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chaotic_crow

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Apr 8, 2026
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For weeks I've been gathering, drying and powdering yew leaves to put in gel capsules. I had roughly 100g all together, I just had to wait until it was warm enough and i got an extra push to go back to the streets.
I took all the pills about an hour and ten minutes ago. So far literally no symptoms. I was super worried about nausea but I don't have any. That may be because I'm eating lifesaver mints but I can't be sure.
I've had some mild palpitations but I honestly think it was from me having to rush all over the place to find a bathroom. I already get palpitations if I exert myself.
I'll keep a little log on here if anything changes. If I'm still here in a good 4-5 hours I'm gonna just go admit myself to a psychward. A bitch is tired and they at least can discharge me until they have a shelter lined up that can take me. Hopefully though I won't need it. From my research I haven't seen anyone survive 100g of yew poisoning, 50g is typically considered the lethal dose but I wanted to be extra sure. I pray I'm not just somehow immune
 
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LastDayOnEarth

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May 20, 2025
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If you succeed i hope you find peace in the afterlife.
 
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sickofeverything

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Apr 17, 2026
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For weeks I've been gathering, drying and powdering yew leaves to put in gel capsules. I had roughly 100g all together, I just had to wait until it was warm enough and i got an extra push to go back to the streets.
I took all the pills about an hour and ten minutes ago. So far literally no symptoms. I was super worried about nausea but I don't have any. That may be because I'm eating lifesaver mints but I can't be sure.
I've had some mild palpitations but I honestly think it was from me having to rush all over the place to find a bathroom. I already get palpitations if I exert myself.
I'll keep a little log on here if anything changes. If I'm still here in a good 4-5 hours I'm gonna just go admit myself to a psychward. A bitch is tired and they at least can discharge me until they have a shelter lined up that can take me. Hopefully though I won't need it. From my research I haven't seen anyone survive 100g of yew poisoning, 50g is typically considered the lethal dose but I wanted to be extra sure. I pray I'm not just somehow immune
What made you decide to use yew instead of aconite or sn?
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
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Good luck! I hope you find peace :heart:

How do you feel?
 
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RedFruit

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Feb 17, 2026
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Are you feeling alright so far? I hope it it works, you find peace đź’—
 
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BrokenByTheSystem

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Mar 23, 2026
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I hope you succeed peacefully and without pain, may you find the eternal peace.
 
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ImogenHeap

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Aug 29, 2025
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I hope you find peace. How are you doing currently?
 
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sickofeverything

Experienced
Apr 17, 2026
227
Yea, I'm broke and the yew tree was on the front yard of the house I was at. If I could go for a more sure way I definitely would have though

Thank you đź’•
I see, I tried aconite tea and threw up, maybe in pill form like you with the yew it may work. Wishing you peace and success
 
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Malfunction

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Jul 27, 2024
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Best of luck, I hope you find your peace without further suffering.

I knew nothing of this and looked it up. Apparently the red fleshy part is safe to eat. All other parts are poisonous. The seeds in particular are the most poisonous with higher levels of taxine A/B. The plant is most poisonous in winter and can survive in -20C.

Anyhow, don't mean to derail, I found it interesting to read about.

Peace be with you!
 
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Nolongerlive

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Feb 28, 2026
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Hope he will able to find peace among this chaotic world !
 
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darksouls

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May 10, 2025
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good luck, I hope you find peace ❤️‍🩹
 
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