Fasting to death/what happens if it fails.

[PrettyKitty]

If you have seen my past post alot of people think I have BDD but I really don't know and don't wanna self diagoinse.
Anyways I used to have a ed and praticed starving alot its very non painful and easy for me after the first few days.
I really wanna die skinny.
I have a pretty thick thigh build I'm 5'5-5'6 around 155 pounds or less.
I want to lose around 40 pounds at most to get to a goal of 115 before I die.
Mostly because I truly hate my body no matter how much i workout or eat healthy I never love it.

BMI says I'm overweight by 5-10 pounds but I know I should lose more anyways.
If i fail the starvation I will try hanging myself I cant living knowing I failed the last thing I wanted too do in my life.
I don't know if I'm aloud to post process pictures here but 10 days before I ethier succed or fail starvation all make a goodbye thread.

I will share the process of the 2 month fast if people want me too i'm already on day 2 (only thing I can do is drink limited water)

 

[FuneralCry]

Suicide by starvation sounds like a terrible method to me, as it sounds unbearable and pretty much impossible to succeed with.

 

[Saltedcoffee]

Sorry if this is inappropriate but I'm also thinking this method of weight loss and would be interested in seeing process pictures, here or DM

 

[PrettyKitty]

Sorry if this is inappropriate but I'm also thinking this method of weight loss and would be interested in seeing process pictures, here or DM

sure its okay!

Suicide by starvation sounds like a terrible method to me, as it sounds unbearable and pretty much impossible to succeed with.

I kinda want to be in pain, I also have starved myself for weeks before and also praticed fasting i dont get much pain or disomcfort only thing is cramps or headaches sometimes or stomach pain from hunger all mangeable also will be distracting myself 24/7 to not think about hunger

 

[leavingsoon99]

Dammit!!! I love steak and potatoes WAY too much to do this!!! I mean, what's a suicide without a final meal anyway?

 

[PrettyKitty]

Dammit!!! I love steak and potatoes WAY too much to do this!!! I mean, what's a suicide without a final meal anyway?

Your right maybe if i fail all go out with a final meal

 

[my-end]

Suicide by starvation sounds like a terrible method to me, as it sounds unbearable and pretty much impossible to succeed with.

Yeah. One would have to live every minute in despair to overcome the desire to eat. It's only an attempt if, one is about to die unless they take nutrition...at that point it might be easier to just die. I think it's called psychogenic, willing oneself to die. Imo, too many are on here merely seeking attention.

 

[PrettyKitty]

Yeah. One would have to live every minute in despair to overcome the desire to eat. It's only an attempt if, one is about to die unless they take nutrition...at that point it might be easier to just die. I think it's called psychogenic, willing oneself to die. Imo, too many are on here merely seeking attention.

I know starvation is hard and gonna be really difficult that's why I asking for advice and talking about it. Not trying to seek attention but thanks for the reply anyway

 

[trist]

i've been fantasizing about doing this a lot but i unfortunately can't do it because i have to have dinner with family. i wish you luck though because it'll be really hard, even with prior fasting experience. if you wanna do it for weight loss instead of ctb i recommend taking vitamins and electrolytes as you can't function otherwise. so if you have school/a job this (as a ctb method) will be even harder.

 

[PrettyKitty]

i've been fantasizing about doing this a lot but i unfortunately can't do it because i have to have dinner with family. i wish you luck though because it'll be really hard, even with prior fasting experience. if you wanna do it for weight loss instead of ctb i recommend taking vitamins and electrolytes as you can't function otherwise. so if you have school/a job this (as a ctb method) will be even harder.

It's mostly for CTB weight-loss is just a bonus

 

[trist]

It's mostly for CTB weight-loss is just a bonus

hm okay. i think it's a very unreliable method as hunger can override a lot of things, including the will to ctb, but i obviously can't stop you from trying. do you plan on liquid fasting?

 

[PrettyKitty]

hm okay. i think it's a very unreliable method as hunger can override a lot of things, including the will to ctb, but i obviously can't stop you from trying. do you plan on liquid fasting?

Liquid fasting if I do try to break fast I will lock my food up and hide the key LOL but I have a plan if I fail

 

[LostCauseLooknToCTB]

Suicide by starvation sounds like a terrible method to me, as it sounds unbearable and pretty much impossible to succeed with.

