Experiment worked, almost died.

[Lara Francis]

Welcome back xerxes.
Thankyou for sharing this information.
Wishing you a speedy recovery.

 

[letmeseethedeath]

Hello guys, long time no see!

So I carried out an experiment with DMSO and SN, and almost killed myself, but because it was an experiment and I didn't want to die, I drove myself to the ER and nurses told me I passed out at the entrance. Don't remember much after that other than what my wife and staff told me when I came to. I didn't dream, I didn't experience any NDE's, just darkness, and just a light switch, I wake up. I was in the ICU for a week, then moved to recovery unit for a few days, and then was discharged on Thursday.

Didn't get admitted to the mental ward because the doctors knew it was DMSO and that something I touched which caused Methemoglobinemia in my blood. I didn't tell them anything about SN, even though I slathered the DMSO/SN solution on my skin and drank a small dose of it. So it could've been anything and they counteracted the condition with Methylene Blue. They said my methemoglobinemia levels were 34% which can be fatal. anything over 40% is fatal, but because my blood is anemic, the reaction was much swifter and it almost was fatal hence the longer stay in the ICU for monitoring purposes.

So the experiment, luckily I wrote it down on a sticky note of my ingredients and dosages to pass on in the DMSO resource thread. I mixed 10g of SN with 50mL of DMSO and applied to my arms and chest area, it smelled like garlic, so I did a couple of drops of this olive oil essence I have to make it smell like Lightly smelling garlic Brut Cologne. I wrote that I didn't feel anything for 10 minutes. So lets kick it up a bit. I mixed 5g of SN with 25mL of DMSO in a small tea cup, dissolved it, then drank the mixture. I wrote it tasted like garlic and hot dogs, kinda burning like tabasco sauce or heavily seasoned food in the back of my throat. I don't know which happened first either the SN kicked in my blood stream from the skin application because I started feeling dizzy, kinda drowsy, and was thinking "Oh shit, the SN i drank gonna kick in soon, must get to ER". Ever drove drunk in the daytime with the afternoon sun in your eyes? It royally sucks, but I made it without any incidents on the road. Risky? Yes. Dumb as hell. You bet.

So how do I feel? I get periodic chest pains when I do some exertion, I haven't tried riding my bike, and going up stairs and any walking gets me a bit winded. I'm on iron pills and have an appointment to get oxygen treatment for the next 2 weeks. An interesting thing is, my will to die has been reduced significantly. I feel a bit smarter, more calmer, my wife scared as hell but she stayed by my side the entire time which really meant a lot. I shared my jello with her in the recovery unit. We still argued when I got home, but I was much calmer and more empathetic to her feelings. I'm not completely depressed, I feel content and I feel I can turn things around. All I needed was a brush with death to come around. We'll see how long it'll last. I still have plenty of leftovers of DMSO and SN if I feel the need to try again. I'll stick around on the forums to assist any questions with DMSO and SN, but my task with dying is on hiatus for awhile.

can i ask you what is DMSO? thank you so much for sharing your experience

 

[Xerxes]

can i ask you what is DMSO? thank you so much for sharing your experience

What is DMSO?

Dimethyl Sulfoxide is a clear liquid with a garlic smell and taste. It's used in a wide variety of applications, medical procedures, and homeopathy from animals to humans. It's a excellent solvent and accelerant with the ability to absorb through skin, bone, and clothing. DMSO is a carrier liquid that will carry any drug that can be dissolved through skin, mucosal linings, latex gloves, clothing, and <9mm of bone.

 

[TheCrow]

So glad you're back! I too have been wondering where you've been. It's not the same here without you!

 

[bigj75]

but because it was an experiment and I didn't want to die, I drove myself to the ER and nurses told me I passed out at the entrance

That's a hell of an experiment. Lol

 

[Made4TV]

This is amazing information and I wish you luck in your recovery. Glad you're ok.

 

[TiredHorse]

@Xerxes you are simply amazing. That is hard-core old school science.

I am fascinated by how your near-ctb has affected you. I wonder if we had variations on the same experience: each of us came within a whisper of succeeding --albeit yours was a more calculated near miss than mine-- and we both subsequently found ourselves in a place where ctb is not currently the right path. A good and welcome addition to our options, but no longer the one at the top of the list.

I can hear in your words that you know how fortunate you are to have a wife who won't seek to have you committed, but for the record, as one whose ex would have tried, I am impressed.

Welcome to the recovery herd. I'm awfully pleased you're on that path, for however long it lasts.

 

[Robanon]

This sounds. Well. Pretty good as an option. You obviously drank some as well but do you know Xerxes what quantities for a large man who simply wanted to rub (oh stop giggling at the back). Guessing that there is no harm in just doing loads

 

[Xerxes]

If one has to write a research paper detailing the benefits of it without experimenting, then it's just theory. If someone were to experiment and try it out with results at least, then theory becomes a reality. If I'm gonna be passionate about a solution, I'll go all the way with it. Not the first time I've done something like this and did a Hold my beer moment.

 

[Xerxes]

@Xerxes you are simply amazing. That is hard-core old school science.

I am fascinated by how your near-ctb has affected you. I wonder if we had variations on the same experience: each of us came within a whisper of succeeding --albeit yours was a more calculated near miss than mine-- and we both subsequently found ourselves in a place where ctb is not currently the right path. A good and welcome addition to our options, but no longer the one at the top of the list.

I can hear in your words that you know how fortunate you are to have a wife who won't seek to have you committed, but for the record, as one whose ex would have tried, I am impressed.

Welcome to the recovery herd. I'm awfully pleased you're on that path, for however long it lasts.

