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unluckysadness

unluckysadness

Enlightened
Jul 9, 2025
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Damn you're so young 🥺 It was just not your time to die. I hope you'll recover soon and maybe give life another chance. So sorry for your husband 😞
Take a rest and thanks for the update.
 
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Estrella87

Student
Jul 27, 2026
126
Just saw my post on first page saying I thought you were gone, omg, makes so weird 😢

You literally have 2 lives now 😂 playing with the dead is exactly what you did
 
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pk@2001

pk@2001

Student
Apr 27, 2026
115
I hope you'll recover soon...
Thanks for keeping us updated by now
 
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Le temps perdu

Le temps perdu

smultronställe🇸🇪🇳🇴
Dec 10, 2025
473
I hope you'll recover well, wishing you all the best 🫂
 
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DeathSweetDeath

DeathSweetDeath

Visionary
Nov 12, 2025
2,171
Where can I read the most updated protocol in full. The SS megathread seems to be outdated as it was written in 2018
Many things written in 2018 and before that are not outdated. It's not an iPhone.
If im being honest other than the nausea (that only lasted long enough to urge me to call 911 and then went away once i called 🙃) it felt great, the feeling of dying is oddly pleasurable to me. If there was a drug that made me feel that way id be addicted to it

No thats the only thing i did properly lol. No food and barely a drink for 24 hours prior
24 hours is too long, there's way too much stomach acid built up after 24 hours. If 24 hours were best, the protocol would say 24 hours.
 
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Playingwiththedead

Lilah
Jun 8, 2025
60
Many things written in 2018 and before that are not outdated. It's not an iPhone.

24 hours is too long, there's way too much stomach acid built up after 24 hours. If 24 hours were best, the protocol would say 24 hours.
I didnt remember what the protocol said about fasting tbh, doesnt matter because when i get out of the ward im gonna try PSH instead, less messy and less room for error i feel
 
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fluorescentpearl

fluorescentpearl

Stirb nicht vor mir
Jul 19, 2026
698
I didnt remember what the protocol said about fasting tbh, doesnt matter because when i get out of the ward im gonna try PSH instead, less messy and less room for error i feel
I don't know that psh is a foolproof way to go, it has quite a lot of room for error, esp compared to fsh, psh takes a lot of tenacity and if you're prone to backing out of things it won't work well
 
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25menrunning

Member
Apr 5, 2026
33
Update :( i wouldve died but i couldnt stand the nausea so i called 911, never threw up, never even passed out, but i got bad cyanosis, they took me to the hospital and gave me the antidote and im all fine now, but since its florida they scheduled me for my mandatory psych ward trip.
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Hey, I'm wondering if you have any lasting effects? Like do you feel like your thinking is different or have you been having any other symptoms that could indicate mild brain damage, that's one of my fears with SN that if it doesn't work or I end up calling 911 or something that it will give me brain damage.
 
violetforever

violetforever

i hit my peak at 7
Dec 24, 2025
1,228
this was a lot to read, not literally but emotionally. im thinking of you so much 🩷
 
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Playingwiththedead

Lilah
Jun 8, 2025
60
Hey, I'm wondering if you have any lasting effects? Like do you feel like your thinking is different or have you been having any other symptoms that could indicate mild brain damage, that's one of my fears with SN that if it doesn't work or I end up calling 911 or something that it will give me brain damage.
No lol its been a few days and im fine, im just angry now that i pussied out the first time, i was so close
I don't know that psh is a foolproof way to go, it has quite a lot of room for error, esp compared to fsh, psh takes a lot of tenacity and if you're prone to backing out of things it won't work well
After my first attempt with SN fell through i looked up how chris cornell died even though i really didnt want to and he did it with a bath towel. I was shocked! If someone can do it with a towel around a door knob or something quick like that it cant be that hard!! My idea was a bed sheet around a tree or one of its branches
 
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Widow39

Member
Aug 16, 2026
94
Hmm but a bed sheet seems very large and complicated to use no?
 
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Widow39

Member
Aug 16, 2026
94
Do someone have news of the OP?

We spoke in pm 2 days ago, she told me she would go to a concert, then go in an isolated location try to do a psh with her iPhone charging cable 😓

No news since then... I hope she still from this world 😓 Even if I understand her wish to ctb, ending hanging by a phone charger in the wild is far from a nice end
 
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fluorescentpearl

fluorescentpearl

Stirb nicht vor mir
Jul 19, 2026
698
Do someone have news of the OP?

We spoke in pm 2 days ago, she told me she would go to a concert, then go in an isolated location try to do a psh with her iPhone charging cable 😓

No news since then... I hope she still from this world 😓 Even if I understand her wish to ctb, ending hanging by a phone charger in the wild is far from a nice end
I was wondering about her as well, we didn't speak much but she seemed rly set on ending it, ending it with a charger sounds difficult and not great : ( and painful, if her SI was strong with sn I can't imagine how it was with hanging
 
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Widow39

Member
Aug 16, 2026
94
Ye 😓
Let's wait and see, maybe she just took a break of the forum or so too. I believe it's highly possible it's just this. Ofc it's possible to psh with almost every kind of rope but I'm hopefully not sure it would be easy with a phone charger and that she succeeded.

I told her it was probably not the best option, but I've no news since then.
 
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Playingwiththedead

Lilah
Jun 8, 2025
60
Ye 😓
Let's wait and see, maybe she just took a break of the forum or so too. I believe it's highly possible it's just this. Ofc it's possible to psh with almost every kind of rope but I'm hopefully not sure it would be easy with a phone charger and that she succeeded.

I told her it was probably not the best option, but I've no news since then.
Lol 👻
 
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