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I watch my favorite philosophy show. Today's topic death. How does the future of death look like?

And the interviwee responds with the statement everyone dies more or less like they lived.

I have questions whether this is really accurate. I am not sure whether this also applies to suicides. They didn't address suicidality thus far. More the process of dying in general often because of a health condition.

I mean for celebrities that commit suicide. It might be true. Like a Kurt Cobain. Live fast, die young and stuff like that.

And they also have a point in the following. I am very risk averse when it comes to decision. So I choose a method that is relatively safe. My personal choice is SN. I don't care too much about minor pain and being uncomfortable because I am used to it. There are other factors that are moe important to me.

If we apply this sentence of the title I might have to conclude that I won't commit suicide. Because attempting suicide is a risky decision it can go wrong in many ways. Despite that I probably would have taken the SN if my friends didn't call the police to my home 2024. I think I can only overcome SI when I am impulsive to a certain degree. I still consider my option very thoroughly. But I think it needs the straw that broke the camel's back. For me suicide won't be like my life I assume. I cried a lot when I almost attempted. And yes it was very overwhelming. But I was in a different mode it was a difficult approach to life. It was more the idea to take this one big risk to elimate all the coming pain that is awaiting me.

And I think this only counts for the scenario when my life ends with suicide. I had to think back at one of the few flights I took in my life. I was in school and we flew to a foreign country. There was a plane crash shortly before we made this trip. And before and while we were flying I made many jokes how funny it would be if we all died in a plane crash. I can remember I was young and in a lot of pain and didn't know how to cope with it. I did many morbid jokes. And my friends didn't consider my jokes to be funny when we were in that plane. But honestly if there was something like a plane abduction and I sat in that plane. Honestly, I could imagine I would be able to remain very calm and in a weird way excited I could die soon. It would be horrible for all the people that actually wanna live and die prematurely. But honestly for me this would be similar to winning the lottery. All my fears about death and fucking it up would be over. Someone took the control from me. I had no more decisions to make. In some sense this would mean freedom for me. The freedom of pressure the freedom of responsiblity and the freedom of making something wrong. Because in such a plane crash scenario the chances you survive are very very low. Maybe I underestimate how low. But nobody could change the outcome. Such scenarios would make my death quite different to my life. Because without sorrows and worries. This isn't how my life looks like currently.
 
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Interesting
 
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I'm also risk-averse, but in my point of view NOT committing suicide would ultimately become the far greater risk. Because what I fear most is losing my freedom, most of all by falling into the hands of other humans, for instance being taken to a hospital. Or simply losing my freedom partially by losing my physical prowess. The latter wouldn't be quite as severe providing I'd still be able to CTB. The reason I work out so much and look like a bodybuilder is because to me that's at least as much freedom as I can get while incarcerated in a human body - at least make that body work very well.

As for "dying the way I lived," I think suicide would befit me quite well in this regard: alone, in darkness, kind of tragic, but also as one final act of rebellion. A "jailbreak".
 
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