Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

Always preferring to not exist.
No matter what I really would always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily in this cruel, torturous existence and I'll just always see existing as waiting for death, I wish I never suffered and I'll always see it as so dreadful and terrible to suffer in this existence I always saw as a mistake.

Existence to me really is just an imposition that just causes and brings so much suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily and I find it so dreadful and terrible how a human can suffer for so long just to be tortured by old age and to me existing really is only suffering, I always suffer so much as a result of this existence and I just wish I was never burdened with this existence, nothing would ever make me wish for the burden of existence rather all I hope for is non-existence, only non-existence can solve everything for me and take away what I see as the true problem which is existence itself as if I'm gone I cannot suffer. There is no suffering in eternal sleep and I'd never wish to suffer at all rather I just want to not exist, I'll always find it so undesirable to be burdened with this existence suffering so unnecessarily just waiting to die anyway and I always suffer as result of existing, it really is just all so dreadful to me and I'd never wish to exist at all rather I only hope for eternal nothingness and as long as I exist I'll only hope for no more pain and no more suffering, I just want to never exist again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence for me was never worth it.
It truly was never worth it for me and I just wish I never suffered in this cruel, torturous existence more than anything, I'd just never wish for the suffering and cruelty of this futile, deeply undesirable existence I always saw as a mistake rather I only hope for non-existence where there is no more pain and no more suffering and I always suffer so much as a result of existing.

It truly is all so terrible and dreadful to me and I'd never wish for any of this, existence for me could never be worth it rather all I want is no more suffering and I always suffer so much as result of existing, I'd never wish for the pain and suffering of existing, as long as I exist I really will just hope to be gone but of course I continue to suffer in this existence I always saw as such a dreadful mistake and I'll just always find it so dreadful to suffer so unnecessarily in this existence. For me existence really is the problem which is why I'll only hope to be gone no matter what, I just want to never suffer ever again, in this existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it all I could hope for is to never wake ever again which is why I suffer so much from how I cannot just have a death like never waking ever again to escape from this torturous existence I just never would had chosen and would never wish for no matter what, I just want all to be forgotten for me with no more suffering in non-existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always having so much dread for what lies ahead.
As long as I exist I really will always have so much dread for what lies ahead and I'll just always find it so dreadful to suffer in this cruel, torturous existence just waiting to die anyway.

For me non-existence really is the only peace and relief from this dreadful existence I always saw as a mistake and I'll just always and only hope to not exist no matter what, I just see it as so dreadful to be conscious burdened with this existence capable of suffering to unlimited extents. To me existing really is only suffering with no limit as to how unbearable it can all get, it's all just so dreadful to me and I wish I never existed more than anything, I always find it the most terrible, dreadful tragedy how this existence was even imposed causing all this harm and suffering as a result and I always wish I never suffered more than anything, nothing would ever make me wish for any of this suffering rather all I want is peace. I just want to rest, I just want to never wake ever again with all finally forgotten for me and I just always suffer so much as a result of this existence, I find it terrifying how a human can suffer for so long just to be tortured in agony from old age and there's just so much suffering and so much cruelty in existing, I really would never wish for any of this rather I just want some peace, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I'll always find it so painful to be conscious suffering so unnecessarily just waiting to die anyway.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'd just never wish to be conscious of anything at all.
I really would just never wish to be conscious of anything at all and I wish I never suffered more than anything and I'd never wish for the torturous and futile imposition rather I just want to not exist.

I just want to never suffer ever again with all finally forgotten for me and I always suffer so much as a result of this cruel existence and there's just so much cruelty and so much suffering in existing, it truly is all so terrible to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather I just want to never wake, in this existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering only non-existence can bring me any peace and is all I see as desirable.

I just never should have suffered at all and I just suffer so much as a result of this existence, I always just hope and wish for non-existence, I find it so torturous to exist, to me existence really does feel like the most cruel, tragic mistake and there's just so much suffering in existing, I suffer so much as result of this existence and it's suffering only non-existence can take away for me. Existence to me really is an abomination that just causes pain, problems and suffering all for the sake of it and I always just wish I never suffered more than anything, I just never should had been burdened with this existence and I'll always see it as such a terrible, cruel burden to suffer in this existence just waiting to die and to me existing really is just waiting for death, I'll always find it so undesirable to exist.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much cruelty and suffering in existing.
There truly is so much cruelty and suffering in existing and I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, I just wish for an eternal sleep free from all harm and suffering where finally all is forgotten and I can rest and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer in this existence I always saw as the most terrible mistake and there's just so much suffering and so much cruelty in existing.

It's all so dreadful, terrible and painful to me and as long as I exist I'll only hope to be permanently free from it all, I just wish for an eternal sleep free from all suffering and I always suffer so much from existing, I'll just always see it as an abomination to be conscious in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited extents and to me existing really will always be only suffering, I just always suffer and it's suffering only non-existence could ever bring me relief from. I just wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I'll always find it so painful to be burdened with this existence of suffering all for the sake of it just waiting to die anyway, to me existing will always be only suffering, as long as I exist I really will just want to never exist ever again,I just hope for all to be gone for me but of course I continue to suffer and it's all so dreadful to me, I'd never wish to suffer in this existence and there's just so much cruelty and so much suffering in existing.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is just so harmful.
Existence really is just something so harmful and I'll just always find it so harmful to be burdened with this cruel, torturous existence of suffering all for the sake of it just waiting to die and I'll just always see existing as waiting for death, more than anything I wish I was never burdened with this harmful existence of unnecessary suffering and I always suffer so much as a result of existing, it's all just so terrible to me.

I just wish I never had to suffer, it's just so terrible and dreadful to me how existence causes all this harm and suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel and I just never should had suffered, for me existence really is the problem and it's one only the peace of non-existence can take away and solve for me as after all there are no disadvantages to being gone, there is no suffering in non-existence where all is finally forgotten and I'd just always prefer to not exist. Only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for from this existence I just never would had chosen and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily, as long as I exist I'll only wish for non-existence to bring me the peace I search for from this harmful existence of suffering all for the sake of it and I'll just always see it as so harmful to exist, for me existence really is the problem, I'll just always see it as so terrible and dreadful to suffer in this existence just waiting to not exist anyway and to me existing really is only suffering, the suffering this existence causes really is endless.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'll just only be at peace once I no longer exist.
For me non-existence really is the only peace and is just all I see as desirable in this torturous existence of suffering all for the sake of it, I just only see non-existence as positive and it's the only relief for me, I suffer simply from existing and it's suffering only non-existence can take away for me.

All I want is to never wake ever again but of course all the pain and suffering just continues and it's all so terrible to me, more than anything I just wish I was never burdened with this existence and I'll just always see it as a burden to exist, it's one only non-existence can bring me peace from and as long as I exist I'll only hope to never suffer ever again, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I'll always find it so painful to exist. I really do always suffer from how I cannot just choose to never wake ever again to finally escape and find peace from this existence of suffering all for the sake of it and I just always suffer so much in this existence, I'd never wish for any of this rather I just want to not exist, only non-existence can solve everything for me and finally bring me the relief I search for from this existence where I suffer so unnecessarily and to me existing really is only suffering. It's suffering only non-existence can bring me any peace from, I just wish for no more pain and I'll always find it so painful to suffer in this cruel existence just hoping and waiting to cease existing anyway.