It's not so bad once you get used to it I don't eat much and I'm hungry all the time, after a while you just stop feeling hungry it's not painful just annoying

 

[my-end]

I know starvation is hard and gonna be really difficult that's why I asking for advice and talking about it. Not trying to seek attention but thanks for the reply anyway

Just because I replied to someone on this thread doesn't mean I was replying to you.

 

[Valky]

I tried this too. I didn't simply starve myself for an amount of time. But I wanted to keep loosing weight until I am at the verge of death. The feeling of hunger somehow still fulfilled me. Finally smth I was able to achieve back then.
In the end I believe it was a call for help for me tho. And I am so glad that I seeked that well needed help and was able to get better.

Imo, too many are on here merely seeking attention.

So? Seeking attention is not always a bad thing. After all you can seek a lot of things. Especially: seek medical attention.

There is no shame in it.

 

[PrettyKitty]

Just because I replied to someone on this thread doesn't mean I was replying to you.

Oh so sorry i thought you were implying this towards me my bad!

 

[starrvingstar]

If you have seen my past post alot of people think I have BDD but I really don't know and don't wanna self diagoinse.
Anyways I used to have a ed and praticed starving alot its very non painful and easy for me after the first few days.
I really wanna die skinny.
I have a pretty thick thigh build I'm 5'5-5'6 around 155 pounds or less.
I want to lose around 40 pounds at most to get to a goal of 115 before I die.
Mostly because I truly hate my body no matter how much i workout or eat healthy I never love it.

BMI says I'm overweight by 5-10 pounds but I know I should lose more anyways.
If i fail the starvation I will try hanging myself I cant living knowing I failed the last thing I wanted too do in my life.
I don't know if I'm aloud to post process pictures here but 10 days before I ethier succed or fail starvation all make a goodbye thread.

I will share the process of the 2 month fast if people want me too i'm already on day 2 (only thing I can do is drink limited water)

starving is a long and painful process, if you can fast for a lengthy amount of time it would not kill you. people fast for months and survive, you could achieve a gorgeous body though. the lack of nourishment could simply lead to long term side effects. you could die of a heart attack later in life at a low bmi. please drink a lot of water.

 

[HyenaRadio]

As someone with an eating disorder I totally get it. I am very interested in updates!

 

[qwerty1969]

You can CTB by not eating, period!

 

[PrettyKitty]

here tiny update i felt like passing out today i think my blood sugars are low. :( but the hunger pains went away but im fr dreaming of sushi in my head bruh LOL

 

[my-end]

Oh so sorry i thought you were implying this towards me my bad!

I was but I'm sorry. Idk. I see so many talking about things that I see as superficial that I think, there's no way they Want to ctb.... It's more like they are just unhappy and considering ctb is just something to play with.
Anyway, hope you find your way.

 

[Rock0Dial]

I've had similar thoughts when waking up in the middle of the night in some weird position where all the fat is pushed to a concentrated corner of my midsection like "Damn I can't die like this, I look terrible". Fasting is pretty wild, I wish the best for you and whatever decisions you make. Just don't end up like Eugenia please.

 

[BabyCamus]

I was but I'm sorry. Idk. I see so many talking about things that I see as superficial that I think, there's no way they Want to ctb.... It's more like they are just unhappy and considering ctb is just something to play with.
Anyway, hope you find your way.

As someone who suffers with body image, I don't think it's just a superficial problem. I think it maybe starts off that way, but if it's really severe it can affect absolutely everything in your life: relationships, work, living situation, happiness, physical health, other mental health problems, loneliness etc. I think BDD has a very high rate of suicide and it's not just because people don't like what they see in the mirror. It's about how this affects everything else in their life. Not arguing or saying you're wrong, I just thought I would say this as body image has deeply affected me too.

 

[Walk]

PrettyKitty listen to me; I think you look fine just the way you are. I know you probably hear this over and over again but please don't commit suicide. Think of the good moments you've had on Earth, think of the friends you've made, the people you helped. Don't let body dysmorphia make you CTB. Don't let the demons win.

 

[my-end]

As someone who suffers with body image, I don't think it's just a superficial problem. I think it maybe starts off that way, but if it's really severe it can affect absolutely everything in your life: relationships, work, living situation, happiness, physical health, other mental health problems, loneliness etc. I think BDD has a very high rate of suicide and it's not just because people don't like what they see in the mirror. It's about how this affects everything else in their life. Not arguing or saying you're wrong, I just thought I would say this as body image has deeply affected me too.

