Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

Always preferring to not exist.
No matter what I really would always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily in this cruel, torturous existence and I'll just always see existing as waiting for death, I wish I never suffered and I'll always see it as so dreadful and terrible to suffer in this existence I always saw as a mistake.

Existence to me really is just an imposition that just causes and brings so much suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily and I find it so dreadful and terrible how a human can suffer for so long just to be tortured by old age and to me existing really is only suffering, I always suffer so much as a result of this existence and I just wish I was never burdened with this existence, nothing would ever make me wish for the burden of existence rather all I hope for is non-existence, only non-existence can solve everything for me and take away what I see as the true problem which is existence itself as if I'm gone I cannot suffer. There is no suffering in eternal sleep and I'd never wish to suffer at all rather I just want to not exist, I'll always find it so undesirable to be burdened with this existence suffering so unnecessarily just waiting to die anyway and I always suffer as result of existing, it really is just all so dreadful to me and I'd never wish to exist at all rather I only hope for eternal nothingness and as long as I exist I'll only hope for no more pain and no more suffering, I just want to never exist again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence for me was never worth it.
It truly was never worth it for me and I just wish I never suffered in this cruel, torturous existence more than anything, I'd just never wish for the suffering and cruelty of this futile, deeply undesirable existence I always saw as a mistake rather I only hope for non-existence where there is no more pain and no more suffering and I always suffer so much as a result of existing.

It truly is all so terrible and dreadful to me and I'd never wish for any of this, existence for me could never be worth it rather all I want is no more suffering and I always suffer so much as result of existing, I'd never wish for the pain and suffering of existing, as long as I exist I really will just hope to be gone but of course I continue to suffer in this existence I always saw as such a dreadful mistake and I'll just always find it so dreadful to suffer so unnecessarily in this existence. For me existence really is the problem which is why I'll only hope to be gone no matter what, I just want to never suffer ever again, in this existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it all I could hope for is to never wake ever again which is why I suffer so much from how I cannot just have a death like never waking ever again to escape from this torturous existence I just never would had chosen and would never wish for no matter what, I just want all to be forgotten for me with no more suffering in non-existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always having so much dread for what lies ahead.
As long as I exist I really will always have so much dread for what lies ahead and I'll just always find it so dreadful to suffer in this cruel, torturous existence just waiting to die anyway.

For me non-existence really is the only peace and relief from this dreadful existence I always saw as a mistake and I'll just always and only hope to not exist no matter what, I just see it as so dreadful to be conscious burdened with this existence capable of suffering to unlimited extents. To me existing really is only suffering with no limit as to how unbearable it can all get, it's all just so dreadful to me and I wish I never existed more than anything, I always find it the most terrible, dreadful tragedy how this existence was even imposed causing all this harm and suffering as a result and I always wish I never suffered more than anything, nothing would ever make me wish for any of this suffering rather all I want is peace. I just want to rest, I just want to never wake ever again with all finally forgotten for me and I just always suffer so much as a result of this existence, I find it terrifying how a human can suffer for so long just to be tortured in agony from old age and there's just so much suffering and so much cruelty in existing, I really would never wish for any of this rather I just want some peace, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I'll always find it so painful to be conscious suffering so unnecessarily just waiting to die anyway.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'd just never wish to be conscious of anything at all.
I really would just never wish to be conscious of anything at all and I wish I never suffered more than anything and I'd never wish for the torturous and futile imposition rather I just want to not exist.

I just want to never suffer ever again with all finally forgotten for me and I always suffer so much as a result of this cruel existence and there's just so much cruelty and so much suffering in existing, it truly is all so terrible to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather I just want to never wake, in this existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering only non-existence can bring me any peace and is all I see as desirable.

