everyone has someone except me

[overthrone]

everyone around me has been getting into relationships lately, and it's making me super fucking depressed
i have no one to love me in the way i need, not in years
it's getting really exhausting - it seems like the only time somebody is interested in me is when i'm whoring myself out, and i hate that shit
i know it sounds like a stupid reason to wanna ctb but i'm so sick of everyone around me being in love and i just have to be alone until i get hotter or become someone people would wanna date

 

[Kokonoe]

i understand how you feel completely. i hate being the only person who's alone. i hate watching everyone i know have their person and be happy. i hate knowing and having to accept that "my" person isn't mine, and i will never meet or have anyone who really is my person like that again. it would just be empty if it ever happened. im going to spend the rest of my life alone, and die alone, too. i hate it all so much.

 

[AnxiousLife]

I also hate being alone. It seems like it's so easy for some people to get into relationships and have someone who loves them, but for me it's the opposite. It's something I crave the most, to have someone who loves me and is there for me, but it seems like it's not gonna happen. Loneliness and the feeling of being different is so depressing

 

[Jadeith]

Not trying to start pissing contest here, who has it worse but you guys might find some solace in knowing that "having that other person" or relationships in general can be pretty dangerous game. To a point that i sometimes wonder - wouldn't it be a lesser evil so to speak, to be left alone?

So the story goes like this - i was untouched by another till my twenties, despite parents and sibling constantly reassuring how wonderful, nice and good looking i am. And finally - boom. Here it is, someone interested in me. Got together, got married. Happy ending? Not really, when you discover that your "romance" was a form of revenge on your partner's ex. When you find out that you are indeed "not enough" and your spouse starts to seek "thrills" outside of the marriage. And when your stupid autistic ass would rather stay in hell than allow ANY change even if for potentially better outcome. Yes, i was able to "save" this relationship but - was it right decision to do so? Everywhere online and offline you see that cheaters shouldn't get another chances. That disrespect shouldn't be tolerated.

So, given my current experience, i'd rater stay, da fuck, away from anyone and i do strongly wonder i wouldn't be happier if i just stayed single. Or preferably dead.
As the song goes - careful what you wish for.