@Tearygirl,
Wherever you are, please forgive me for not being here with you.
In your goodbye post you wrote: "... I want nothing. Just be peaceful, painless, and become nothing." I am relieved you have just left pain behind and just met peaceful.
You wrote: "...think only a few people would miss me. Meaning not many people would feel sad by my death. Fortunately, those predictions were not valid, witness the number of people on your memorial thread who do and will miss you and are sad, but supportive of you, @Tearygirl.
May eternal love and everlasting peace be yours forever. Amen.