I just never should have suffered at all and I just suffer so much as a result of this existence, I always just hope and wish for non-existence, I find it so torturous to exist, to me existence really does feel like the most cruel, tragic mistake and there's just so much suffering in existing, I suffer so much as result of this existence and it's suffering only non-existence can take away for me. Existence to me really is an abomination that just causes pain, problems and suffering all for the sake of it and I always just wish I never suffered more than anything, I just never should had been burdened with this existence and I'll always see it as such a terrible, cruel burden to suffer in this existence just waiting to die and to me existing really is just waiting for death, I'll always find it so undesirable to exist.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much cruelty and suffering in existing.
There truly is so much cruelty and suffering in existing and I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, I just wish for an eternal sleep free from all harm and suffering where finally all is forgotten and I can rest and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer in this existence I always saw as the most terrible mistake and there's just so much suffering and so much cruelty in existing.

It's all so dreadful, terrible and painful to me and as long as I exist I'll only hope to be permanently free from it all, I just wish for an eternal sleep free from all suffering and I always suffer so much from existing, I'll just always see it as an abomination to be conscious in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited extents and to me existing really will always be only suffering, I just always suffer and it's suffering only non-existence could ever bring me relief from. I just wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I'll always find it so painful to be burdened with this existence of suffering all for the sake of it just waiting to die anyway, to me existing will always be only suffering, as long as I exist I really will just want to never exist ever again,I just hope for all to be gone for me but of course I continue to suffer and it's all so dreadful to me, I'd never wish to suffer in this existence and there's just so much cruelty and so much suffering in existing.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is just so harmful.
Existence really is just something so harmful and I'll just always find it so harmful to be burdened with this cruel, torturous existence of suffering all for the sake of it just waiting to die and I'll just always see existing as waiting for death, more than anything I wish I was never burdened with this harmful existence of unnecessary suffering and I always suffer so much as a result of existing, it's all just so terrible to me.

I just wish I never had to suffer, it's just so terrible and dreadful to me how existence causes all this harm and suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel and I just never should had suffered, for me existence really is the problem and it's one only the peace of non-existence can take away and solve for me as after all there are no disadvantages to being gone, there is no suffering in non-existence where all is finally forgotten and I'd just always prefer to not exist. Only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for from this existence I just never would had chosen and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily, as long as I exist I'll only wish for non-existence to bring me the peace I search for from this harmful existence of suffering all for the sake of it and I'll just always see it as so harmful to exist, for me existence really is the problem, I'll just always see it as so terrible and dreadful to suffer in this existence just waiting to not exist anyway and to me existing really is only suffering, the suffering this existence causes really is endless.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'll just only be at peace once I no longer exist.
For me non-existence really is the only peace and is just all I see as desirable in this torturous existence of suffering all for the sake of it, I just only see non-existence as positive and it's the only relief for me, I suffer simply from existing and it's suffering only non-existence can take away for me.

All I want is to never wake ever again but of course all the pain and suffering just continues and it's all so terrible to me, more than anything I just wish I was never burdened with this existence and I'll just always see it as a burden to exist, it's one only non-existence can bring me peace from and as long as I exist I'll only hope to never suffer ever again, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I'll always find it so painful to exist. I really do always suffer from how I cannot just choose to never wake ever again to finally escape and find peace from this existence of suffering all for the sake of it and I just always suffer so much in this existence, I'd never wish for any of this rather I just want to not exist, only non-existence can solve everything for me and finally bring me the relief I search for from this existence where I suffer so unnecessarily and to me existing really is only suffering. It's suffering only non-existence can bring me any peace from, I just wish for no more pain and I'll always find it so painful to suffer in this cruel existence just hoping and waiting to cease existing anyway.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired.
I really am always so tired of it all and it's tiredness only non-existence can bring me peace from, I'd just always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this existence I always saw as a mistake and I'll always find it the most torturous burden to exist, for me non-existence really is all that's desirable and is the only relief. I just wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I'll always find it so painful to be conscious in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited extents and I just suffer so much as result of existing, I'd just always prefer to sleep permanently but of course I wish I never suffered more than anything, to suffer in this existence really is all so dreadful and terrible to me and as long as I exist I'll only wish to never wake.