I've also suffered from body image but it's not the cause for me want to ctb. It's something I accepted a long time ago but have periodically let it seep into my consciousness. I'm pretty sure I get constantly judged by how I look. I wouldn't say I have BDD though I've always rejected labels.
Your words give weight to something that likely, subconsciously, contributes to part of my condition.
Thank you for responding. I didn't have to make my last reply but I felt like I diminished the op's feelings and should apologize.

 

[BabyCamus]

I've also suffered from body image but it's not the cause for me want to ctb. It's something I accepted a long time ago but have periodically let it seep into my consciousness. I'm pretty sure I get constantly judged by how I look. I wouldn't say I have BDD though I've always rejected labels.
Your words give weight to something that likely, subconsciously, contributes to part of my condition.
Thank you for responding. I didn't have to make my last reply but I felt like I diminished the op's feelings and should apologize.

It's also not my reason for ctb, but I understand how bad it can get. I think anyone suffering enough to the point of considering ctb is valid. @PrettyKitty if you want to talk, my PMs are open, if not I hope you can be kind to yourself as much as possible <3

 

[PrettyKitty]

It's also not my reason for ctb, but I understand how bad it can get. I think anyone suffering enough to the point of considering ctb is valid. @PrettyKitty if you want to talk, my PMs are open, if not I hope you can be kind to yourself as much as possible <3

Thank you not sure what I would talk about though im lame.

PrettyKitty listen to me; I think you look fine just the way you are. I know you probably hear this over and over again but please don't commit suicide. Think of the good moments you've had on Earth, think of the friends you've made, the people you helped. Don't let body dysmorphia make you CTB. Don't let the demons win.

You are very kind human being, I'm going through a lot if I could choose to not feel this way or not wanna die I would thank you for your kind word though much love. <3
I just wanna say incase people are thinking my weight or body issues BDD? is the reason I want to CTB it is a huge reason towards the whole and kills me inside veryday trying to perfect myself. I am going through tons of others things including abuse. (not that i mean anyones saying that) I just hear a lot of people saying thats not the reason they ctb so I wanted to put it out there.

 

[ivzxkou]

itll be hard to do if not impossible not to mention painful and miserable. ive been diagnosed with EDNOS and go through occasional fasting bouts (like 7+ days just water, electrolytes, coffee etc) as well as extreme restriction. your body is going to SCREAM at you to eat something after a few months of that. so not only will you definitely end up eating (and in my case, literally gaining everything back x2 and then losing it in cycles) but also unless you're locking yourself in a room or not making contact with anyone you know. people are going to be concerned appearance wise and youll probably end up in forced treatment before you actually end up dying.

its a romantic thought to starve to death but i think you should set your sights elsewhere

 

[PrettyKitty]

itll be hard to do if not impossible not to mention painful and miserable. ive been diagnosed with EDNOS and go through occasional fasting bouts (like 7+ days just water, electrolytes, coffee etc) as well as extreme restriction. your body is going to SCREAM at you to eat something after a few months of that. so not only will you definitely end up eating (and in my case, literally gaining everything back x2 and then losing it in cycles) but also unless you're locking yourself in a room or not making contact with anyone you know. people are going to be concerned appearance wise and youll probably end up in forced treatment before you actually end up dying.

its a romantic thought to starve to death but i think you should set your sights elsewhere

Not to be rude but I wear super baggy clothes so nobody knows when I get skinner or lose weight. I also find you right its super hard to do, like today I wanted to eat so bad and almost passed out I had fr a crumb of bread didn't help but its like odd i would even want just a crumb of bread. I personally like I said had an ed so I have starved before days to weeks. Also the human body can last without food for up 2 months sometimes less depending if you have medical conditions (which I do).

Also I made this deal with my parents that they won't put me in the hospital again and they won't.
Also I can't gain the weight back If I'm dead.

 

[ivzxkou]

Not to be rude but I wear super baggy clothes so nobody knows when I get skinner or lose weight. I also find you right its super hard to do, like today I wanted to eat so bad and almost passed out I had fr a crumb of bread didn't help but its like odd i would even want just a crumb of bread. I personally like I said had an ed so I have starved before days to weeks. Also the human body can last without food for up 2 months sometimes less depending if you have medical conditions (which I do).

not rude at all dw. i guess its like. if youre at a point where you're literally going to be starving to death even baggy clothes can only do so much i mean just look at some of the really sick thinspo girlies online. i guess it feels a bit disrespectful to talk about like this but i dont think any clothing choice is going to hide what they have going on.