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PrettyKitty

PrettyKitty

Angel
Mar 27, 2023
180
not rude at all dw. i guess its like. if youre at a point where you're literally going to be starving to death even baggy clothes can only do so much i mean just look at some of the really sick thinspo girlies online. i guess it feels a bit disrespectful to talk about like this but i dont think any clothing choice is going to hide what they have going on.
I understand I already have a backup plan if they find out or I fail and eat ( I doubt all fail and eat because I really wanna die)
 
ivzxkou

ivzxkou

finding new ways to feel empty
Apr 1, 2023
27
I understand I already have a backup plan if they find out or I fail and eat ( I doubt all fail and eat because I really wanna die)
i respect that. sorry things are like this for you but i hope that you can find some peace doing things your own way.
 
PrettyKitty

PrettyKitty

Angel
Mar 27, 2023
180
i respect that. sorry things are like this for you but i hope that you can find some peace doing things your own way.
Thank you šŸ™
I feel so bad I wanna die so bad I had a baby carrot and a crumb of potato and I wanna kill myself how could I do that I know it's not alot but I'm disgusting.
 
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monstercatering

monstercatering

Member
Apr 4, 2023
16
If it fails the effects depends how malnourished you are. Also idk your state rn but unless you're already anorexic it would probably take 6 months-a year minimum if you are still going to have responsibilities/be a part of society.

If there's someone more experienced/knowledgable please correct me but in my online experience: if you are close to only muscles and organs(lethal anorexia) and you are hospitalized then you will have permanent organ damage and have new illnesses to deal with, if you are hospitalized before that you will likely have some organ issues/illnesses that will be more manageable, even less than that you may have small issues possibly recoverable.
Once you get to the realm where it is permanent damage then you can get hospitalized just for that, but if you are not as extreme anorexia then the hospitalization will likely just be 5150/recovery. More extreme will be malnutrition treatment and then psych.
 
BabyCamus

BabyCamus

Student
Mar 2, 2023
161
Not to be rude but I wear super baggy clothes so nobody knows when I get skinner or lose weight. I also find you right its super hard to do, like today I wanted to eat so bad and almost passed out I had fr a crumb of bread didn't help but its like odd i would even want just a crumb of bread. I personally like I said had an ed so I have starved before days to weeks. Also the human body can last without food for up 2 months sometimes less depending if you have medical conditions (which I do).

Also I made this deal with my parents that they won't put me in the hospital again and they won't.
Also I can't gain the weight back If I'm dead.
How did you get your parents to agree not to put you in hospital again if I may ask? I want to make the same deal with my parents but I don't think they'd agree.
 
PrettyKitty

PrettyKitty

Angel
Mar 27, 2023
180
If it fails the effects depends how malnourished you are. Also idk your state rn but unless you're already anorexic it would probably take 6 months-a year minimum if you are still going to have responsibilities/be a part of society.

If there's someone more experienced/knowledgable please correct me but in my online experience: if you are close to only muscles and organs(lethal anorexia) and you are hospitalized then you will have permanent organ damage and have new illnesses to deal with, if you are hospitalized before that you will likely have some organ issues/illnesses that will be more manageable, even less than that you may have small issues possibly recoverable.
Once you get to the realm where it is permanent damage then you can get hospitalized just for that, but if you are not as extreme anorexia then the hospitalization will likely just be 5150/recovery. More extreme will be malnutrition treatment and then psych.
I'm not talking about Ed I'm talking about starving to death the human body can not live without (any food at all) for more than 2 months
I'm a fuck up bitch so my parents gave up on me or getting me help that's why..
How did you get your parents to agree not to put you in hospital again if I may ask? I want to make the same deal with my parents but I don't think they'd agree.
 

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tormentedforever

tormentedforever

neglectme
Apr 8, 2023
10
If you have seen my past post alot of people think I have BDD but I really don't know and don't wanna self diagoinse.
Anyways I used to have a ed and praticed starving alot its very non painful and easy for me after the first few days.
I really wanna die skinny.
I have a pretty thick thigh build I'm 5'5-5'6 around 155 pounds or less.
I want to lose around 40 pounds at most to get to a goal of 115 before I die.
Mostly because I truly hate my body no matter how much i workout or eat healthy I never love it.

BMI says I'm overweight by 5-10 pounds but I know I should lose more anyways.
If i fail the starvation I will try hanging myself I cant living knowing I failed the last thing I wanted too do in my life.
I don't know if I'm aloud to post process pictures here but 10 days before I ethier succed or fail starvation all make a goodbye thread.

