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paroxysm

paroxysm

I Felt Nothing
Sep 17, 2023
117
i keep fantasizing about my death. i can't help but imagine myself putting a shotgun in my mouth and blowing my head off. i really wish i could CTB soon but for now i am waiting it's not my time yet.
 
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Worndown

Worndown

Angelic
Mar 21, 2019
4,252
That is common. I had a bunch of dreams about hanging myself or getting hanged. Some thoughts get more attention.
 
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DeathSleep

DeathSleep

Unstable Potato
May 25, 2023
282
Me too. For me it's either a gun shot to the head or a fent OD mostly. Sometimes drowning or hanging. I'm still working on my method. Just depends what I can get my hands on.
 
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Seered Doom

Seered Doom

A nihilist going through an unrelinquished Hell
Sep 9, 2023
992
When I have dreams and fantasies about mine, it's either OD, jumping off a jetbridge, running into highway traffic (or any traffic) where someone who hated me actually gave the final runover, a bullet to the brain, drinking a poisonous concoction of my own design, or shocking myself in the bathtub.
 
Kempel556

Kempel556

Luce sicut stellae
Sep 26, 2023
128
Whenever I fantasize about CTB its usually shooting myself in the head or OD, and hanging sometimes
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
49,499
It's really understandable just wishing to be gone as in my case the thought of being permanently free from this existence is all that's appealing, I wish you the best.
 

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