
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 42,366
Feels like I've suffered for so long.
It truly does feel like I've suffered for so long in this existence I never would had wished for and I'd just never wish for the suffering and cruelty of this futile and torturous existence, I just wish that more than anything I was never burdened with this existence but of course the suffering just continues and it feels like I've suffered for so long, I'd just never wish for this existence I always saw as the most terrible mistake rather I only hope for peace and I'll just only be at peace once I'm no longer burdened with this existence.
To me existence really is the problem and I suffer just from being burdened with this existence where I'm just hoping and waiting to not exist and to me existing really is just waiting to not exist, it's just futile unnecessary suffering there was never a need for and I suffer simply from existing, it's suffering only non-existence can take away for me and bring me relief from, I'm just always so tired of suffering and I'd just never wish for the suffering of this painful, dreadful and torturous existence rather all I want is to not exist. For me non-existence truly is the only peace and relief and is all I hope for, I just want all to be gone and forgotten for me and I'd just personally prefer to prevent suffering through ceasing to exist than prolong it just to suffer way more unbearably and there's just so much suffering and so much cruelty in existing, it's all just so dreadful to me and I wish I never had to suffer more than anything, I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist.
It truly does feel like I've suffered for so long in this existence I never would had wished for and I'd just never wish for the suffering and cruelty of this futile and torturous existence, I just wish that more than anything I was never burdened with this existence but of course the suffering just continues and it feels like I've suffered for so long, I'd just never wish for this existence I always saw as the most terrible mistake rather I only hope for peace and I'll just only be at peace once I'm no longer burdened with this existence.
To me existence really is the problem and I suffer just from being burdened with this existence where I'm just hoping and waiting to not exist and to me existing really is just waiting to not exist, it's just futile unnecessary suffering there was never a need for and I suffer simply from existing, it's suffering only non-existence can take away for me and bring me relief from, I'm just always so tired of suffering and I'd just never wish for the suffering of this painful, dreadful and torturous existence rather all I want is to not exist. For me non-existence truly is the only peace and relief and is all I hope for, I just want all to be gone and forgotten for me and I'd just personally prefer to prevent suffering through ceasing to exist than prolong it just to suffer way more unbearably and there's just so much suffering and so much cruelty in existing, it's all just so dreadful to me and I wish I never had to suffer more than anything, I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist.