peace from and as long as I exist I'll only wish to never suffer again, I wish for non-existence to solve everything for me in this dreadful, futile existence I always saw as a mistake that I never would had chosen that only caused me to suffer.

 

[EmptyBottle]

I wish for non-existence to solve everything for me in this dreadful, futile existence I always saw as a mistake that I never would had chosen that only caused me to suffer.

If I may ask, what do you wish to have solved?