Help Finally chose a method

[s.s.scriptties]

After doing research on sodium nitrite I thought it could be a good method with a high success rate but I don't know any credible SN sources in Egypt and DMC is 70$ which is way over 3k in my currency (Also searched for suppliers on chemnet and got an allbiz Egyptian provider online but they're sketchy lookin')... And there would be medication extra which I can't afford.

After that I was gonna look into potassium cyanide and pure helium, but without research I thought that would be futile and might be expensive... Might be wrong idk.

Partial hanging I thought would be a good option, maybe drowning, car crash... Waiting till I enter the military to shoot myself in training... All these options were gruesome and I only thought about them because my options were lookin' limited since I didn't have access to most substance based methods... And the military one would take atleast 4 years or more till I can do it. After some research, I found hanging to have ways to reduce pain alot and could be done peacefully, was suggested carbon monoxide poisoning, and starting searching prices and thinking of ways to do it Egypt...

I've finally settled for carbon monoxide poisoning. it's easily accessible, it's cheap, it's process is not complicated, it's peaceful, etc.

I don't care about side effects if it fails i'll jus try again.

Jus wanted to ask, is there a certain quality or type of coal I should buy? Maybe recommending a certain brand? Or can I jus use the pure ass coal we use in Shisha and shit here. Also wanted to know recommendations for enclosed spaces to do it... I thought of tent, car, elevator, abandoned building.

My main issue is probably the place I can do it, I don't have a driver's licence and can't drive, idk how people do it in a tent without catching on fire or air coming in but either way it adds to my budget which I'm not a fan, an elevator could be risky since someone could stop me if they wanna go to a certain floor while I'm doing it, I'd have to look around to find the abandoned building.
I can also jus do it at my house in the bathroom but we have an air opening... Also my parents could notice if I stay in there for so long and stop me before I do it... But I think I could jus wait for a day where they're all out... Which is very rare, so I don't wanna wait all that.

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you find peace from the suffering, I wish you the best.

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

One of my options is CO. My plan is to use my shower, which is basically a little tiled room with a door. I'll cover the space over the door with a piece of cardboard Gorilla taped into place. Maybe throw a thin towel over the glass door so there's no crack where it touches the untaped bottom edge.

Then it's just about burning lump charcoal in a little grill or two outside. I've never used the cylindrical starter thing but it seems like a good idea to minimize smoke--I think the idea is to start ALL the coals so a buried one doesn't start smoking when you're trying to cook/die.

When the smoke and flames stop and the coals are just gray and glowing I'll take the grill(s) in to the shower and let the CO build up. A lot will escape when I slip in but the levels should be crazy high.

I'm considering raw dogging it without a CO meter but why be cheap? Not like I'm gonna be able to spend all my money. I should get one and do a dry run. I think my shower gas chamber could get to crazy high levels. It would be very comforting to know that I could get a concentration that knocks me out in ten seconds.

Other worry is smoke detector. I'll have windows and doors open but still. Idk if it doubles as a CO detector.

Fun weekend project coming! It's nice to keep busy, raises one's mood.