Other than physical symptoms, I somehow have a driven goal to better my life and family and floating an idea to start a business building affordable homes for low-income families. I can't tell if that's the after medicines from the hospital talking or lack of oxygen to the brain somehow made me brighter. No idea. My temperament is much calmer though and I don't feel irritable or agitated. I don't feel overwhelmed. I still feelings of worthlessness, but there's a solution to it, when before there wasn't. I somehow predicted all I needed was to be close to death again and if I survived, then I should soldier on. If I died, then it was perhaps my time to go.

Being committed in a ward doesn't do me any favors or improves my state of mind. I have to be busy and engaged in something analytical. I have to be active at work or figuring out problems or make an innovative change.

 

[letmeseethedeath]

What is DMSO?

Dimethyl Sulfoxide is a clear liquid with a garlic smell and taste. It's used in a wide variety of applications, medical procedures, and homeopathy from animals to humans. It's a excellent solvent and accelerant with the ability to absorb through skin, bone, and clothing. DMSO is a carrier liquid that will carry any drug that can be dissolved through skin, mucosal linings, latex gloves, clothing, and <9mm of bone.

thank you so much

 

[Sickman75]

@Xerxes
what would the toxicology report say after a SN death?
also, is it pretty laid back mentally wise? can a person remain calm or do you get racey thoughts, all worked up, excited, pacing?
kinda looking for something i can take and lay down for a bit and not be scared, know what I mean?

 

[Ruffian]

Thank you for posting this. It's ironic how knowing your attempt would work brought you some peace. I haven't quite known where to post the fact that just knowing this forum exists has somewhat reduced my urge to CTB. Just knowing there are others who are seriously considering a viable, realistic option makes me feel better. As in, the choice is there. Plus I never considered the taking care of business aspect until I joined here.

 

[AhG]

So 15g of SN and 75mL of DMSO almost killed you? Interesting but since you said you were anemic, there is a good chance that somebody else might not be and have to add 5gs more or just have wait longer, if I'm correct. Wow, this is great tbh. I'm considering this more than my first choice. Thank you for your research.

 

[Robanon]

Me too. If this works then it seems both easy, available and painless. Could put A our of business!

 

[BjartNO]

Dear Xerxes,
could you describe how the concoctions made you feel. From the point of ingestion, and till you arrive at the hospital, and as long as you remember before it is black.

 

[color_me_gone]

floating an idea to start a business building affordable homes for low-income families

That is both honorable and brilliant, bc economies everywhere are heading south, demand would be great.
You will, of course, have to fight the powers that be.

 

[Sixfeetunder]

I'm debating if I should drink it or apply it on my skin. What are your thoughts? Or maybe I could do 50/50?

 

[Scottishchef]

Think in absorption times it will be quicker by ingesting but if you do both one will kick in quicker so if u rubbed on that would be like slower release and be the finisher

 

[Suicide47]

I have a resource thread on it if you want to read more on it. Anything that can help you make a conscious decision to go with that method and make you feel comfortable.

Where did you get the sn and the dsmo? From? I haven't even heard of that so can you fill me in please?

 

[Made4TV]

Where did you get the sn and the dsmo? From? I haven't even heard of that so can you fill me in please?

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/dmso-dimethyl-sulfoxide.10427/

 

[Sixfeetunder]

Think in absorption times it will be quicker by ingesting but if you do both one will kick in quicker so if u rubbed on that would be like slower release and be the finisher

Thanks I'll just straight up drink it then.

 

[bigj75]

Well this thread is definitely a breakthrough. I will consider this greatly.

 

[NorthAmericanQc]

Well this thread is definitely a breakthrough. I will consider this greatly.

Same. Interesting.

 

[meowcat]

Thanks I'll just straight up drink it then.

Yes but I think some people have reported vomiting and bad headaches from drinking it.You might want to consider that.
The DMSO option coupled with drinking some of it seems interesting.

 

[NorthAmericanQc]

Yeas but I think some people have reported vomiting and bad headaches from drinking it.You might want to consider that.
The DMSO option coupled with drinking some of it seems interesting.

There's also the enema option. No nausea/vomiting.

 

[Mistress Death]

There's also the enema option. No nausea/vomiting.

Would that really work?

 

[Mistress Death]

Just to reiterate and repost this because if it could work, it would be a much more desirable option (no nausea) Could an enema and the solution of 20g of sn and 100ml of dmso be successful in ctbing?

 

[NorthAmericanQc]

@Mistress Death I also thought about something last night. There's some kind of pills, I don't remember the name, when you let it melt under your tongue, it changes the taste from everything you eat and make it more pleasant. Perhaps drinking the liquid after would be not bad at all. Did some research on Amazon before posting, it's called Micracle Fruit Tablets.

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Just ordered,
- SN 99.9% from UK
- DMSO 99%
- Smart weigh balance
- 50g smart weight thingy to calibrate the balance. So I can take the exact amount of SN I want.

I hope this one works. Will do when I know I'll be alone for a while. So no chance of discovery too early.

I am 5'5 and 63.5kg.
What would be recommended for the dosage of SN?

 

[NorthAmericanQc]

And also, I just thought about taking Tylenol 30min-1hr before, to reduce the headache. Would that be possible?

Other option to probably make it even less painless, snorting Ketamine. 30-50mg, and after 30 min, another 30-50mg. The body will be anesthesiate for around 45min-1hr. I took Ketamine for a while. I barely feel any pain when I'm on it. Always need to be with someone in case I hurt myself. Just don't know if that would help against internal pain. But that's what they use in vetenary clinics prior animal operations, hell, even on horses. And sometimes in hospitals.

My girlfriend is controlling my doses. I don't have the K. Sadly.