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willyoucrywhenIdie

willyoucrywhenIdie

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Aug 12, 2025
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Fuck lies. Fuck bullshit. Fuck pretending. Fuck putting up an act. Let's be real if it was so good, we wouldn't have to try to maintain that. It would be just good on its own. Fuck yeah mornings suck. Fuck yeah most of us hate even waking up at all. Man we're counting down the hours just to find peace. This world is crazy though. Filled with all sorts of bullshit. Disease, poverty, infidelity, betrayal and loss. And before you come at me with that "you're only focusing on the bad stuff" shit let me cut that BS short right now, I ain't. I recognize things can be enjoyable. I get it. Drugs. Sex. Watching a favorite show. Listening to some good music. But you gotta realize the bad shit outweighs the good shit and basically ruins the entire game for everybody before they even play.

Most relationships fail. Most marriages end in divorce or suicide. Most friendships never last till the end. Everything eventually becomes a memory. I know that's just life and that's my point. What I'm tryna say is I don't care to get up or pretend that I will ever be the 0.00001% percent that makes it. And I'm surely not spending my waking existence tearing myself apart attempting the impossible. Nah. Cuz the good things aren't for most of us. Out of reach and unrealistic. Most of us will grind for some low paying or mid paying job and count the days until every weekend then retirement. Then wonder when the fuck were gonna not wake up at all. Maaaan what a circle jerk
 
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ManchildLoser

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Jan 16, 2023
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Based
 
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Abyss Dweller

Abyss Dweller

You look lonely...
Jul 29, 2025
137
I don't think a nihilistic approach to life is wrong or bad. It also doesn't necessarily have to mean sadness or other bunch of negative emotions.
You can be like "life is meaningless and that's it" or "life is meaningless and thats okay" and then just go about your day.
 
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WrathfulGloom32

WrathfulGloom32

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Oct 12, 2024
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The things you also mentioned like drugs or sex or music/etc will always give you happiness because of the way the brain works to give you feel good chemicals. In reality it's really hard to consider life as a happy thing without feeding the brain what it wants. I don't want to play biology's game personally.
 
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girlsboysthems

girlsboysthems

no i dont have a gun
Dec 19, 2022
458
people insist on me being alive, but at what cost. my life is garbage, i hate it everyday and i wait for it to end. its quality over quantity, but we live in a world...
 
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starboy2k

starboy2k

whhaazzzzzuuupppp
May 21, 2025
499
BUMPING THE FUCK OUT OF THIS POST BECAUSE YOU AINT LYING
 
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ConstantPain

Sorry but cats are so much better than people
Jun 9, 2022
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Archness

Archness

Defective Personel
Jan 20, 2023
584
Facts.

Yeah tired of all these boomers and successful people taking their happiness and meaning for granted and thinking that's how it is for everyone. Absolutely ignorant, and sadly the kinds of people in control of the media.
 
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jazzcat621

jazzcat621

My heart for the whole world
Jun 30, 2025
109
Absolutely. Everyone keeps telling me to "just keep going" and "it will all be worth it" but honestly is it really? The same people who tell me these things aren't exactly living happy lives themselves. Heck, most of them are in even worse spots than I am and they want to tell me that its worth it? No thank you, I would rather pass away peacefully with people that love me than end up divorced and friendless at 60.
 
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Vorty30

Vorty30

Sanctioned Extractor
Oct 10, 2023
100
Based Based and Based!
 
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fallendevil

fallendevil

Horrible Woman
Oct 6, 2024
780
Being told that it'll get better is so annoying because yeah it'll get better if you have the money, time, energy, and support and having all 3 is like trying to find a needle in a haystack with your eyes glued shut with got 2b spray and being whipped by a ring master if you don't move in a timely manner.

Life is so hard and it's even harder if you're mentally and physically fucked. Not all of us want to work hard to cope, some of us just want to die.
Absolutely. Everyone keeps telling me to "just keep going" and "it will all be worth it" but honestly is it really? The same people who tell me these things aren't exactly living happy lives themselves. Heck, most of them are in even worse spots than I am and they want to tell me that its worth it? No thank you, I would rather pass away peacefully with people that love me than end up divorced and friendless at 60.
Lowkey I think people like that who lie about life getting better are either severely coping or gatekeeping methods so people don't get their grubby hands on them first and having it confiscated.
 
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Warriorsfan

Member
Jun 15, 2023
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I hate waking up!
I go to bed and pray to die in my sleep. I don't want to hurt anyone.
I believe in God but I just want to die.
To me there's nothing wrong with that.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
15,372
True. It occured to me pretty quickly at the start- when I felt I ought to try and fight being unhappy- that that would be an exhausting way to live. To constantly fight against the negative thoughts and force myself to be positive. It didn't take long for me to abandon that because I doubted it would ever 'naturally' take.

That's what makes me curious about optimists though. Are they truly naturally like that or, do they force themselves to be?
 
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sevennn

sevennn

Warlock
Sep 11, 2024
702
yeah. but i just want to die peacefully and i haven't found that way out yet. and i have to be still tortured here
 
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Alexandra_

Alexandra_

Don't Fear the Reaper
Sep 30, 2023
800
When will this existence end?????
 
nattns

nattns

Member
Mar 12, 2023
27
I guess you are right, I just don't have energy to do anything about it.
 
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dearlydeparted44

Specialist
May 21, 2025
335
Agreed. And if drugs and sex are what make life "good", life ain't shit!!! You have PAY for even those things, and they're just temporary highs that send you crashing back down to hell harder than a safe from a 72nd story window. Even the so-called "finer things" cost money. So, people will be stressed about getting money just to take advantage of them. You're very realistic about life. It's shit. It's a mess. Anyone who says otherwise is just fucking delusional... at best.
 
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