Non-existence really is all that can bring me any peace from this existence I'm always so tired of and it's tiredness only eternal sleep can take away for me, I just wish for no more pain and I'll always find it so painful to exist, only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me the relief I search for from this existence where I'm just waiting to die and to me existing really is only suffering. I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence rather all I want is to not exist, I just want to never suffer ever again but of course all the suffering just continues and it's all so terrible and dreadful to me, I suffer as a result of existing and I'd never wish for any of this suffering no matter what rather all I want is to not exist.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always finding it so dreadful to exist.
I really will always find it so dreadful to exist and to me existing really is just only suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, it's all so cruel and terrible to me and I just wish I was never burdened with this existence of suffering all for the sake of it I always saw as a mistake more than anything.

For me existence really is the problem and it's one only non-existence can solve and take away for me, I just wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I always suffer so much as result of existing, I'll just always see existence as the problem and it's one only non-existence can bring me peace from, I just want to never suffer ever again but of course all the suffering of this torturous existence just continues and I'll always find it so torturous to be burdened with this existence suffering so unnecessarily, existence really is a problem only non-existence can solve and take away for me. All I want is to never suffer ever again and there's just so much pain and so much suffering in existing, to me existing really is only suffering with no limit as to how unbearable it can all get and I just wish I was never forced to suffer more than anything, I never should had been burdened with this cruel, deeply undesirable existence of suffering all for the sake of it I just never would had chosen and would just never wish for, existence to me really is only suffering and I suffer so much as a result of this dreadful existence and I'll just always find it so dreadful to be burdened with this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always suffer from how peaceful death is denied.
I truly do always suffer from how peaceful death is so cruelly denied for me and I just wish I never suffered in this torturous existence more than anything, I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing rather all I want is to not exist, only non-existence is desirable for me which is why I always suffer from how peaceful death is so harmfully denied for me and I just wish I never had to exist, for me existence really is the problem and it's one only eternal dreamless sleep can solve and take away for me as if I'm gone I cannot suffer, there is no suffering in non-existence.

I always suffer simply from existing, I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never wake ever again, there's just so much suffering in how peaceful, guaranteed death is denied with the suffering and torture of human existence seen as to force and prolong no matter what. I really do always suffer from how I cannot just choose to never wake ever again and I'll just always see existing as only suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, it's all so dreadful to me and as long as I exist I'll only hope and wish for no more suffering, I just always suffer so much as result of this existence and I'd never wish for any of this rather I just want to not exist, only the peace of non-existence can take away all my suffering and solve everything for me, all I want is to never exist ever again where finally I can be at peace with all gone for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

To cease existing is all I've hoped for.
It truly is all I've hoped for and as long as I exist I'll only wish for peace from all the suffering and cruelty in this torturous existence I always saw as a mistake and more than anything I just wish I never suffered, I'd always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this existence just waiting to not exist anyway and I'll always find it so deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence no matter what, existence is a problem only non-existence can solve and take away for me as after all there is no suffering in the peace of an eternal sleep.

I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily just waiting to not exist anyway, non-existence really is the only relief for me in this existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering and I always suffer so much as result of this existence, no matter what I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never wake, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I always suffer so much as result of this torturous existence. I just find it terrifying how a human can suffer for so long in this existence I always saw as a mistake and for me existence really is the most terrible, dreadful tragedy, there's just so much cruelty in existing which is why I always wish I never suffered, I'd just never wish for any of this, to me existence really is just an unnecessary harm that causes and brings so much suffering until all is gone in non-existence anyway and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer in this existence I just never would had chosen and would never wish for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence to me is always an abomination.
No matter what I really will always see existence as the most cruel, torturous abomination that just causes harm and suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway and it's all just so cruel and dreadful to me, I'll just always see non-existence as preferable and as long as I exist I'll only hope to not exist.

Only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from the abomination of existence, only non-existence could ever solve and take away what I see as the true problem which is existence itself as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer, I really will always see existence as an abomination and I suffer just from existing, I'll just always see it as so dreadful to be conscious in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited extents and the suffering of existing really is endless. It's all so dreadful to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never exist ever again, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for and I always suffer just from being burdened with this existence. I'd just never wish for the burden of existence rather I just want to not exist, I just want to never suffer ever again, all I hope for is no more pain and no more suffering and I'll just always find it so painful to exist suffering all for the sake of it and I suffer simply from existing, I really would just never wish for any of this rather I just want to not exist, for me only eternal non-existence could ever be desirable, I just wish and hope for no more suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always seeing existing as only suffering.
No matter what I really will always see existing as only suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel and the suffering of existing is endless, it's all just so dreadful to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather I just want to not exist, all I see as desirable is the peace of an eternal sleep where all is finally gone and forgotten and I can rest and to me existing really is only suffering.

I suffer simply from existing and it's suffering only non-existence could ever take away for me, I always see existence as the most cruel, torturous burden and it's a burden only ceasing to exist can bring me relief from, I just want to never suffer ever again with this existence finally no longer my problem but of course all the suffering just continues and it's all so terrible to me. I'd just always prefer to not exist and I'd never wish for this deeply undesirable existence of suffering all for the sake of it rather I just want to never wake, only non-existence can bring me the peace and relief I search for from this cruel existence where I'm just waiting to cease existing anyway and there's just so much suffering and so much cruelty in existing, it's all so dreadful to me and I always wish I never had to suffer, I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, only non-existence can solve and take away what I see as the true problem which is existence itself and I'll just always find it the most torturous, futile burden to exist.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only hope for peace.
No matter what all I could hope for is peace, I just wish for the peace of an eternal sleep where this cruel, futile existence is finally no longer my problem and nothing can concern me, I just want to never suffer ever again but of course all the suffering just continues and it always feels like I've suffered for so long in this existence I always saw as a mistake, for me non-existence really is all that's desirable and positive.

I suffer simply from existing and it's suffering only non-existence can bring me relief from as if I'm gone I cannot suffer, I just hope for the peace of non-existence but of course all the pain and suffering just continues and it's all so terrible to me, I just wish I never suffered more than anything and I always suffer so much as result of this cruel, torturous existence, I'll always see existence as the problem and it's one only non-existence can bring me relief from. I just want all to be gone for me with no more pain and no more suffering and I always suffer as result of this existence, I always wish to just never wake ever again but of course I still suffer, only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for from this torturous existence and I always wish I never suffered more than anything, I just wish this existence was never imposed at all and I always suffer as result of this existence I just never would had chosen and would never wish for, I just hope and wish to never exist ever again, I just want all to be forgotten for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only non-existence can solve everything for me.
Non-existence really is all that can solve everything for me and bring me the relief I search for from this cruel, torturous existence where I'm just hoping and waiting to not exist anyway and I'd just never wish for this existence of unnecessary suffering rather all I want is to not exist.

I just want to never suffer ever again, I'll just always find it so dreadful and terrible to be conscious in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited extents just waiting to not exist anyway, only non-existence can solve everything for me as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer, there is no suffering in eternal sleep where all is forgotten and finally nothing can concern me, I just wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I'll always find it so painful to be burdened with this existence suffering all for the sake of it and I'll always see existing as only suffering with no limit as to how unbearable it can all get. It's just all so cruel to me and there's just so much cruelty in existing, all I hope is for non-existence to take away all for me and finally bring me the relief I search for and I suffer simply from existing, as long as I exist I'll just hope and wish to never wake, I'd never wish for this cruel, deeply undesirable existence where I just hope and wait to not exist anyway and to me existing really will always be waiting to die, I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is peace, I only hope for non-existence where finally all is gone.