Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

It feels like I've suffered for so long.
It truly does feel like I've suffered for so long in this cruel existence I just never would had wished for and never would had chosen and I'd just never wish for any of this rather I just want to not exist.

I'll always see existing as only suffering and I suffer just from being conscious in this torturous existence I always saw as the most dreadful, terrible mistake, for me existence truly is the problem and it's one only eternal nothingness can solve and take away for me as if I don't exist I cannot suffer, there is no suffering in permanent non-existence and I really would just never wish for the suffering of existing rather all I hope for is some peace, I just want to sleep and for me eternal sleep really is the only peace, it's all I see as desirable and as long as I exist I'll just wish to never suffer ever again. I wish for this painful, dreadful existence to be all gone for me but of course all the suffering just continues with me just hoping to not exist, for me non-existence really is the only relief and is all I see as desirable, I wish for no more suffering and I suffer simply from existing, for me non-existence where all is finally gone really is all that's positive, I just want this existence to finally be no longer my problem but of course I'm still trapped in this existence I never would had chosen, I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, for me non-existence really is the only peace and is all I hope for.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'll only be at peace once I no longer exist.
I truly will only be at peace once I no longer exist and the peace of non-existence really is all I could hope and wish for, I'll just always see it as so deeply undesirable to exist and I'd just never wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing rather all I hope for is nothingness.

I just wish for an eternal sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where there is no more pain and all is finally forgotten and I'll just always find it so painful and dreadful to be burdened with this existence of suffering all for the sake of it just waiting to not exist anyway and for me non-existence really is the only relief, it's all I hope for and is all I could see as desirable, as long as I exist I really will just wish for some peace, I just want to never exist ever again but of course all the suffering of existing just continues, it really is all so dreadful to me and I just wish I never existed more than anything. I'll just always see existence as the most harmful, futile imposition that just causes and brings all this pain and suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway and there's just so much suffering in existing, it's all so terrible to me, I'll just always see existence as the problem, to me existence truly is the most dreadful tragedy and I just wish this existence was never imposed, I just never should had suffered at all and I'll always see existing as only suffering with no limit as to how unbearable it can all get, it's just so cruel to me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of suffering.
I truly am always so tired of suffering in this cruel, torturous existence and it's tiredness only eternal sleep could ever take away for me and bring me relief from as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer, there is no suffering in the peace of eternal non-existence where all is finally forgotten and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer in this existence I always saw as the most terrible mistake. For me eternal sleep really is the only relief and is all I see as desirable, I just wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I suffer simply from being conscious in this existence I never would had chosen and would just never wish for, I'll just always see existing as only suffering and it's suffering only non-existence could take away for me.

I just want to never exist ever again but of course all the suffering of existing just continues and it's all so dreadful to me, I just wish that more than anything I was never burdened with this existence and I'll just always see it as a burden to exist, it's a burden so terrible and harmful that just brings all this pain and suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway and for me non-existence really is the only relief. I'll just always find it so deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence just waiting to not exist anyway and I'll just always see existing as waiting for death, I suffer simply from existing and it's suffering I'm always so tired of, I just wish I never had to suffer more than anything, I really would never wish for any of this.

 

[FuneralCry]

To suffer in this existence is always so terrible to me.
No matter what I'll just always see it as so terrible to suffer so unnecessarily in this existence and as long as I exist I'll only wish to be gone, I just wish for an eternal sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where nothing can concern me and all is finally forgotten, I just always see it as so terrible to be conscious in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited extents and I'd just never wish to exist at all rather I only hope for non-existence, I'd just rather prevent suffering through ceasing to exist than prolong it just to suffer way more and there's just so much cruelty and so much suffering in existing, it's all just so dreadful to me and I wish I never suffered more than anything.

I just never should had been burdened with this existence I always saw as the most cruel mistake and there's just so much cruelty and so much suffering in existing, it's all just so dreadful to me and I just wish I never had to suffer more than anything, to me existence really is the problem and I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist. Only non-existence can solve everything for me and take away what I see as the true problem which is existence itself, I'll just always find it so terrible to exist and simply just existing is enough to make me wish for death, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I'll just always find it so painful and dreadful to suffer so unnecessarily in this existence I never would had wished for and never would had chosen.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much pain in existing.
There truly is just so much pain in existing and it's all so dreadful to me, more than anything I just wish I was never forced to suffer, I just never should had been burdened with this existence of cruelty and unnecessary suffering I just always saw as the most terrible mistake and there's just so much suffering and so much cruelty in existing. I really never should had suffered at all in this torturous existence I'd never wish for but of course the suffering just continues with me just hoping to be gone and as long as I exist I'll only hope for non-existence where all is forgotten and finally I can be at peace.

I just want to never wake ever again and I always suffer just from being conscious in this painful existence where I hope and wait for death anyway and I'll just always find it so terrible to exist, to me existence really is the most harmful dreadful tragedy and it's one only non-existence can bring me relief from. I just want to never exist ever again but of course all the suffering and cruelty of existing just continues, it really is all so dreadful to me and more than anything I just wish I never had to suffer, I never should had been burdened with this existence I always saw as such a terrible mistake and there's just so much suffering in existing, I just want peace from it all, I just want to never exist ever again but of course all the pain just continues and I find it so painful to suffer in this existence just wishing to never wake, for me non-existence really is the only relief.