Discussion Final note?

[eiyuu]

I never really considered it before until now, but holy shit writing a suicide note is h a r d.

I've been trying to write different notes to different people, and I just can't help but go back and forth on my tone. Sometimes I just wanna go completely off, sometimes I try and write a super articulated essay, sometimes I can't even think of anything so all that's on my notes app is "fuck u lol" (that's a joke btw LOL).

There's a part of me that's considering just ctbing w/o letting anyone know.

Is it normally this difficult? There's just so much to say to people who don't care.

 

[GoBack]

I've written so many they're all in different notebooks. All very rambling between sorry and angry. Lucky they're mostly illegible cause I do them when I'm drunk

 

[StuckAF]

I thought about making notes but my final decision was that I would use all my terrible artistic skills, to write down the best looking "fuck y'all" ever.

 

[hakku]

I don't think I'l even write one. Just like my life it would be a waste of time.

 

[mittensxx]

Yesss I couldn't agree more!!
There's one specific person I would love to call out for all the harm they've done but another day I just want them to learn from me and be better person so I try to stay positive.
It's literally impossible to ever get a perfect goodbye letter (at least for me). I'll probably end up with something incredibly impulsive

 

[GoodPersonEffed]

There's just so much to say to people who don't care.

This.

I get what you said about considering ctb'ing and not saying anything. If they weren't willing to listen or care before, they've proven that won't change. If they've historically put up defenses against hearing all along, they're not going to suddenly lower them.

 

[Isittimetogonola]

My notes are an ongoing process up until the last moment. That way they are complete and truly express my final words and feelings. Kind of like a journal. If I feel like adding it, I do. I don't if not. I just want them to know that even in good times with them, there was still nothing they could have done. I do care about them and want to help them have closure. But that is just me.