feeling defeated

[aimless_]

one very close friend of mine that ive known for like 4 years now started to treat me like dirt and ive felt really hurt about it for weeks now

they're like my only very good friend and it seems like they never cared about me at all

i feel anger towards them and they cut me off from everything we've been doing together. i was even working with him on his business.

on top of that, people i know that i really dont like seem like they're doing very well and they just laugh about me whenever they see or hear of me.

i dont have much going for me right now despite my best efforts, and i dont feel like there's much left for me. i feel like im at the end of my rope

 

[Abyss Dweller]

I'm very sorry about your friend. Have you tried talking to him about it? Like what happened, why is he behaving the way he is behaving?
Ultimately friendships are two-way streets. If the reason is beyond your control there's not much you can do about it. But it doesn't mean you can't find new friends.

on top of that, people i know that i really dont like seem like they're doing very well and they just laugh about me whenever they see or hear of me.

I know this is old ald boring but comparing yourself to other people doesn't do you any good. It probably hasn't done anyone any good ever. Try to focus on your journey instead.

 

[Galam]

I know that feeling. never had any real friends and others only say rude and discriminating things, gossip.

I just stay inside since months and in the last months I was cut off from welfare in my country germany. I just use delivery or my mother as the only human left who brings me food to the closed door.

I am always alone. I hope the people who discriminate me so much all my life, would suffer very bad things. They are ill and show no empathy just because I am female with disabilities and poor. I really wish I could own a Venom or Carnage or get a superpower to reduce them. Before I CTB I think it is nesessary that they have no chance to damage others like they did with me.
I have nobody who would bring me some food after my mother has died. I actual have since years no reason to wake up and try to live life, it's only survival. Whenver I meet people they make disgusted and angry faces or they laugh bevause of my face. I am always just the ugly woman. 30 years this was my life. I hope they will fear outcasts like me and die away. I dislike normal people because they make my life unlivable.