feel so lame for wanting to sh mid 20s

[frail]

it's embarrassing and i feel sick thinking about how bad i want to sh, i feel like all my peers would think of me as childish or an attention seeker. i feel miserable every day because of how ugly i am and it just makes me want to tear apart my face myself. i just want that semblance of control over my appearance when otherwise it's been tormenting me forever . i don't fucking get it

 

[Suine Kurisu]

i don't think it's something worth being embarrassed about. there's nothing "childish" or "attention-seeking" about this behaviour. its just a redirection of pain from ur mind to ur physical body. maybe it's not the healthiest coping mechanism, but its nothing to be ashamed of. u are trying to manage despite the hand dealt to u and regardless of how u deal with that u at the very least have my respect.

hoping things pan out for u, regardless of what path u take. may u find the reprieve u seek