feel so lame for wanting to sh mid 20s

[frail]

it's embarrassing and i feel sick thinking about how bad i want to sh, i feel like all my peers would think of me as childish or an attention seeker. i feel miserable every day because of how ugly i am and it just makes me want to tear apart my face myself. i just want that semblance of control over my appearance when otherwise it's been tormenting me forever . i don't fucking get it

 

[Suine Kurisu]

i don't think it's something worth being embarrassed about. there's nothing "childish" or "attention-seeking" about this behaviour. its just a redirection of pain from ur mind to ur physical body. maybe it's not the healthiest coping mechanism, but its nothing to be ashamed of. u are trying to manage despite the hand dealt to u and regardless of how u deal with that u at the very least have my respect.

hoping things pan out for u, regardless of what path u take. may u find the reprieve u seek

 

[Forveleth]

There is no age limit on self harm.
I am 40 and still cut.

 

[kunikuzushi]

everyone needs to cope somehow, no matter what age. I'm in my 30s and self harm.
but I do understand the shame, and I'm sorry it's making you feel so bad.
there's also nothing shameful about self harming for attention. I'm not saying you're doing that. but if someone judges someone for that, they're probably insecure about their own needs for attention being unmet.

 

[never mind me]

Well, I'm in my late 30s and I still self harm occasionally. Honestly I doubt that I will ever stop commpletely and I don't really care. If you are worried about the reaction of other people you could try to self harm in a way that is easy to hide and not tell anyone in real life. For me only cutting myself in places that I can always hide caused me to not have any problems with the fact I self harm, which is probably why I don't care, if I ever stop.