Discussion Fantasizing about CTB.

[Mocha]

I think alot about how I'd like to die. Especially while high/on depression medications. They numb me but I still get a weird joy around the thought of ending it in different often creative, lustful, loving or whatever ways.

Anybody else do this?

 

[thatonegirl]

Yeah, I think at this point the thought of dying is too ingrained in my head. It'll never leave, even if I magically find a reason to live.

 

[sweetdrowning]

I definitely do this. I go to sleep thinking about it. It feels comforting. I've been doing it since I was a kid, honestly.

 

[GodzillasBiggestFan]

i find comfort in it too. sometimes it helps me out of anxiety attacks.

 

[LaetumCat]

Yeah, even when I feel happy! Which is ironic, I sometimes go "I'm so happy, I wanna die!"