I will share the process of the 2 month fast if people want me too i'm already on day 2 (only thing I can do is drink limited water)
I don't want to self diagnose either but I'm sure I have BDD too. I'm 5'0 113lbs. and I still feel huge, it doesn't get better if you lose weight..it's a lifestyle change. You will never feel better if you try to starve yourself. I recommend going for long walks and jogging if you want to slim down ā™”
 
PrettyKitty

PrettyKitty

Angel
Mar 27, 2023
180
I don't want to self diagnose either but I'm sure I have BDD too. I'm 5'0 113lbs. and I still feel huge, it doesn't get better if you lose weight..it's a lifestyle change. You will never feel better if you try to starve yourself. I recommend going for long walks and jogging if you want to slim down ā™”
I've tried that for months and I have lost weight/ slimmed down to an extent and I still hate myself I have been on a 1500 cal diet for months nothing works to make me stop hating myself
 
tormentedforever

tormentedforever

neglectme
Apr 8, 2023
10
I've tried that for months and I have lost weight/ slimmed down to an extent and I still hate myself I have been on a 1500 cal diet for months nothing works to make me stop hating myself
What does your diet consist of? If you continue starving yourself you will look skinny fat, that's what happened to me.
 
PrettyKitty

PrettyKitty

Angel
Mar 27, 2023
180
What does your diet consist of? If you continue starving yourself you will look skinny fat, that's what happened to me.
Fruits, veggies, chicken, beef and some carbs and only treat is on Fridays and it can't be over 300 cal. No regular sodas only diet
 
tormentedforever

tormentedforever

neglectme
Apr 8, 2023
10
Fruits, veggies, chicken, beef and some carbs and only treat is on Fridays and it can't be over 300 cal. No regular sodas only diet
Looks good but veggies and fruits can cause bloating so I would recommend limiting those and increasing your protein intake. I honestly wouldn't worry about calories, what matters is your activity level. You can slim down fairly quickly with a high protein diet and walking on a incline, I hope this helps.
 
Viranamari

Viranamari

A Future Corpse
Feb 22, 2023
293
Starvation is an extremely slow and painful method. On top of that, it has a lot of survival instinct. Perhaps you can consider another method? Starvation sounds like hell to me so I definitely don't recommend it. But I guess it's up to you. If dying skinny means a lot to you then I suppose Starvation is fine. Anyways, I wish you luck
 
PrettyKitty

PrettyKitty

Angel
Mar 27, 2023
180
Hello here's an update I had a crumb of bread or two and a chocolate egg the mini one and that's it. I ate the little egg since it's Easter. I'm pretty sure even if I don't starve to death aleast at the end of this fast all lose alot of weight. Anyways it's almost Easter dinner and so all have to put some stuff on my plate cut it into tiny pieces and pretend I'm eatting when I'm not to throw off my parents wish me luck!
 
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Linda

Linda

Member
Jul 30, 2020
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It could work, and if it failed you probably wouldn't do yourself much long-term harm. But towards the end you would become very weak, and for quite a lengthy period, you wouldn't be able to resist anyone who decided to "help" you. So it would need careeful planning.
 
hikikomorei

hikikomorei

ą«® ā—ž ļ»Œ ā—Ÿ įƒ tired
Apr 8, 2023
8
i've seriously considered this. i live with no one who would intervene. compared to finding drugs or executing (lol) the perfect method to CTB without messing up, starving to death seems easy in the inaction of it. though i have fasted with nothing but coffee and water for 11 days before and been completely fine. to starve to death would likely take upwards of two months... the pain, the boredom of being able to do nothing as even your mind cannot function a thought, the humiliation of your body malfunctioning and shutting down in embarassing ways... the inescapable cold...

it isn't worth it. there are faster and more dignified methods. your final days on this earth shouldn't be spent suffering, even the barbarism of death row still allows inmates the pleasure of a final meal. i understand having a disordered mind that finds appeal and maybe a strange romanticism in dying in such a way though.
 
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Walk

Member
Apr 3, 2023
8
Thank you not sure what I would talk about though im lame.

You are very kind human being, I'm going through a lot if I could choose to not feel this way or not wanna die I would thank you for your kind word though much love. <3
I just wanna say incase people are thinking my weight or body issues BDD? is the reason I want to CTB it is a huge reason towards the whole and kills me inside veryday trying to perfect myself. I am going through tons of others things including abuse. (not that i mean anyones saying that) I just hear a lot of people saying thats not the reason they ctb so I wanted to put it out there.
I know I can't stop you from CTB even though I wish I could, I pray that you are able to find peace on Earth one of these days. I wish I could give you a hug and ensure everything will be okay.
 
PrettyKitty

PrettyKitty

Angel
Mar 27, 2023
180
I know I can't stop you from CTB even though I wish I could, I pray that you are able to find peace on Earth one of these days. I wish I could give you a hug and ensure everything will be okay.
thank you <3
 

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