My life is so annoying right now. I can't even get out of bed until 5pm and the only reason I do at that time is to help my dad (he's paralyzed). Which is basically just watching him sit in pain and there's nothing I can do to help. And my brother doesn't have any problems with me but he hates my dad. Idk if it's like rebellious teenage thing or if he just disrespects him because he can't physically punish him?? But he seriously has problems with him and disrespects him then acts like a victim. I'm not saying my dad has done nothing wrong but idk why my brother takes it as far as he can. Idk but I can't fucking do anything about that either. My aunt's getting out of jail tomorrow and every time she drinks (everyday) I get so much anxiety that I physically shake. Even when she's in a good mood drinking I just have a bad feeling I can't get rid of. And she's probably going to be drinking a lot cause she's just getting out. Can't do shit about that either.
I've been doing nothing these last couple days but stare at a wall and drown in my own anxiety. And I can't make myself get up. I just wish I didn't give a fuck. Things would be so much easier if I just didn't give fuck.
I've been doing nothing these last couple days but stare at a wall and drown in my own anxiety. And I can't make myself get up. I just wish I didn't give a fuck. Things would be so much easier if I just didn't give fuck.
