Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

It feels like I've suffered for so long.
It really does feel like I've suffered for so long in this torturous existence and I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence rather all I hope for is the peace of an eternal sleep.

I'll always find it so undesirable to exist and I'd never wish for any of this, I'd just never wish for this existence that causes and brings all this suffering all for the sake of it with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, for me non-existence really is the only relief in this existence where it feels like I've suffered for so long.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much cruelty in existing.
There truly is so much cruelty in existing and I just wish that more than anything I never suffered in this cruel, torturous existence, for me non-existence is just the only peace and relief and is just all I see as desirable in this existence I always saw as a mistake and I always wish I never suffered.

I suffer simply from existing and it's suffering only non-existence can take away for me, I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer and it feels like I've suffered for so long in this cruel, deeply undesirable and torturous existence, for me non-existence really is the only relief from the cruelty of this dreadful existence and I'd prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily no matter what, I just suffer so much as a result of this cruel existence I always saw as a mistake.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always finding it the most terrible tragedy how this existence was imposed.
No matter what I really will always find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence was imposed and I just wish that more than anything I never suffered in this dreadful, torturous existence.

For me non-existence truly is the only relief and is all I could see as desirable, I just want to never suffer ever again but of course I continue to be burdened with this existence I always saw as a mistake, for me non-existence is just the only peace but I wish this existence was never imposed. Never existing would had saved me from so much futile unnecessary suffering in this existence where I'm just waiting to die and I suffer simply from existing, it's just all so cruel to me and I'd never wish for any of this no matter what, I just always find it the most torturous, deeply undesirable burden to exist and it's one that just causes harm and suffering.