Fear of non-existing.

[Ta555]

If there is nothing then this life and world is a joke

It is a joke. A cosmic joke. The fact that this solar system, this planet, you and I exist are completely random events by chance. There is no mystical universal meaning. Each person makes their own meaning in life.

 

[DobryDen]

I struggle with what happens when I die a lot and it holds me back... no one knows and I don't have a firm set of beliefs so I worry. If anything is possible, then perhaps taking my life with the method available to me would cause an effect in my after-life? Perhaps heaven and hell are true? Maybe karma is true and the impacts on others if I CTB would give me negative karma or affect the next life? I personally would put money that we simply cease to exist- like someone else said- like when you are put under general anesthesia. Thats not scary. But still.... who knows.... when I get into the suicidal trance, it gets much easier to approach following through bc I am just not worried anymore. So far, whenever I have gotten close like that, I have still had a little hope and I back down. I wish there was a way to come to terms with my fear of death. I mean, I have that fear no matter what.

 

[absoluteanimal1]

It's interesting because the thought of non-existence is exactly what appeals to me in ctb. I guess we're all a little different.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non existence is what I look forward to the most, as nothing can hurt me then. There is nothing to fear as we simply do not exist anymore. The thing that I am scared of is life, as there is unlimited potential for suffering. Death is the end to all of that pain.