Forget about SN would you do it another way?

[TAW122]

I'm CTB'ing by firearm due to not being able to access SN reliably and easily. It would be difficult (in my personal circumstances) to explain why I would have SN versus having a firearm (knock on wood, no one knows I legally own a firearm) since there are many reasons and even more so during this trying time in the US (self-defence, target shooting, hunting, etc.).

 

[Throwmyselfaway]

Due to multiple moves this year I lost my bottle. However my back up to that is my gun which I will use.

 

[Sorrygoodbye]

I'm curious why? If you don't mind

If the train is going fast enough the chances of survival are pretty low. I could get drunk beforehand unlike sn. I don't need to buy any supplies that I'd need to hide somewhere like a gun or inert gas tank. I don't need to worry about trying to buy drugs on the dark web or anything.

i've thought about this many times, but i don't want to do that to the poor engineer operating the train

It would ruin their day for sure, but the thought of a loved one finding my blue sn body is probably worse.