Hello guys, long time no see!
So I carried out an experiment with DMSO and SN, and almost killed myself, but because it was an experiment and I didn't want to die, I drove myself to the ER and nurses told me I passed out at the entrance. Don't remember much after that other than what my wife and staff told me when I came to. I didn't dream, I didn't experience any NDE's, just darkness, and just a light switch, I wake up. I was in the ICU for a week, then moved to recovery unit for a few days, and then was discharged on Thursday.
Didn't get admitted to the mental ward because the doctors knew it was DMSO and that something I touched which caused Methemoglobinemia in my blood. I didn't tell them anything about SN, even though I slathered the DMSO/SN solution on my skin and drank a small dose of it. So it could've been anything and they counteracted the condition with Methylene Blue. They said my methemoglobinemia levels were 34% which can be fatal. anything over 40% is fatal, but because my blood is anemic, the reaction was much swifter and it almost was fatal hence the longer stay in the ICU for monitoring purposes.
So the experiment, luckily I wrote it down on a sticky note of my ingredients and dosages to pass on in the DMSO resource thread. I mixed 10g of SN with 50mL of DMSO and applied to my arms and chest area, it smelled like garlic, so I did a couple of drops of this olive oil essence I have to make it smell like Lightly smelling garlic Brut Cologne. I wrote that I didn't feel anything for 10 minutes. So lets kick it up a bit. I mixed 5g of SN with 25mL of DMSO in a small tea cup, dissolved it, then drank the mixture. I wrote it tasted like garlic and hot dogs, kinda burning like tabasco sauce or heavily seasoned food in the back of my throat. I don't know which happened first either the SN kicked in my blood stream from the skin application because I started feeling dizzy, kinda drowsy, and was thinking "Oh shit, the SN i drank gonna kick in soon, must get to ER". Ever drove drunk in the daytime with the afternoon sun in your eyes? It royally sucks, but I made it without any incidents on the road. Risky? Yes. Dumb as hell. You bet.
So how do I feel? I get periodic chest pains when I do some exertion, I haven't tried riding my bike, and going up stairs and any walking gets me a bit winded. I'm on iron pills and have an appointment to get oxygen treatment for the next 2 weeks. An interesting thing is, my will to die has been reduced significantly. I feel a bit smarter, more calmer, my wife scared as hell but she stayed by my side the entire time which really meant a lot. I shared my jello with her in the recovery unit. We still argued when I got home, but I was much calmer and more empathetic to her feelings. I'm not completely depressed, I feel content and I feel I can turn things around. All I needed was a brush with death to come around. We'll see how long it'll last. I still have plenty of leftovers of DMSO and SN if I feel the need to try again. I'll stick around on the forums to assist any questions with DMSO and SN, but my task with dying is on hiatus for awhile.