i had a really good day at college yesterday...

[snooperdooper]

there was a block party and i decided to go bc i wanted to meet friends. i asked this guy if he wanted to walk with me down there and he didnt respond so i got worried he didnt like me, then when the party started he was like im waiting so i had to quickly get ready. lol nothing good happens to me without first making me think something bad is happening.

then at the party a girl came up to me and was like "omg ur so pretty. wait r u a guy or a girl?" that was the highlight of the night, bc i am trans woman and self conscious about my night. then i met another guy i became friends with and we spent the rest of the night together. we explored each others dorms and it was very nice. he has a gf but he was sending me very mixed signals so idk.

this just makes me feel very happy. it was my first definitively good day in a long time. i have friends and i have a trajectory in life. i couldnt stop smiling the entire night. im sorry if this triggers anybody, but i dont know where else to post this. you guys are the only ppl who are open about struggling with suicide so you know the lowest lows. but it makes the highs a lot higher. im just very happy to have been alive to experience this, and i hope i decide not to ctb.

 

[unluckysadness]

That's great You're so lucky to have friends. I have no friends but I'm not the only one here so it's okay I guess.
I wish you a lot of other days like this.

 

[nightmare-receiver]

I am so happy for you! From one trans person to another, you got this. I'm so glad you had a good day, and I hope you have many more.

 

[Gild-Holm-’Ur]

I have a habit of completing a sentence in my head before I finish speaking and just stopping. I did that with a friend and walked away. To which she said I'm just going to follow you until you finish your sentence. Anyway, I like us, quirky people, more so than the normies.

And maybe you failed because you have more to do in the prime material plane. (Fighting the Unisom makes more metaphysical.)